Venting I hate feeling so bitter and lonely.

[Incelibate anarchist]

I dont think I have ever done anything to deserve this. I am in constant disbelief of the state of my own existance. Its not like I just woke up this way one day, my life has been in a state of decline for years. I noticed it but never paid close enough attention. Like if you are having medical issues but forget about it once you start feeling better, you're not better you just feel that way in that moment. It gets worse as time goes on until you are forced to deal with it.

I shouldn't even be so upset, but I see others, including fellow incels who are doing so much better for themselves in life. Even those who talk about "LDARing all day" have more going on in life, even here Im a societal outcast. I feel more and more jealous as the days pass. I spit up blood last night because I just got so frustrated. It has gotten me nowhere. I've began to hate everybody whether or not they have done anything to me, seeing other people living superior lives make me upset beyond reason. Nowdays I have so much trouble with the little things in life, things I used to do just fine with. I wish everything would get better, if only for a short while.

 

[TomathonClancy]

I know that feel, man. These last few weeks I've felt awful, like there was an empty hole in my stomach.

 

[Newbie17]

I know that feel, man. These last few weeks I've felt awful, like there was an empty hole in my stomach.

Take a shower

 

[Deleted member 5861]

Cucktears thinks you need to get a haircut.

 

[Incelibate anarchist]

Take a shower

Showermaxxing should wash away the sub-humanity, right?

 

[Gremlincel]

I wish I had words of condolence, or encouragement, but man.. once you reach the point we are at, and lose all hope, what is there to be left to said? What silver lining is to be pointed out? We are in hell, and we cannot escape. Things, if anything, will probably get worse.
Instead, I cope with the idea things will be better when we die. It is absurd, and far fetched, but god, I hope, when we are killed, we will open our eyes once more, this time in beautiful bodies, in a beautiful land, feeling rested and happy, and realize, the darkness is left behind.

 

[Newbie17]

Showermaxxing should wash away the sub-humanity, right?

Indeed. Just lol if you don’t agree. Your showerful personality will shine through.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I've began to hate everybody whether or not they have done anything to me, seeing other people living superior lives make me upset beyond reason.

I understand this, but I don't hate them. When I see most normies, especially couples, I often feel like I'm on the verge of tears without the ability to cry. Or that I just want to attack them, not because I blame them, but I just want to destroy the happiness that I don't have, so it no longer exists. Similar I suppose, to a kid who destroys his friend's sandcastle, because it's bigger than his, or only due to it being built and possessed by someone else.

Usually I just isolate myself to avoid this.

 

[Newbie17]

...

Just curious, are you NEETcel? I know that rotting at home can do certain damage.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

I've began to hate everybody whether or not they have done anything to me, seeing other people living superior lives make me upset beyond reason.

Same tbh. It's hard not to assume every one in society despises my existence inherently.

I don't think there's much i've done wrong aside from making angry comments in our own little corner of the internet, separate from where anyone else has to read and be affected by them, and yet society still beats me down so thoroughly. So I can't help but seeing every normal functioning member of society as people worth hating. I've been outcasted but they haven't, and it all came down to genetics.

 

[Incelibate anarchist]

I wish I had words of condolence, or encouragement, but man.. once you reach the point we are at, and lose all hope, what is there to be left to said? What silver lining is to be pointed out? We are in hell, and we cannot escape. Things, if anything, will probably get worse.
Instead, I cope with the idea things will be better when we die. It is absurd, and far fetched, but god, I hope, when we are killed, we will open our eyes once more, this time in beautiful bodies, in a beautiful land, feeling rested and happy, and realize, the darkness is left behind.

I hope things are better after death, otherwise there is no point to this suffering.

I understand this, but I don't hate them. When I see most normies, especially couples, I often feel like I'm on the verge of tears without the ability to cry. Or that I just want to attack them, not because I blame them, but I just want to destroy the happiness that I don't have, so it no longer exists. Similar I suppose, to a kid who destroys his friend's sandcastle, because it's bigger than his, or only due to it being built and possessed by someone else.

Usually I just isolate myself to avoid this.

I see what you're saying and Ive felt that way myself before, I wish I felt nothing at all. I cant stand them, I feel like they are tormenting me on purpose now, its so direct.

Just curious, are you NEETcel? I know that rotting at home can do certain damage.

Indeed I am, extreme social isolation can strip you of your sanity.

Same tbh. It's hard not to assume every one in society despises my existence inherently.

I don't think there's much i've done wrong aside from making angry comments in our own little corner of the internet, separate from where anyone else has to read and be affected by them, and yet society still beats me down so thoroughly. So I can't help but seeing every normal functioning member of society as people worth hating. I've been outcasted but they haven't, and it all came down to genetics.

I just want to be left alone at this point and they wont even allow that.

 

[Anger]

Honestly there is no hope for you, once you fall to the bottomless pit there is no way you can escape from that, you can cope, you can scream but you surely as heel you cannot escape from all this, so you better embrace your reality or just commit suicide (which is the reasonable solution) so you can finally rest for once and for all, i will do that in a couple of months

 

[Deleted member 126]

Same feels. If you ever want to talk about anything you can message me.

 

[WinterFlake]

I think i feel the same, as the years pass me by, i only can see how others life improve, while i still lonely and wondering "¿when that´s going to happend to me?". I already become more irritable and start feeling jealous of the people who got the luck (genes and personality) that i´ll never have, even in my work place i still see how others receive approvement and company, while i just stay quiet feeling so empty.