Serious I gazed up at the night sky

[RegularManlet]

Just now I gazed up at the night sky.
It reminded me of when I was a kid at my childhood home and I had good memories staring up at the sky with my father talking about the stars and I was genuinely happy at the time as a young kid unaware of how much of a manlet I would become.
I have wanted to go star gazing in a low light pollution area with cute virgin gf I will never have, there is a lot of cool things I only want to do with cute virgin gf that I will never do.

 

[EnglishCel]

I don't like looking at the sky it makes me feel bad.

 

[RegularManlet]

I don't like looking at the sky it makes me feel bad.

I was happy for a moment, staring up under the fresh air, distinguishing between the lights of planes and actual stars. It was nice to stop and stare for a moment, it gives me a bit of lifefuel

 

[EnglishCel]

I was happy for a moment, staring up under the fresh air, distinguishing between the lights of planes and actual stars. It was nice to stop and stare for a moment, it gives me a bit of lifefuel

Good for you but for me the sky is just unsettling.

 

[RegularManlet]

Good for you but for me the sky is just unsettling.

That is a shame, I suppose if you start thing about space and how it is never ending and start having an existential crisis about everything it can become very unsettling very quickly, I remember walking home from school one time trying to think about it all and I got a headache and almost passed out trying to think of an answer to it all lol

 

[EnglishCel]

That is a shame, I suppose if you start thing about space and how it is never ending and start having an existential crisis about everything it can become very unsettling very quickly, I remember walking home from school one time trying to think about it all and I got a headache and almost passed out trying to think of an answer to it all lol

Yeah I can never get my mind of things like that. It is just hell.

 

[EnglishCel]

Ah, man, I shouldn't even have read this. This reminded me of the same thing I wished for when I was younger, something I will never have. I've waited my whole life for this and waited for nothing. I can imagine both of you being 16 years old, holding hands, kissing, and staring at the stars together. The terrible, terrible feeling of missing out is incomprehensible. I've never moved on from my teenage years because my heart was never filled with these memories.

We all missed out on teenage love so you are not alone mate.

 

[RegularManlet]

Ah, man, I shouldn't even have read this. This reminded me of the same thing I wished for when I was younger, something I will never have. I've waited my whole life for this and waited for nothing. I can imagine both of you being 16 years old, holding hands, kissing, and staring at the stars together. The terrible, terrible feeling of missing out is incomprehensible. I've never moved on from my teenage years because my heart was never filled with these memories.

We all missed out on teenage love so you are not alone mate.

At least we can relate to each other on this forum
But yeah I even know a specific area where I live where the light pollution is not so bad and you could just lay under the stars with a cute girl, I could travel there by my lonesome but I would not create anywhere near as good a memory? And with a friend(s) unlikely for me but even if I did it is more of a romantic ideal than anything

 

[EnglishCel]

It doesn't make it any more bearable for us, though, knowing that others are in the same place. Nobody should have experienced a life like this; the void it creates inside of you is unspeakable. We were never children, yet we are expected to act as adults now. Essentially, we get nothing good from the best years of our lives and everything bad from our adult years.

Right on the mark mate and even worse for me I get to watch my sister experience all the things I missed out on.

 

[RegularManlet]

Right on the mark mate and even worse for me I get to watch my sister experience all the things I missed out on.

Brutal that fucking sucks
My sister is a complete obese failure and I think she is a chad/chadlite widow. So at least I do not have to deal with seeing her doing things I can't
Although I find it pathetic, life is easy mode for foids and my sister completely fails, she wouldve killed herself a long time ago if she had to hypothetically become a male whereas my inceldom would be immediately solved if I was a foid, not that I want to be a foid

 

[EnglishCel]

Brutal that fucking sucks
My sister is a complete obese failure and I think she is a chad/chadlite widow. So at least I do not have to deal with seeing her doing things I can't
Although I find it pathetic, life is easy mode for foids and my sister completely fails, she wouldve killed herself a long time ago if she had to hypothetically become a male whereas my inceldom would be immediately solved if I was a foid, not that I want to be a foid

Failing that hard on easy mode is just pathetic. Unfortunately my sister is a pretty Hapa so she is doing well, she even does better than I did at school.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Failing that hard on easy mode is just pathetic. Unfortunately my sister is a pretty Hapa so she is doing well, she even does better than I did at school.

2 of my sisters are computer engineers and the other is a nurse. Here's my dumbass 21 with no job and not going to school playing video games all day lol.

 

[Lonelyus]

Its over!

 

[EnglishCel]

2 of my sisters are computer engineers and the other is a nurse. Here's my dumbass 21 with no job and not going to school playing video games all day lol.

My sister is going to be successful and I'm going to be playing video games alone in my room.

 

[EnglishCel]

This is why I am so glad I never had any siblings. It is one thing to experience it and come home always alone, but seeing your siblings living the life how It was supposed to be lived.. Terrible.. Especially if you have a younger sister. It makes you feel worthless and envious. This is why I understand ER and his feelings about his sister. Imagine a sister who is 5 years younger than you starting to have romance and sex before you achieved it despite being older. Fucking terrible..

My sister is 5 years younger than me and she has experienced more than me in every way.

 

[RegularManlet]

Failing that hard on easy mode is just pathetic. Unfortunately my sister is a pretty Hapa so she is doing well, she even does better than I did at school.

Yeah well hapa girls are hot so literaly developer difficulty and yeah it is pathetic but to be fair I think she is a little non NT and schizo but not much. My sister even failed school which is also easier for foids jfl.

2 of my sisters are computer engineers and the other is a nurse. Here's my dumbass 21 with no job and not going to school playing video games all day lol.

I would not feel so bad they have it easier, it feels worse when your sister is a complete failure, makes you feel like genetic garbage, I used to be a little non NT but I grew out of it, too late to save my school life though. My only genetic fault is being short.

Well, it's not completely lost for you since you could in theory still get something like an 18-year-old virgin girl, depending on where you live, but yeah... No sweet 16-year-old experience plus your height screw you over. I can´t believe I am 29; I just can't. Life just passed before my eyes, like I was just observing it and not living.

This is why I am so glad I never had any siblings. It is one thing to experience it and come home always alone, but seeing your siblings living the life how It was supposed to be lived.. Terrible.. Especially if you have a younger sister. It makes you feel worthless and envious. This is why I understand ER and his feelings about his sister. Imagine a sister who is 5 years younger than you starting to have romance and sex before you achieved it despite being older. Fucking terrible..

Oh I do not know much about ER so I did not know that until now lol, I can see how that would not only be brutal to see, but your sister and parents would wonder what the fuck is wrong with you. Failing to realise how brutal existance is for most males right now.
I can relate to life passing by and I am not even 29, it feels like today felt like 3 hours. The past few months felt like groundhog day since I have spent them gymmaxxing and studymaxxing, although I have taken a few weeks off from gymmaxxing because studying genuinely makes me depressed and I am somewhat close to completing my course so I just want to rip the bandaid off, I can not focus with a full stomach from bulking either. I also think that gymmaxxing gets diminishing returns after the newbie gains. My body is shaped very nice and I have defined muscles but i would not be considered "jacked" or "yolked" or whatever. I also feel stronger too.

Its over!

I am almost not graycel anymore its over for me

You are all really awesome brocels hang in there

 

[EnglishCel]

Yeah well hapa girls are hot so literaly developer difficulty and yeah it is pathetic but to be fair I think she is a little non NT and schizo but not much. My sister even failed school which is also easier for foids jfl.

My sister is non NT too but she hides it very well.

 

[Lonelyus]

Yeah well hapa girls are hot so literaly developer difficulty and yeah it is pathetic but to be fair I think she is a little non NT and schizo but not much. My sister even failed school which is also easier for foids jfl.

I would not feel so bad they have it easier, it feels worse when your sister is a complete failure, makes you feel like genetic garbage, I used to be a little non NT but I grew out of it, too late to save my school life though. My only genetic fault is being short.

Oh I do not know much about ER so I did not know that until now lol, I can see how that would not only be brutal to see, but your sister and parents would wonder what the fuck is wrong with you. Failing to realise how brutal existance is for most males right now.
I can relate to life passing by and I am not even 29, it feels like today felt like 3 hours. The past few months felt like groundhog day since I have spent them gymmaxxing and studymaxxing, although I have taken a few weeks off from gymmaxxing because studying genuinely makes me depressed and I am somewhat close to completing my course so I just want to rip the bandaid off, I can not focus with a full stomach from bulking either. I also think that gymmaxxing gets diminishing returns after the newbie gains. My body is shaped very nice and I have defined muscles but i would not be considered "jacked" or "yolked" or whatever. I also feel stronger too.

I am almost not graycel anymore its over for me

You are all really awesome brocels hang in there

ok

 

[RegularManlet]

My sister is non NT too but she hides it very well.

Lol, thanks for hammering it home even more for me that my sister is a failure

 

[EnglishCel]

Lol, thanks for hammering it home even more for me that my sister is a failure

Yeah, it seems like she failed hard.

 

[Namtriz912]

Do you like to stare at the clouds too? It's a fun way for me to pass the time and not have a care in the world

 

[RegularManlet]

Do you like to stare at the clouds too? It's a fun way for me to pass the time and not have a care in the world

Occasionally yes it can be quite peaceful, but I want nothing more than to do this with a foid, it would be complete bliss, I would be completely in the moment and happy, my inceldom ironically enough is like a dark cloud looming over me that ruins the enjoyment of everything.

Clouds and starry night sky. I want to do it with a foid so bad.
The outside world makes me genuinely sad because I have no one to enjoy it with, I can't enjoy it with my parents or siblings anymore since probably like a decade ago and I have no friends or gf

 

[Namtriz912]

Occasionally yes it can be quite peaceful, but I want nothing more than to do this with a foid, it would be complete bliss, I would be completely in the moment and happy, my inceldom ironically enough is like a dark cloud looming over me that ruins the enjoyment of everything.

Clouds and starry night sky. I want to do it with a foid so bad.
The outside world makes me genuinely sad because I have no one to enjoy it with, I can't enjoy it with my parents or siblings anymore since probably like a decade ago and I have no friends or gf

I agree what's there to enjoy when you can't do it with someone you love to bits, i could say just be content with your own company but that'd be a cope. Having a nice conversation watching the stars and one day seeing a shooting star and making a wish that'd be my dream.

 

[RegularManlet]

I agree what's there to enjoy when you can't do it with someone you love to bits, i could say just be content with your own company but that'd be a cope. Having a nice conversation watching the stars and one day seeing a shooting star and making a wish that'd be my dream.

Yeah I mean I am capable of enjoying my own company I even prefer it for a bit but I have gone so long now without a GF that it just drivers me insane.
I think we share a similar dream, for me I want to take a foid to a low light pollution area and just lay under the night sky together and just be in the moment and blissfully in love and it saddens me because it feels like its slipping away from me, its this magic I can't have.

 

[Namtriz912]

Yeah I mean I am capable of enjoying my own company I even prefer it for a bit but I have gone so long now without a GF that it just drives me insane.
I think we share a similar dream, for me I want to take a foid to a low light pollution area and just lay under the night sky together and just be in the moment and blissfully in love and it saddens me because it feels like it's slipping away from me, it's this magic I can't have.

It's tough especially seeing others have what you want, especially if you walk through the park as a shortcut late at night. Sometimes I can just deny my feelings but at other I think about it alot whether at night or morning. You described my thoughts perfectly though the longer this goes on you go insane or FOMO (extreme).

 

[RegularManlet]

It's tough especially seeing others have what you want, especially if you walk through the park as a shortcut late at night. Sometimes I can just deny my feelings but at other I think about it alot whether at night or morning. You described my thoughts perfectly though the longer this goes on you go insane or FOMO (extreme).

There is certainly a FOMO effect which compounds to make it even more brutal, but it aint even that.
Its just all I have ever wanted in life, as I put in my signature. It's all I want from this world, I don't care to cure cancer or win the NBA championships or become filthy rich. I just want a foid man

 

[Cuckoja]

I used to stare at the moon obsessively up untill my mid twenties.

 

[Drakul]

I do often and think "out of billions of galaxies no woman would love me and that's only the observable universe, beyond that an infinite field of loveless despair".

 

[Thaway]

My sister is going to be successful and I'm going to be playing video games alone in my room.

There is no success in that sense in a foids life. It's like saying a toddler that was born into wealth is successful.

 

[RandomBroCel]

Just now I gazed up at the night sky.
It reminded me of when I was a kid at my childhood home and I had good memories staring up at the sky with my father talking about the stars and I was genuinely happy at the time as a young kid unaware of how much of a manlet I would become.
I have wanted to go star gazing in a low light pollution area with cute virgin gf I will never have, there is a lot of cool things I only want to do with cute virgin gf that I will never do.

 

[RegularManlet]

I used to stare at the moon obsessively up untill my mid twenties.

Odd? Why obsessively? What is the story behind that?

I do often and think "out of billions of galaxies no woman would love me and that's only the observable universe, beyond that an infinite field of loveless despair".

Lol its funny how something so simple such as staring up at the night sky can evoke thoughts of existential dread such of this or simple bliss thoughts too, it is quite beautiful.

There is no success in that sense in a foids life. It's like saying a toddler that was born into wealth is successful.

Lol yeah very true, well actually I mog my sister in every aspect except romantically but besides the point most foids mog this entire forum and its just brutal to see, thats what happened with ER he saw his sister start to have more romantic success and she was younger than him.

 

[Cuckoja]

Odd? Why obsessively? What is the story behind that?

Its beautiful, isnt it. Sadly we as humans only appreciate the good looking things.

 

[RegularManlet]

Its beautiful, isnt it. Sadly we as humans only appreciate the good looking things.

Yes, although I don't think its wrong to only seek beauty in nature or something. It's not like the sky will be incel or commit suicide if we find it ugly lol

 

[Cuckoja]

Yes, although I don't think its wrong to only seek beauty in nature or something. It's not like the sky will be incel or commit suicide if we find it ugly lol

I remember when one user used to post often a little beach, that was polluted and had ugly rocks, everyone were making fun of that place .

 

[RegularManlet]

I remember when one user used to post often a little beach, that was polluted and had ugly rocks, everyone were making fun of that place .

Lol I do not mind an ugly beach though if it means I get to be alone. A polluted beach is pointless though

 

[Cuckoja]

Lol I do not mind an ugly beach though if it means I get to be alone. A polluted beach is pointless though

I guess he liked that place for that reason. It was a cool spot, by a big river i think, near a bridge. Must be cool watching large cargo ships.