I go to art college, since the first week I noticed (and admittedly had a crush on) a lonely girl that would always sit alone and talk to nobody at lunch time. She is tall, actually taller than me... I'm a bit of a manlet... and she has sort of strong facial features like a straight nose and square jaw but she looked cute nonetheless, specially with the way she styled her hair.
I'm very shy but I could tell this girl was even more shy and socially awkward than me, so I felt bad for her and after a few days of eyeing her from afar and hyping myself up to break through my shyness and talk to her I finally said hi to her and had a little conversation.
In retrospective I should've known this autistic bitch was not interested, I could tell how she loved talking about herself and would only interact when I asked her about something about her but the second I gave my opinion or my side of the conversation she pretty much shutdowned on me, even going as far as checking her phone while I talked to her. But alas, I had a crush so I brushed it off as nothing.
I would try every other day to talk to her but I felt like my attempts where useless, our first conversation was the longest because every other after that got shorter and I could tell she had less and less interest on talking to me, she would never look at me while I talked, often check her phone... this fucking whore would rather be a lonely autistic outcast than talk to me... I was making my best to fight my shyness, there where days when I didn't even approach her because I felt shy again.
Then it happened, I said hi to her and this time she outright ignored me... as if I wasn't even there... let me get this clear: THE AUTISTIC FOID WITH A MAN FACE THAT NO ONE TALKED TO FUCKING IGNORED ME.
why do I even bother....
