I usually sleep like a baby, my sleep is very good and on schedule. But sometimes I'll wake up in the middle of the night, and there will be a few seconds where I'm not aware of what's happpening and feel very paranoid and scared. I will yell out something submissive and defensive like "Why? You don't have to.." or slam the window shut loudly. I've been doing this since I was a kid. When this happens, I won't remember my dream if I even had one.
When I was like 9 my mom would show me these scary anti drug videos that displayed addicts with fucked up skin and disgusting deformities, I found them terrifying. In one video they showed Brittney Spears after she had shaved her head. I remember once waking up and envisioning a bald Brittney Spears at the foot of my bed. Even recently, about 2 years ago, I had a similar thing happen to me. I woke up in the middle of the night and for a split second I saw a deformed bald little girl. She had something like pfeiffer syndrome, or a fucked up dwarfism which had her head bulging and vainy, and eyes bug-like.
Some kind of mix between these images:
This scared the shit out of me and I screamed and woke up a neighbor who yelled back at me.
I think this paranoid state isn't because of a nightmare I might've had. I think it's just my baseline subconscious state. At my core I'm neurotic and paranoid.
When I was like 9 my mom would show me these scary anti drug videos that displayed addicts with fucked up skin and disgusting deformities, I found them terrifying. In one video they showed Brittney Spears after she had shaved her head. I remember once waking up and envisioning a bald Brittney Spears at the foot of my bed. Even recently, about 2 years ago, I had a similar thing happen to me. I woke up in the middle of the night and for a split second I saw a deformed bald little girl. She had something like pfeiffer syndrome, or a fucked up dwarfism which had her head bulging and vainy, and eyes bug-like.
Some kind of mix between these images:
This scared the shit out of me and I screamed and woke up a neighbor who yelled back at me.
I think this paranoid state isn't because of a nightmare I might've had. I think it's just my baseline subconscious state. At my core I'm neurotic and paranoid.
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