I have made a thread previously on this same cousin. But here she is again, back and tormenting me. She arrives at my grandparents house (also my house) yesterday and is already snarky, but it's fine for most of my day because I'm either outside or in my room. My brother (not the one I've made a thread about previously, this Brother is only 2 years younger than I) decides to come over and he comes in my room, this is fine, he wants to start a relationship up with me. This is expected to happen, recently whenever I've been near him he's been attempting to amend for his past of slighting me. Previously he suggested we go for a walk at a nearby reserve, these plans fell through but they were made in earnest, I'm not as "excited" to start a relationship as he, because I was always on the receiving end of the mockery, given I was a weirdo and he was some kind of tough guy gangster who went around threatening people with knives. He even stabbed me once, he stabbed me in my wrist as I used it to block the blade. I tell you this so you can sort of understand my unease and apprehension at his reapproach. So anyway he sits down and tries to start a conversation with me about how to play the banjo, as I have one, then my cousin walks in and oh, I wanted to be put out of my misery. My cousin made the entire thing about her, I was drowned out in a conversation that she wasn't even invited to, I could tell my brother was only entertaining her out of politeness but she either didn't pick up the social cues or didn't care. Eventually they both leave and I am left alone again.
I come out of my room at dinner, its a good dinner, pork chops and potatoes. I sit down in my regular seat I sit in every time. This isn't particularly relevant to the current story but I am reminded of a time, some 3-5 years ago, where my seat had sparked an argument. My cousin goes and tries to argue with me about my seat I've sat in since before she was born! I of course win because my grandparents reaffirm my claim of that being my seat, but I still haven't gotten over such blatant social challenging. But anyways to return to the story, my cousin decided to sit next to me as my grandfather (whom I usually sit next to) wasn't here that day. This was already a blatant provocation and attempt to upend the current social order, but I said nothing as to do anything now would make me seem like the unreasonable one. This continues to escalate, she launches barrages of escalations at me, mocking things like my cooking ability or lack thereof, things like "you don't even cook your own food" and eventually culminating in calling me a "bigback". This is where I snap and burst out with a rage fueled sarcasm "oh yes, I am fat" to which she responds "thats not what big back means" now I, in a frustrated anger remark on her simpleness and the very fact she doesn't understand either what they mean or how to use the most basic of words, including slang such as "big back" (for context I am notably skinny). At this she attempts some snarky quip to which I ignore, already sick of her stupid voice which has the accent of simultaneously an inbred hick and a baby. I finish dinner and return to my room.
Morning comes, I awake get dressed, go to town and do my various chores and shopping. I stop for a break at the same chip shop I wrote about in another thread, nothing nearly as eventful happens, I merely take my food and go elsewhere, not wanting a repeat. I come home, put the bags where they need go and go to toilet. As soon as I flush the toilet I am ordered to go get firewood by my nan, I oblige but first have something else to do. To the fact that I do not do this instantly my cousin begins her remarks, statements like "see nan, this is why he doesn't have a girlfriend, its not going to be his brother living in a basement its going to be him!" and it gets worse, she attempts to get my grandmother to pay her my weekly keep! As if I don't work for it due to not going the instant I'm told to do something, the gall! She attempts to justify it because she apparently does more work than me and evidenced her cleaning the toilet! Cleaning the toilet, you're trying to justify stealing my pay by cleaning a toilet! A toilet that either she dirtied or was already clean. I remain tight lipped through all of this because I cannot be coming home from town, which I hate, just to deal with this bullshit immediately. This is a common problem in my life, I am constantly taken issue with due to the fact that I have other stuff I am doing and cannot do everyone demands as soon as they give them, acting as if I'm some kind of serf. I also suspect she will pull some other stunt tonight as well. If ever I kill myself I'm taking her with me.
I come out of my room at dinner, its a good dinner, pork chops and potatoes. I sit down in my regular seat I sit in every time. This isn't particularly relevant to the current story but I am reminded of a time, some 3-5 years ago, where my seat had sparked an argument. My cousin goes and tries to argue with me about my seat I've sat in since before she was born! I of course win because my grandparents reaffirm my claim of that being my seat, but I still haven't gotten over such blatant social challenging. But anyways to return to the story, my cousin decided to sit next to me as my grandfather (whom I usually sit next to) wasn't here that day. This was already a blatant provocation and attempt to upend the current social order, but I said nothing as to do anything now would make me seem like the unreasonable one. This continues to escalate, she launches barrages of escalations at me, mocking things like my cooking ability or lack thereof, things like "you don't even cook your own food" and eventually culminating in calling me a "bigback". This is where I snap and burst out with a rage fueled sarcasm "oh yes, I am fat" to which she responds "thats not what big back means" now I, in a frustrated anger remark on her simpleness and the very fact she doesn't understand either what they mean or how to use the most basic of words, including slang such as "big back" (for context I am notably skinny). At this she attempts some snarky quip to which I ignore, already sick of her stupid voice which has the accent of simultaneously an inbred hick and a baby. I finish dinner and return to my room.
Morning comes, I awake get dressed, go to town and do my various chores and shopping. I stop for a break at the same chip shop I wrote about in another thread, nothing nearly as eventful happens, I merely take my food and go elsewhere, not wanting a repeat. I come home, put the bags where they need go and go to toilet. As soon as I flush the toilet I am ordered to go get firewood by my nan, I oblige but first have something else to do. To the fact that I do not do this instantly my cousin begins her remarks, statements like "see nan, this is why he doesn't have a girlfriend, its not going to be his brother living in a basement its going to be him!" and it gets worse, she attempts to get my grandmother to pay her my weekly keep! As if I don't work for it due to not going the instant I'm told to do something, the gall! She attempts to justify it because she apparently does more work than me and evidenced her cleaning the toilet! Cleaning the toilet, you're trying to justify stealing my pay by cleaning a toilet! A toilet that either she dirtied or was already clean. I remain tight lipped through all of this because I cannot be coming home from town, which I hate, just to deal with this bullshit immediately. This is a common problem in my life, I am constantly taken issue with due to the fact that I have other stuff I am doing and cannot do everyone demands as soon as they give them, acting as if I'm some kind of serf. I also suspect she will pull some other stunt tonight as well. If ever I kill myself I'm taking her with me.
