Blackpill I hate feeling so empty

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Weird that I want all this validation and yet I hate most people. Really don't know why I constantly crave validation.

Growing up was rough I guess. I just want comfort in knowing that I matter.

I used to always give up back in school. Kids would try to include me in tag, but I was never fast enough, and I would just give up.

The sandbox was my only friend. Always stuck in my own world. Sad that I miss those days. The pain was so much less back then.

For some reason Nirvana reminds me of my childhood. All those days just sitting out by the tree.

Nothing mattered back then. I just wanted to be happy.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

When I was younger foids gave me more attention as well. I had this one crippled foid who liked me I think.

I remember telling one slote that she needed to shave her arms because they were hairy and looked like a man's.

 

[|R12|]

Same here.​

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Back then I felt something more in life. My days spent outside had meaning. I just don't understand how things went so wrong.

I need to keep that little side of me. To retain my innocence.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Same here.​

I'm sorry brocel

I wish all of you guys never had to go through this horrible life. I would never let you suffer like this.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Also sorry, I'm drinking rn. Just thinking back on life. Please don't let me give up on everything.

 

[RyderYe]

i feel you. i hate being alone i hate making friends too . i have some hard time as child made me not trusting anyone even my family
i believe if our childhood wasn't peaceful and happy we are doomed nothing can fix a childhood the damage has been done already
one day I'll die alone and sad without anyone by my side brutal

 

[RyderYe]

When I was younger foids gave me more attention as well. I had this one crippled foid who liked me I think.

I remember telling one slote that she needed to shave her arms because they were hairy and looked like a man's.

foids were never interested in me i have some bad memories with them as a child

 

[RyderYe]

Back then I felt something more in life. My days spent outside had meaning. I just don't understand how things went so wrong.

I need to keep that little side of me. To retain my innocence.

>I just don't understand how things went so wrong.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

i feel you. i hate being alone i hate making friends too . i have some hard time as child made me not trusting anyone even my family
i believe if our childhood wasn't peaceful and happy we are doomed nothing can fix a childhood the damage has been done already
one day I'll die alone and sad without anyone by my side brutal

I will be there

You don't die alone. Not as long as I live.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

foids were never interested in me i have some bad memories with them as a child

Mostly the same for me. My mother was a teacher though, and after school I would hangout on the playground and play with other kids who's parents were teachers.

Most of my time was spent outside. I think that's why I feel much better being outdoors. It brings me closer to nature.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

>I just don't understand how things went so wrong.

please keep a part of your innocence. Childhood is our only era when things were semi decent.

 

[|R12|]

I'm sorry brocel

I wish all of you guys never had to go through this horrible life. I would never let you suffer like this.

After seeing people commit actions you'd never think you'd witness outside of social media,
this safe place where you can talk to real people feels like an opportunity.
We should be happy to remember that we still have this.
​

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

My old school

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

After seeing people commit actions you'd never think you'd witness outside of social media,
this safe place where you can talk to real people feels like an opportunity.
We should be happy to remember that we still have this.
​

Agreed brocel

 

[AustrianMogger]

I hate my life man

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I hate my life man

Same brocel

 

[estonia2k]

The sandbox was my only friend. Always stuck in my own world. Sad that I miss those days. The pain was so much less back then.


Nothing mattered back then. I just wanted to be happy.

the world has shown its cruelty to you. Its hard to return to our natural state of neutral/happy existence.

 

[RyderYe]

I will be there

You don't die alone. Not as long as I live.

thank you brocel

 

[RyderYe]

Mostly the same for me. My mother was a teacher though, and after school I would hangout on the playground and play with other kids who's parents were teachers.

Most of my time was spent outside. I think that's why I feel much better being outdoors. It brings me closer to nature.

me to i used to spend most of my time outdoor but in 2020 i had agoraphobia and paranoia

 

[RyderYe]

please keep a part of your innocence. Childhood is our only era when things were semi decent.

i agree things went nasty for me as grown up

 

[boneless goblin]

View: https://youtu.be/hTWKbfoikeg?si=twSsL_V4JAXmjVP6

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

the world has shown its cruelty to you. Its hard to return to our natural state of neutral/happy existence.

I just feel so sad and angry

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

thank you brocel

No need for thanks. I wish you well friend.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

me to i used to spend most of my time outdoor but in 2020 i had agoraphobia and paranoia

Same brocel. I can't interact with anyone anymore

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

View: https://youtu.be/hTWKbfoikeg?si=twSsL_V4JAXmjVP6

Kurt is my biggest hero. I know it's gay to crush on another man, but he was a genius, and I wish I could be him. He's so smart, beyond his years.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Shoutout to audible. I got in contact with their support, and they gave me a refund for my stupidity.

They are good souls. Thank you to all who care.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I don't want to be me.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I don't want to be me.

Hang on

View: https://youtu.be/eOsKdVpKDHY?si=HpWklmOZwRIY3Hvj

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I am bleeding from my skin.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I'm six shots deep. Gonna finish the bottle.

 

[boneless goblin]

Kurt is my biggest hero. I know it's gay to crush on another man, but he was a genius, and I wish I could be him. He's so smart, beyond his years.

yea, I didn't listen much of his but it sounss pretty cool

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

yea, I didn't listen much of his but it sounss pretty cool

Listen to the lyrics. And feel his pain. So too will you feel yourself

 

[boneless goblin]

Listen to the lyrics. And feel his pain. So too will you feel yourself

sure sir

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

sure sir

View: https://youtu.be/AqWE2f5X6hw?si=99WunWIYpf4Cau3O

 

[RyderYe]

Same brocel. I can't interact with anyone anymore

i isolated my self for long ass time it's over for me

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

i isolated my self for long ass time it's over for me

It's never over for you. you have so much to bring to this world.

 

[RyderYe]

It's never over for you. you have so much to bring to this world.

your words means a lot brocel

 

[kcarrots]

Also sorry, I'm drinking rn. Just thinking back on life. Please don't let me give up on everything.

Well help you to keep going!

 

[Leon98]

I just don't understand how things went so wrong.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

your words means a lot brocel