I have a big problem, I think I'm fucked in the head. I genuinely see everything as pointless and boring, can't even motivate myself to do anything

[Deleted member 7448]

I've tried, I've really tried for a long time to see things differently, to find motivation to do things in real life, to not see everything as pointless, to not be as bored, to repair my brain.

I've tried for a long time with no success. I just don't see anything as worth doing, and it's been like this since I was a kid. It's the reason why I spent literally all my free time in my room on my computer since I was a kid. I have no interests, I care about nothing, I get excited about nothing, I like nothing, there's nothing for me to do.

It's become a huge problem for me. I literally have nothing to do and it's driving me nuts. Everything that I read online and was suggested to me in posts seems pointless. People have come up with hundreds of suggestions during the many threads I've made on various communities, I literally don't like anything. God damn it I'll go insane from the boredom.

 

[Deleted member 14430]

Its called depression

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Its called depression

Well, yeah, I first considered myself depressed at 13 or 14. It never really passed, it just sort of became my life and I forgot about it.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

i don't know what to say, i used to get really worked up about working on various computer projects but now i'm relapsing often into a state like this.

i'm pretty sure that men are supposed to be "sexualized" and "taught" that they can get women and pleasure from women at an early age. otherwise they just start consider it unrealistic and soon realise that life is hardly worth living and trying.
only being around decently attractive and non-promiscous women has ever energized me to the maximum, and it's a vanishingly rare occurence. this civilisation is determined to die so I'm not surprised that it no longer gives a shit.

 

[DaveBuster]

It's called realism. The solution is either self-delusion, or radical departure from society.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

i don't know what to say, i used to get really worked up about working on various computer projects but now i'm relapsing often into a state like this.

i'm pretty sure that men are supposed to be "sexualized" and "taught" that they can get women and pleasure from women at an early age. otherwise they just start consider it unrealistic and soon realise that life is hardly worth living and trying.
only being around decently attractive and non-promiscous women has ever energized me to the maximum, and it's a vanishingly rare occurence. this civilisation is determined to die so I'm not surprised that it no longer gives a shit.

I'm not energized by women unfortunately. All I can think in their presence is how they're fucking cunts that hate me and think of me as inferior while all they have to do for a good life is exist and have a wet hole between their legs. Of course I wouldn't dare say any of that, irl I'm a pussy.

 

[Napoleon de Nascar]

Human world is empty and meaningless. Without cute adorable waifu of culture

 

[Invalidusername]

Its called depression

 

[LastGerman]

It is because you do it only for yourself. You are the very foundation of your own motivation. There is no one else, it is just you. This is why it is so hard.
There is only one thing you can do. You have to become the ultimate creature. There is nothing else left. I am currently trying to achieve it. We as man have to achieve something greater. This is the only chance we have.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

I'm not energized by women unfortunately. All I can think in their presence is how they're fucking cunts that hate me and think of me as inferior while all they have to do for a good life is exist and have a wet hole between their legs. Of course I wouldn't dare say any of that, irl I'm a pussy.

me too but sometimes i see a 19 year old that still has awkward mannerisms and doesn't act thottish, and it's very easy to imagine she is not a whore.
the average woman, some feminist yapping about how 'her relationships never really last long' is only an energy drain.

 

[Saung-Hui Cho]

Same thing, and it feels like it’s getting worse every day.

My sex drive is completely going away. I feel like I’m going to get prostate cancer because I have stopped ejaculating. Also I stopped getting blue balls.

Life isn’t worth living.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Same thing, and it feels like it’s getting worse every day.

My sex drive is completely going away. I feel like I’m going to get prostate cancer because I have stopped ejaculating. Also I stopped getting blue balls.

Life isn’t worth living.

What do you do during your free time? I manage to kill a few years by rewatching sitcoms 50 times and playing video games or browsing stupid shit on the internet, but that doesn't work any more, I've overdone it.

 

[shoji]

try playing fortnite

 

[ihaveno1]

yea when u feel like an alien on this shit planet and everyone hates you then this happens, 99.99% of things on this planet are boring to me

 

[Incline]

I've tried, I've really tried for a long time to see things differently, to find motivation to do things in real life, to not see everything as pointless, to not be as bored, to repair my brain.

I've tried for a long time with no success. I just don't see anything as worth doing, and it's been like this since I was a kid. It's the reason why I spent literally all my free time in my room on my computer since I was a kid. I have no interests, I care about nothing, I get excited about nothing, I like nothing, there's nothing for me to do.

It's become a huge problem for me. I literally have nothing to do and it's driving me nuts. Everything that I read online and was suggested to me in posts seems pointless. People have come up with hundreds of suggestions during the many threads I've made on various communities, I literally don't like anything. God damn it I'll go insane from the boredom.

You and me are more alike than I feel comfortable admitting. It feels like we live mirror life.

 

[OverBeforeItBegan2]

I'm like that too, no hobbies or interests. I spend all my time browsing internet forums, fapping or sleeping.
The only thing that brings me some joy is lonely walks.
I really do feel like it's due to lack of female attention. Normies start making out at the age of 12/ 13. I'll be 20 in less than a week and I haven't even hugged a female that wasn't related to me.
A few years ago a girl pretended to be interested in me in an attempt to humiliate me. It went on for about a week before I found out. I was a completely different person back then. It was the most euphoric I have ever felt. Fuck whoever says relationships won't fix out problems.

 

[Saung-Hui Cho]

What do you do during your free time? I manage to kill a few years by rewatching sitcoms 50 times and playing video games or browsing stupid shit on the internet, but that doesn't work any more, I've overdone it.

I watch shit like Avengers and Game Of Thrones. I watch the NBA playoffs. But again, I’ve lost passion. It feels like everyday is the same. Everybody is narcissistic, they only care about themselves. My family is embarrassed by me, I can feel it. I don’t get invited to anything, not that I even really care.

I’m pretty good at faking shit. I realize people don’t want to be around depressed pieces of shit like me. I don’t like being around other people anyway. I don’t really understand why people are scared to die. So what if there is no afterlife? Something like 90% of all Americans are Christians, that is unfathomable to me.

 

[DaveBuster]

This is why I recommend gymcelling.

inb4: gymcelling is cope. Yes, if you're a 3/10 face, getting jacked isn't going to do jack for you

But gymcelling makes you feel better physically, and you can see and feel progress. In the end our bodies, flesh prisons that they are, is all we really have.

Gymcel. It'll be hard at first, you'll be sore if you do it right, but push through and learn to love the pain and the process.

 

[anon]

I've tried for a long time with no success. I just don't see anything as worth doing, and it's been like this since I was a kid. It's the reason why I spent literally all my free time in my room on my computer since I was a kid. I have no interests, I care about nothing, I get excited about nothing, I like nothing, there's nothing for me to do.

I'm the exact same way. I'm extremely apathetic, always have been. I don't really care about anything. I don't care about my future whatsoever. When my parents finally die and I'm left alone without money I'll end it. I don't even think about that too often. I only think about today and the past.

Never in my life have I put any kind of meaningful effort into anything. Everything I have today is because of my parents. Once they're gone I'm gone.

 

[Nothingness]

You are to self reflecsive. You think too much. Dont think but will

 

[anon]

It is because you do it only for yourself. You are the very foundation of your own motivation. There is no one else, it is just you. This is why it is so hard.

Everything I do in this life is to please my parents. I don't study 3 hours a month for myself, I only do it to keep my dad from going insane. In highschool I only did the bare minimum to pass, all for my dad. I never gave a shit about my future.
In highschool all I ever thought about was coming home and playing video games or browsing the internet. I didn't care about tests or homework. Getting an F in 10 subjects meant nothing to me, as long as it was all behind me and I could go to my room and do whatever.

It's even worse now in college. I'm losing all motivation. I don't even care enough to make my dad happy anymore, it worries me.

 

[LastGerman]

I never gave a shit about my future.
In highschool all I ever thought about was coming home and playing video games or browsing the internet.

Why is this happening? I am kinda the same way. I did not give a shit back then. But why? This is not normal at all. We wasted our times (just like right now actually) in fornt of a screen while normal people enjoying their lives.

 

[Michael15651]

Every one of us has met a decline.

 

[WhatTheCuck]

I know the exact feeling bro, all you can do is hang in there until the light at the end of the tunnel comes. For now just try abd be as productive as possible, depression is truely brutal

 

[anon]

Why is this happening? I am kinda the same way. I did not give a shit back then. But why? This is not normal at all. We wasted our times (just like right now actually) in fornt of a screen while normal people enjoying their lives.

I will never understand how normies do it. When I was in school everyone was constantly worried about exams, they were constantly talking about school related shit. I never cared, not even a tiny bit.
There were no other kids like me. Everyone was writing shit down, important information for the next exam, homework etc. I just never cared and even other kids made fun of me because of how little I cared.
I remember skipping classes for months on end. Each morning I would go out and wander around my neighborhood waiting for my parents to leave for work, then I'd just go back home and sleep or play vidya. I did this in both elementary and high school.
I got into a lot of trouble because of it, not that I cared. Luckily in my country if your parents have connections you can do almost whatever you want.

I have absolutely no motivation related to my own well-being and future. I haven't been to the doctor in over 15 years. I haven't updated my expired ID in two years. That's unheard of in my country. If a cop stopped me tomorrow I'd be fucked. Everyone around me is no normal and motivated.

My dad wants to get me a car, all I have to do is get a driver's license. I don't want to.

 

[LastGerman]

I will never understand how normies do it. When I was in school everyone was constantly worried about exams, they were constantly talking about school related shit. I never cared, not even a tiny bit.
There were no other kids like me. Everyone was writing shit down, important information for the next exam, homework etc. I just never cared and even other kids made fun of me because of how little I cared.
I remember skipping classes for months on end. Each morning I would go out and wander around my neighborhood waiting for my parents to leave for work, then I'd just go back home and sleep or play vidya. I did this in both elementary and high school.
I got into a lot of trouble because of it, not that I cared. Luckily in my country if your parents have connections you can do almost whatever you want.

I have absolutely no motivation related to my own well-being and future. I haven't been to the doctor in over 15 years. I haven't updated my expired ID in two years. That's unheard of in my country. If a cop stopped me tomorrow I'd be fucked. Everyone around me is no normal and motivated.

My dad wants to get me a car, all I have to do is get a driver's license. I don't want to.

Do you know why that is? What is the cause of it?

 

[mylifeistrash]

by the time you hit 25 or 30 most shit is boring

you're running on habits and pure willpower

which is why most people get fat around that age and give up on life

while only military ultra disciplined people make it healthy into old age

 

[anon]

Do you know why that is? What is the cause of it?

It's caused by being sub5 and sub6'0". I have autism, depression, schizoid etc. because I'm unattractive.
If I was attractive and tall since puberty none of this would be happening to me. I'm 100% sure of it.
I'd be so happy if I was tall and had a 7/10+ face.
I know it sounds autistic, but I am autistic. It's also the truth. All these meme mental illnesses are linked to your physical attractiveness. If I woke up tomorrow having a 7/10 face and being 6'3" I'd immediately become motivated. Waking up and doing shit would be effortless. All my meme illnesses would become irrelevant or they'd go away with my newly acquired self-esteem and confidence.

I'd happily go to class and enjoy being the one who mogs for once. All the positive attention and feeling good about my body would heal my mental illnesses.

 

[GeneticFilth]

It's because you're blackpilled while being ugly.

 

[LastGerman]

It's caused by being sub5 and sub6'0". I have autism, depression, schizoid etc. because I'm unattractive.

Life is truly only enjoyable if you have fun, otherwise it is pretty dull.

I know it sounds autistic, but I am autistic. It's also the truth.

Indeed. This is nothing but a biological truth.

 

[anon]

Life is truly only enjoyable if you have fun, otherwise it is pretty dull.



Indeed. This is nothing but a biological truth.

Life begins at 6'0" and 7/10 face.

 

[OmniVoid]

Same. Life isn't worth living. Just rope.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

As an ugly low status man, that is your natural state after being blackpilled.

It's because you're blackpilled while being ugly.

 

[Pepsi_man]

I've tried, I've really tried for a long time to see things differently, to find motivation to do things in real life, to not see everything as pointless, to not be as bored, to repair my brain.

I've tried for a long time with no success. I just don't see anything as worth doing, and it's been like this since I was a kid. It's the reason why I spent literally all my free time in my room on my computer since I was a kid. I have no interests, I care about nothing, I get excited about nothing, I like nothing, there's nothing for me to do.

It's become a huge problem for me. I literally have nothing to do and it's driving me nuts. Everything that I read online and was suggested to me in posts seems pointless. People have come up with hundreds of suggestions during the many threads I've made on various communities, I literally don't like anything. God damn it I'll go insane from the boredom.

I've been going through this shit for years now, but it only got worse in this year at least before i had a job and made some money but now i'm just NEET and i just really gave up i don't see any point in working or doing anything i've lost the motivation to pursue my goals , nothing matters anymore to me, i'm lost but i really want to escape from this situation.

I will never understand how normies do it. When I was in school everyone was constantly worried about exams, they were constantly talking about school related shit. I never cared, not even a tiny bit.
There were no other kids like me. Everyone was writing shit down, important information for the next exam, homework etc. I just never cared and even other kids made fun of me because of how little I cared.
I remember skipping classes for months on end. Each morning I would go out and wander around my neighborhood waiting for my parents to leave for work, then I'd just go back home and sleep or play vidya. I did this in both elementary and high school.
I got into a lot of trouble because of it, not that I cared. Luckily in my country if your parents have connections you can do almost whatever you want.

I have absolutely no motivation related to my own well-being and future. I haven't been to the doctor in over 15 years. I haven't updated my expired ID in two years. That's unheard of in my country. If a cop stopped me tomorrow I'd be fucked. Everyone around me is no normal and motivated.

My dad wants to get me a car, all I have to do is get a driver's license. I don't want to.

High IQ i've always wondered why i don't care about school or exams while even the school bullies and losers seem to care at the very least compared to me i simply didn't it's like i'm living life on auto pilot

 

[TheRealChincel]

You’re woke, OP, nothing’s wrong with you.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I cant even get into video games anymore