Yesterday while returning home from college , I encountered with a foid, I was in the same internship group with this foid. She just said hello and I said hello too and she asked "did you leave early today?". I said "yes", then she said "goodbye" and I said "goodbye" too and that was it. To me, everything was normal and I had not acted in any way strange. But today this foid sulked at me all day and eventually she came to me and said, "Why did you treat me like that the yesterday?" . According to her, I bowed my head and ignored her. I didn't intentionally try to be rude, I rarely talk to foids and I try to be nice when I do because I'm so lonely and desperate. I explained the situation to her, I said that some of my behaviors might seem strange to her because I am autistic, that I did not do it on purpose. And when I said I was autistic, she chuckled, because she didn't think I really meant it. She thought I was making some kind of joke by humiliating myself. Anyway, I fixed the problem somehow.
But think about it, I can make a foid disgusted even in a 15 second conversation that seems perfectly normal to me. Foids can definitely detect autism from even 2 words you say, I'm spreading a "non-nt" halo to environment. This made me even more paranoid, I wonder how many of the situations I embrassed myself when I think I'm acting completely normal. In high school sometimes when I said something to classmates, everyone would laugh at me and I wouldn't even understand why they were laughing. I can understand now. I am so autistic that when I act autistic, I don't even realize it, everything seems normal to me. And in this situation, it's impossible for me to approach foids, it never began for me. nt is everything. I could sacrifice 5 cm of my height just to be nt.
But think about it, I can make a foid disgusted even in a 15 second conversation that seems perfectly normal to me. Foids can definitely detect autism from even 2 words you say, I'm spreading a "non-nt" halo to environment. This made me even more paranoid, I wonder how many of the situations I embrassed myself when I think I'm acting completely normal. In high school sometimes when I said something to classmates, everyone would laugh at me and I wouldn't even understand why they were laughing. I can understand now. I am so autistic that when I act autistic, I don't even realize it, everything seems normal to me. And in this situation, it's impossible for me to approach foids, it never began for me. nt is everything. I could sacrifice 5 cm of my height just to be nt.
