I have no choice but to be successful careerwise, because of my family background and the money my parents have already invested in my education. I'm a uppermiddleclasscel tbh and my father was very successful. He studied Petroleum Engineering and was a executive manager in a large oil company. This was both good and bad growing up. I barely ever got to see him which sucked, but I was able to travel to awesome places all throughout my childhood and I got pretty much nearly everything I wanted. I was never flagrant about money though. The point is my father expects me to do the same or something similar as he did. I'm in uni right now and working towards that goal anyway but I still feel immense pressure. My older brother is a loser who dropped out of college and he always had worse grades than me so all expectations are on me. The thing is when my dad was my age he at least already had experiences with girls and a healthy social life and I have none of these things. I feel trapped by all this shit tbh tbh and I'm really afraid of failure. Basically, I can't even LDAR in peace because everybody not only expects me to be a 40 hours wageslave, no they expect me to be a "successful" 50-60 hours advanced wageslave. it's over.
