Its always the same everywhere no matter the place-playground,school,concerts,events,clubs
Ignored,ostacized,low key verbal abuse,bullied,white knighted,black knighted,
Been called meek,aggresive,annoying,talk too much,not talking enough,too pushy,too not pushy- always not doing something right.
"Just be outgoing bro"- I did go outside a lot,I did talk to people, and noone really had any interest.
I did all in my power to do things the way I saw others do and it ended with nothing but years of isolation and being touch depraved,while most others had varying degrees of SUCCESS.
Constantly meeting a wall when it comes to anything that has to do with being sociable.
I deeply regret pushing on when i encountered any ressistance,it only brought me legitamate suicide fuel and meaningless stress,shouldve just LDAR.
All my adolescense (13-20) I have maybe one or two memorable experiences and thats it,everythings else is me being scorned for not being enough or saying the wrong thing.
TL;DR
Im in the exact same position at 20 when I was 12 mentally and socially,despite doing everything in my power to change and "be outgoing"
Ignored,ostacized,low key verbal abuse,bullied,white knighted,black knighted,
Been called meek,aggresive,annoying,talk too much,not talking enough,too pushy,too not pushy- always not doing something right.
"Just be outgoing bro"- I did go outside a lot,I did talk to people, and noone really had any interest.
I did all in my power to do things the way I saw others do and it ended with nothing but years of isolation and being touch depraved,while most others had varying degrees of SUCCESS.
Constantly meeting a wall when it comes to anything that has to do with being sociable.
I deeply regret pushing on when i encountered any ressistance,it only brought me legitamate suicide fuel and meaningless stress,shouldve just LDAR.
All my adolescense (13-20) I have maybe one or two memorable experiences and thats it,everythings else is me being scorned for not being enough or saying the wrong thing.
TL;DR
Im in the exact same position at 20 when I was 12 mentally and socially,despite doing everything in my power to change and "be outgoing"
