I just want to be real about something for a moment, something that's been on my mind for years. I HATE how women especially attractive women are never expected or pressured by society or men to ever make the first move in a relationship. Throughout history it's always been on men and men only which is something that I think is extremely unfair and just cruel. To have this insane amount of pressure put on us men practically since birth to make the first move when it comes to trying to get with a woman. And of course if we're not able to make the first move or talk to women we get fucking nothing, nothing at all, we're left to just suffer with our dark selves and thoughts eating away at us for so many years but starting from when we're teenagers. But then by our 20s it just completely takes off and becomes full on extreme and it eats away at our hearts minds and literally souls as well. Women will never know what it like to have this insane unfair amount of pressure put us men and only men since birth, this is why men commit suicide 4 times more likely then women or it's definitely one of the main reasons. I just find it so unfair that even super hot women who are obviously bursting with confidence pride self worth self love who are so successful and accomplished even those women are not expected or pressured by men women or society to make the first move in a relationship. One thing that makes my blood boil is attractive women because everytime whenever I go out in public to the grocery store with my Mom or any kind of public social gathering or event I'm extremely uncomfortable nervous stressed out shy introverted and intimidated by these women. I've been this way since I was a teenager and it's not like as I got older it got better no it got worse much worse so bad to the point I will never be able to come back from this. And of course women don't make it easier by starting the conversation and walking up to us shy introverted men who are uncomfortable nervous stressed out around and and intimidated by them and how attractive they are. They never try to make us feel welcome like we belong like we are loved cared about and respected, they make us feel like shit they don't care about us or our feelings or the darkness we are going through that we are constantly trying to keep at Bay. I'll end by saying this I never had any girls who were friends with me when I was a kid in elementary school, or middle school, so by the time I got into highschool as a 15 year old teenager I never got used to or normalized to girls I never became comfortable around them because they never talked to me or wanted to be friends with me when I was a kid growing up. And because of highschool I have become scared for life no thanks to those girls who didn't just throw themselves at me and chase me and flirt with me and only go for INCEL MEN.
