SuicideFuel I guess I never really had this one good friend

[TooSomething]

I have, here and there, talked about a good friend of mine from the USA, whom I have met online, chatted with a lot, including video chats. We have known each other for a little over ten years now.

I have been thinking for a whole year that he had died because he just disappeared one day and I couldn't reach him.

The reason I thought that was because he had been very sick, very often before disappearing and he had also been hospitalized a lot and it was serious.

So, I was afraid all this time to try and contact someone who knows him, like his family or co-workers.

But, a couple of days I decided that I couldn't live with this uncertainty anymore so I made an effort to look up his name and since I knew his date of birth, first name and place of work, it was rather easy to find another phone number.
Yes, I have his own phone number. We have had exchanged them a long time ago, but he never responded.

I even know where he lives because he showed me on google maps.

So, I've found people with the same last name, coincidentally living at the same adress.
I have called three of them and it turns out that one of them was his father and the others I don't know about.

I have even called the cops to run a welfare check. Believe it or not, they believed me and ran that welfare check.
Man, I am grateful to those guys, ngl, because they have found out that he is alive.

But he called me before I could call them to inquire their results.

He seemed pretty pissed, which surprised me, because I really care for him and did everything in my power to find the truth.

He was pissed at me for calling his place of work, his family members and the cops.

He said that it has caused him a lot of stress and THEN he's told me the cops were the last thing he needed right now.

I don't know wtf happened there.
He had promised me to call me or contact me last weekend to explain to me why he was gone for so long, but he never did that and now I am wondering whether he really even cares.

I mean, how can you leave your friend with such uncertainty?

I even planned to fly there next year to figure out what was going on, seriousely.

I have the money, so I would have done that, for my friend.

And now I am left in the dark again. I wonder whether he even considers me a friend, tbh.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

you got ghosted i guess, it happens to friends too now

for the record my last friend never called me either once he moved on to another job, i called him one more time then stopped cos i know the drill

 

[pauseforever]

Brutal man, it must be confusing and hurtful to have a close friend kinda just ghost you like that

it turns out that one of them was his father

Does his father not know anything about his current status?

 

[TooSomething]

Brutal man, it must be confusing and hurtful to have a close friend kinda just ghost you like that

Does his father not know anything about his current status?

His father has not replied to any of the messages I left on the mailbox because he would never pick up the phone.

 

[pauseforever]

His father has not replied to any of the messages I left on the mailbox because he would never pick up the phone.

You've mentioned he (your friend) is also blackpilled, right?

Then there's still a possibility he is in a bad depressive episode. A depressive flare-up could lead to isolation and irritability. He would lack any motivation to maintain family and social bonds, and react negatively even to caring messages from others. The depressed brain is a weird thing. When he says "the cops were the last thing he needed right now", he may be indicating he is feeling shitty and doesn't want to interact with people, rather that he got in trouble with the cops.

Of course it's also possible he doesn't care, since he broke his promise to call you

 

[TooSomething]

You've mentioned he (your friend) is also blackpilled, right?

Then there's still a possibility he is in a bad depressive episode. A depressive flare-up could lead to isolation and irritability. He would lack any motivation to maintain family and social bonds, and react negatively even to caring messages from others. The depressed brain is a weird thing. When he says "the cops were the last thing he needed right now", he may be indicating he is feeling shitty and doesn't want to interact with people, rather that he got in trouble with the cops.

Of course it's also possible he doesn't care, since he broke his promise to call you

You are right about the depression part, as in, I know what it's like. I have been depressed for many years now.

It is getting better, but maybe that is his problem.

I remember that the last couple of times we've talked he was stoned most of the time.
And I have to say that I never knew him as one to smoke weed or take any other drugs.

He didn't smoke in front of the camera, but he did so when we were talking on the phone.

Back in my early twenties I would smoke weed and drink liquor to numb my emotional pain. It didn't numb it though, so I have quit it all.

 

[kerberos41]

I'm sorry. When I'm stressed or busy, I do the same thing of ghosting my friends. Fortunately, a few good friends finally forgave me.

I knew it wasn't fair to them, but I couldn't think about it that much. When I ghost them for too long, reconnecting with them becomes a new kind of pressure, because I don't know how to explain my disappearance, because I feel that "recently tired" seems too light and unconvincing.

You're right. It's mostly his fault. You're doing this because you care about him. This is enough to show that you really care about him and not just comfort him perfunctorily. He should cherish you.

A friend of mine did something similar to you. He called me on many different numbers though I blocked his number and even threatened me to call the police because he suspected I had been murdered. This year is the tenth year of my acquaintance with him, and he has always been my most cherished good friend.

If you are willing to give him another chance, you can set a deadline in your heart to see if he can give you an apology and explanation before then. But I think he broke your heart, and you can try to put him down completely. Sometimes a relationship just hurts, and sometimes people like him are just destined to push all their true friends away.

I have heard a saying: "It is not that the person standing under the sakura tree is beautiful, but that the sakura tree is beautiful, so it seems that the person under the tree is beautiful."

You are the sakura tree. You are a true friend. I hope you can find a person who is worthy of your sincerity and give back their sincerity to you.

 

[kerberos41]

It's not worth being sad for such a person. You are very good. You have done all that a friend can do, and more. I'm sorry to say this, but to you, he's like an underwater weed that will wrap around your ankles, drag you to the same depth as him and drown. Give him up and swim ashore.

 

[Esoteric7]

Boyfriends.is

 

[TooSomething]

It's not worth being sad for such a person. You are very good. You have done all that a friend can do, and more. I'm sorry to say this, but to you, he's like an underwater weed that will wrap around your ankles, drag you to the same depth as him and drown. Give him up and swim ashore.

You don't know him like I do. I think something bad happened.

Maybe his wife divorced him. It wouldn't surprise me seeing as he had trouble finding a well paying job.

He was, afaik, never unemployed, but he has never earned a lot of money by US standards.

He also had an expensive hobby, racing. He had to give that and .any other hobbies up after his daughter was born.

Whole he is black pilled, he is a sex haver and a father.

From what I know he've never left his town and the woman he is with he practically gre up with.
I don't mind him being a sexhaver. That comes with its own problem and I know because we used to talk about everything.

Since he has a daughter I have even black pilled him on female nature and explained to him what he, as a father, should look out for and expect.
He wasn't even surprised by any of that as he knew most of it.

I just think that something bad happened in his life and he is very busy fixing that.

This has happened before when he became a father and had absolutely no time to come online. Then he also got very sick.

I almost thought, back then, that he gave up on gaming as a whole and left for good.

Then, one day he came back and explained it all to me. I congratulated him on becoming a father. I was and am happy for him. I was waiting for him this whole time, tbh.

Come to think of it, I have met two other pretty decent dudes online. I think I owe them some company.

I have to get my gaming PC up and running this weekend so we can catch up on old times.

But this one guy, he was more than just a friend to me. I always looked up to him. He was always so disciplined and the way he's handled his life and all.

I have even told him all that when he came back that one day.
I wish he would tell me what is going on.

 

[TooSomething]

Boyfriends.is

 

[kerberos41]

You don't know him like I do. I think something bad happened.

Maybe his wife divorced him. It wouldn't surprise me seeing as he had trouble finding a well paying job.

He was, afaik, never unemployed, but he has never earned a lot of money by US standards.

He also had an expensive hobby, racing. He had to give that and .any other hobbies up after his daughter was born.

Whole he is black pilled, he is a sex haver and a father.

From what I know he've never left his town and the woman he is with he practically gre up with.
I don't mind him being a sexhaver. That comes with its own problem and I know because we used to talk about everything.

Since he has a daughter I have even black pilled him on female nature and explained to him what he, as a father, should look out for and expect.
He wasn't even surprised by any of that as he knew most of it.

I just think that something bad happened in his life and he is very busy fixing that.

This has happened before when he became a father and had absolutely no time to come online. Then he also got very sick.

I almost thought, back then, that he gave up on gaming as a whole and left for good.

Then, one day he came back and explained it all to me. I congratulated him on becoming a father. I was and am happy for him. I was waiting for him this whole time, tbh.

Come to think of it, I have met two other pretty decent dudes online. I think I owe them some company.

I have to get my gaming PC up and running this weekend so we can catch up on old times.

But this one guy, he was more than just a friend to me. I always looked up to him. He was always so disciplined and the way he's handled his life and all.

I have even told him all that when he came back that one day.
I wish he would tell me what is going on.

Sorry for what I said. This is so cruel. I think life is hard for him to breathe. Since you are such good friends, I think he will communicate with you again one day. Maybe it just takes a little time. I wish you two can still be good friends, and I wish you both a smooth transition from this cruel world.

 

[TooSomething]

Sorry for what I said. This is so cruel. I think life is hard for him to breathe. Since you are such good friends, I think he will communicate with you again one day. Maybe it just takes a little time. I wish you two can still be good friends, and I wish you both a smooth transition from this cruel world.

Thank you, brocel.

I am going to do my little side business again, starting this weekend, so I can save up some money to visit him.

Since I know where he lives, it will be easy.

I will travel there for two week, I think, next year.

Then he has all the time to explain things and then he and his family will also see that I am not some weirdo, but a friend.
At least that's how I imagine it to be.

 

[UglyDumbass]

I have, here and there, talked about a good friend of mine from the USA, whom I have met online, chatted with a lot, including video chats. We have known each other for a little over ten years now.

I have been thinking for a whole year that he had died because he just disappeared one day and I couldn't reach him.

The reason I thought that was because he had been very sick, very often before disappearing and he had also been hospitalized a lot and it was serious.

So, I was afraid all this time to try and contact someone who knows him, like his family or co-workers.

But, a couple of days I decided that I couldn't live with this uncertainty anymore so I made an effort to look up his name and since I knew his date of birth, first name and place of work, it was rather easy to find another phone number.
Yes, I have his own phone number. We have had exchanged them a long time ago, but he never responded.

I even know where he lives because he showed me on google maps.

So, I've found people with the same last name, coincidentally living at the same adress.
I have called three of them and it turns out that one of them was his father and the others I don't know about.

I have even called the cops to run a welfare check. Believe it or not, they believed me and ran that welfare check.
Man, I am grateful to those guys, ngl, because they have found out that he is alive.

But he called me before I could call them to inquire their results.

He seemed pretty pissed, which surprised me, because I really care for him and did everything in my power to find the truth.

He was pissed at me for calling his place of work, his family members and the cops.

He said that it has caused him a lot of stress and THEN he's told me the cops were the last thing he needed right now.

I don't know wtf happened there.
He had promised me to call me or contact me last weekend to explain to me why he was gone for so long, but he never did that and now I am wondering whether he really even cares.

I mean, how can you leave your friend with such uncertainty?

I even planned to fly there next year to figure out what was going on, seriousely.

I have the money, so I would have done that, for my friend.

And now I am left in the dark again. I wonder whether he even considers me a friend, tbh.

Very brutal brocel. I hope you meet up with him soon.

 

[TooSomething]

Very brutal brocel. I hope you meet up with him soon.

Me too, man. Thank you.

 

[TooSomething]

Lifefuel, guys. He replied to me. Seems like he is in a bad place. My gut feeling was right when I last talked to him a year ago.

He apparently lost it, according to his reply today. He promised me that we would talk the coming weekend.

I have promised him that I will be available the whole day, even at night, if need be. He can call me at any time.
I also promised him that I will hear him out, no matter how messed up his story will be.

He is my friend.

@turbocuckcel_7000 @pauseforever @kerberos41 @UglyDumbass

 

[UglyDumbass]

Lifefuel, guys. He replied to me. Seems like he is in a bad place. My gut feeling was right when I last talked to him a year ago.

He apparently lost it, according to his reply today. He promised me that we would talk the coming weekend.

I have promised him that I will be available the whole day, even at night, if need be. He can call me at any time.
I also promised him that I will hear him out, no matter how messed up his story will be.

He is my friend.

@turbocuckcel_7000 @pauseforever @kerberos41 @UglyDumbass

That’s very good that he came into contact with you still. I hope things get better for both of you.

 

[TooSomething]

That’s very good that he came into contact with you still. I hope things get better for both of you.

Me too, man. I will do my part.

 

[chalk son]

He is my friend.

that’s a relief

 

[pauseforever]

Good thing he replied. By the sound of it, you already know how to talk to someone who is in a bad place. I hope things will work out for you and your friend

 

[kerberos41]

Lifefuel, guys. He replied to me. Seems like he is in a bad place. My gut feeling was right when I last talked to him a year ago.

He apparently lost it, according to his reply today. He promised me that we would talk the coming weekend.

I have promised him that I will be available the whole day, even at night, if need be. He can call me at any time.
I also promised him that I will hear him out, no matter how messed up his story will be.

He is my friend.

@turbocuckcel_7000 @pauseforever @kerberos41 @UglyDumbass

This is really great! I'm glad he reconnected with you so quickly, and I think maybe for him, the friendship with you is also his lifefuel╭(ᵔ_>ᵔ)╮

 

[Emba]

Is this the "OK" bro you mentioned?

Looked him up and got yelled at for it?

While IRL frens can certainly happen (from online first meetings) its pretty rare. Especially if they are very far away. Then its probably more like "pen pals" strangers that you can tell personal stuff to, and not worry about that information coming back later to bite you.

In a way, its like a emo dump. Usually one sided, but maybe two sided. Real frens are always available. No need for an appointment. Or specific time.

And if you can get ghosted by IRL frens, then its far far easier to get ghosted by a virtual fren!

It's my bet, that you put more thought into y'alls frenship than he did. Ofc, idk, but anyone that gets upset about a fren thats curious about the health of someone, is some kind of assoul.

A lot of people fraud medical problems, some love to brag about how unhealthy they are! Maybe instead of telling you to fuck off, he just claimed illness? Then ghosted you?

Then he got upset when you dug up his ghost? Made his world look for him too?

My condolences bro.

Im Sorry for you're loss

 

[flute_snoop]

I just think that something bad happened in his life and he is very busy fixing that.

And he didn't even trust or respect you enough to tell you what the problem was. The more you push, the more you will push them away.

 

[TooSomething]

Update on the story.
My friend seems to be very busy atm, from what I could gather from his emails.

He was overall very vage, but it seems like I was right in assuming that something bad had happened to him, since he, according to one email, had lost his mind last year.

He has not even had contact to his local close friends during all this time.

It also seems like he has been divorced by his wife, because he said something about his daughter coming over, so he did not have time to talk, yesterday.

His daughter is still very young, so she does not live alone, which lead me to assume that his wife must've divorced him.

Today he will have time. I hope he won't reschedule again.

 

[TooSomething]

Yeah, fuck this. Didn't get a call again award. I guess you can call that an incel trait.

 

[Small Balls Messiah]

Yeah, fuck this. Didn't get a call again award. I guess you can call that an incel trait.

Tell him to go fuck himself, no matter how shitty one can be feeling they can make a simple call.

 

[TooSomething]

Tell him to go fuck himself, no matter how shitty one can be feeling they can make a simple call.

It's all good now.

He had a car accident that day driving home during rain, a concussion and got hospitalized.
The car is totaled. He couldn't even remember what happened and much of what he had planned.

So, we will see.

 

[TooSomething]

FML man.

My friend might actually die from cancer.

Recently he has had some serious complications.

I don't want to go into details, but it really looks like it is over for him.

All the issues he has had so far point to the fucking vaxx he had taken. The fucking coof vaxx.
His god damn doctor told him that he'd be efit from it since he was more at risk than others.

I always thought that he'd have questioned this whole bullshit, but he didn't ans since he offline for a long time at the beginning of the corona craze and I couldn't reach him, I couldn't warn him early enough.

He's gotten only one shot, but it looks like that was enough for him.

Now I have to prepare to visit him as soon as I can. I have no idea how long he is going to make it.

 

[caineturbat2003]

Normscum will be normscum, you will get to a point where you won't care about shit like friendships. Infact you will end up being outraged that these people even exist. Embrace it, it's what they deserve.