I can't fucking stand this shit anymore. I feel like the sheer intensity of my suffering is going to cause me to liquefy into a puddle of molten subhuman flesh.
Compared to some of the more subhuman members of this forum, my stats perhaps aren't so horribly bad (5'10, white, no major deformities). But it barely matters because I'm not nearly good-looking enough to get a non-landwhale interested in me.
I've spent thousands of dollars attempting to looksmaxx, to no avail. Bimax surgery cost me several tens of thousands of dollars. This summer, I am staying on university campus to participate in research. Since most of my time is relatively free, I foolishly made a desperate last attempt to save myself from inceldom as my youth comes to a close by spending over $1,000 USD fashionmaxxing, skincaremaxxing, and gymmaxxing with steroids. But it hasn't made a difference. Females still either cringe or feign politeness when I cold approach them, which I've done at least 50 times in the last 2 months with no results. I get left-swiped on Tinder without mercy on top of that. The last summer of my youth is ending and I have nothing to show for it. I'll never have a girlfriend. I'll never be loved. It hurts every time I see a couple smiling at each other and holding hands when I'm on campus, enjoying love during their youth. Why couldn't it have been me? I feel like if my DNA had just been slightly different, if only 5 or 6 nucleotides had been a different letter, I'd MAYBE have a chance of getting a gf at least once in my life. I feel like I'm so close to being able to live a normal life, and yet I'm so far. Even ONE nucleotide of DNA being the wrong letter is practically an insurmountable obstacle.
Compared to some of the more subhuman members of this forum, my stats perhaps aren't so horribly bad (5'10, white, no major deformities). But it barely matters because I'm not nearly good-looking enough to get a non-landwhale interested in me.
I've spent thousands of dollars attempting to looksmaxx, to no avail. Bimax surgery cost me several tens of thousands of dollars. This summer, I am staying on university campus to participate in research. Since most of my time is relatively free, I foolishly made a desperate last attempt to save myself from inceldom as my youth comes to a close by spending over $1,000 USD fashionmaxxing, skincaremaxxing, and gymmaxxing with steroids. But it hasn't made a difference. Females still either cringe or feign politeness when I cold approach them, which I've done at least 50 times in the last 2 months with no results. I get left-swiped on Tinder without mercy on top of that. The last summer of my youth is ending and I have nothing to show for it. I'll never have a girlfriend. I'll never be loved. It hurts every time I see a couple smiling at each other and holding hands when I'm on campus, enjoying love during their youth. Why couldn't it have been me? I feel like if my DNA had just been slightly different, if only 5 or 6 nucleotides had been a different letter, I'd MAYBE have a chance of getting a gf at least once in my life. I feel like I'm so close to being able to live a normal life, and yet I'm so far. Even ONE nucleotide of DNA being the wrong letter is practically an insurmountable obstacle.
