Venting I hate that I don't care anymore about life in general

[onyxorion]

Recently had homework which counted for my grade and I turned in a half ass excuse for it, I could not be bothered. I had no sense of urgency and lack of motivation. Only to note I'm extremely suicidal since the year started. Given how my grades are slipping, everyday feels like an excuse to end it all but my biology won't allow me
I'm mentally tapped out as it is so it feels like I'm in limbo or rather purgatory for that matter.

Parents lecture me about my grades but I can't tell them since they've had the "muh bootstraps" mindset and I got gaslight so many times as a result of it.

I feel like I either try anti depressants or some weird mushrooms because it can't go on like this

 

[zd60]

not caring about life makes it easier for me, I just rot, do drugs and hope for my misery to end

 

[Wrath]

no point in caring about life as an outcast

 

[onyxorion]

not caring about life makes it easier for me, I just rot, do drugs and hope for my misery to end

I'm rotting basically

 

[zd60]

I'm rotting basically

All I do is let my walking meat sack rot, its been rotting since I was born, it brings my death sooner which brings me closer to a peaceful slumber from this endless hell I bathe in daily

 

[RSH]

All I do is let my walking meat sack rot, its been rotting since I was born, it brings my death sooner which brings me closer to a peaceful slumber from this endless hell I bathe in daily

Fucking hell, people like you on this site make me feel good about myself. I'm a virgin, not a degenerate.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Same—I barely care about anything anymore.

 

[autistic.goblin]

no point in caring about life as an outcast

 

[zd60]

Fucking hell, people like you on this site make me feel good about myself. I'm a virgin, not a degenerate.

That's fine, you'll still die

 

[RSH]

That's fine, you'll still die

Take the whitepill, my friend. Life is terrible and unfair but there is literally nothing you can do to change that so you may as well reconcile and make peace with that fact, don't let it concern you; instead do everything on your end that you can maximise your enjoyment and happiness in life.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

no point in caring about life as an outcast

 

[zd60]

Take the whitepill, my friend. Life is terrible and unfair but there is literally nothing you can do to change that so you may as well reconcile and make peace with that fact, don't let it concern you; instead do everything on your end that you can maximise your enjoyment and happiness in life.

Nothing in this world could bring me joy, not any pill not any drug not any medicine and no religion will the only thing that will end my misery is my death, being incel is just one part of my suffering

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Take the whitepill, my friend. Life is terrible and unfair but there is literally nothing you can do to change that so you may as well reconcile and make peace with that fact, don't let it concern you; instead do everything on your end that you can maximise your enjoyment and happiness in life.

So pretty much just cope for no reason

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Nothing in this world could bring me joy, not any pill not any drug not any medicine and no religion will the only thing that will end my misery is my death, being incel is just one part of my suffering

The whitepill doesn't exist for people like us. We're too far down the rabbit hole.

 

[zd60]

The whitepill doesn't exist for people like us. We're too far down the rabbit hole.

True, but only someone who has fallen that far down the rabbit hole will truly be able to grasp and understand that

 

[cantTieMyShoes]

ok

 

[NiloSaharanWarlord]

Fuck hardwork, im just going to sit on my ass everyday and blame it on losing the genetic lottery. oh wait i never had a chance in the first place loool

 

[Xul]

My one parent when i was a kid also told me to pick myself up by my bootstrap after abusing me jfl

Trip yourself like a man!

 

[Emba]

ok