I ghost people despite wanting to talk to them

[GhostedPhantom]

I'm so unsure about how to reply that I procrastinate on it until I know what to say (which is usually never). This happens particularly with people I know in real life - especially relatives - who can spread anything retarded I say to our mutual acquaintances.

I also avoid initiating conversations with people - especially calling them - because I assume I would be interrupting and annoying them.

It's so much easier to just be alone with my copes and avoid everyone.

 

[WØLF]

I'm so unsure about how to reply that I procrastinate on it until I know what to say (which is usually never). This happens particularly with people I know in real life - especially relatives - who can spread anything retarded I say to our mutual acquaintances.

Extremely relatable thread tbh. Well, besides the part about wanting to talk to people, I fucking hate talking to people and I’m sure people don’t like talking to me either. As for texting the only contacts I have in my phone are my mom and my sister, I just use one or two word replies with my mom and she only texts me about wagie related shit anyways. As for my sister, she pretty much texts me whatever is on her mind atm and it’s kind of annoying tbh because she never shuts up. I don’t even reply to most of them. Though the memes she sends me are funny

I also avoid initiating conversations with people - especially calling them - because I assume I would be interrupting and annoying them.

It's so much easier to just be alone with my copes and avoid everyone.

Ye I literally never initiated a convo in my life and on the rare occasion that someone tries to make small talk with me it dies very quickly. I love being alone and hate being around anyone besides my sister tbh but even then she acts like a bitch towards me when she’s angry or if I upset her so idek

Going to go on a little tangent here: I “ghosted” one of the only friends I ever had when I entered high school (we didn’t go to the same high school). Back in spring 2020 near the beggining of corona chan (one of the best years of my life btw) my mom told me he contacted my brother’s facebook (which my mom uses lol) asking for me and how we haven’t kept in touch since middle school. He also wanted to know my Insta. I basically told my mom not to reply, thus ghosting him again

Truth is I‘m way too high inhib and jaded to get back into socialmaxxing/NTfrauding after all those years of LITERALLY not talking to anybody in high school. I legit haven’t had a conversation with anyone since middle school so I can’t imagine how awkward it would be to talk to a normie in my current state, even if he was my friend for like a year. He’s basically a stranger to me but I honestly still feel like a piece of shit for ghosting him a second time ngl

 

[RetardedChinlet]

truth

 

[WØLF]

XD

 

[Luxury]

Same. Thats how I lost all the friends I once had