It's Over I fried my brain with drugs

[lonely_slavi]

My most abused drugs were xannax,speed,coke,extasy and they fried my brain. I had a few deadly overdoses which I survived and since then my brain is realy broken. (I was really suicidal and didnt care). My memory is really bad, for example when i go on a walk for hours and then come home its like i cant remember doing it. When im talking to people i cant realy think about my Responses anymore and answer what is on my mind. Its like im in the pasanger seat of my mind. Then I have neverending Paranoia and Bad memories reacouring that Torment me all the day. When im finally alsleep I have nightmares where im getting hunted and killed and many other things. I was put by a judge in a closed mental ward for 5 Months because of a failed suicide and other things. These doctors wont help me. I wont ask them for help. The thing is my brain is deteriorating and i dont know what to do. Im reading more books, living healthy but it doesnt help. I will most likely end up homeless because my brain wont work enough by then. Im living at my grandma's and when she dies I have nobody. Any advice?

 

[abg_na_vapry]

I suffer from most of these symptoms and haven’t touched drugs once in my life. Should’ve done them JFL wouldn’t have made a difference.

 

[Moth Knight]

@zd60 Does this parallel with your own experience in any way? I've never done anything stronger than alcohol so a drugcel's perspective is always interesting to hear.

 

[zd60]

@zd60 Does this parallel with your own experience in any way? I've never done anything stronger than alcohol so a drugcel's perspective is always interesting to hear.

somewhat similar, my brain is completely fucked, xanax completely destroyed like all abilities to form any memories in my brain they just vanish right out my memory shortly after i do anything its also the drug thats caused me the most problems besides coke and destroying my nose and gums, quitting xanax after doing it for like a year straight made me have shittier paranoia all the time, constant unrelenting anxiety especially when trying to sleep, nightmares and sleep paralysis for a while i dealt with the most horrible things had a seizure i think once from them never went to get that checked out though, drugs have turned my brain into complete soup think it some of them also gave me permanent tinnitus though i'd probably do it again

 

[lonely_slavi]

somewhat similar, my brain is completely fucked, xanax completely destroyed like all abilities to form any memories in my brain they just vanish right out my memory shortly after i do anything its also the drug thats caused me the most problems besides coke and destroying my nose and gums, quitting xanax after doing it for like a year straight made me have shittier paranoia all the time, constant unrelenting anxiety especially when trying to sleep, nightmares and sleep paralysis for a while i dealt with the most horrible things had a seizure i think once

I feel you bro. Its nice to hear your story man and its so relatable. I thing i also had seizures but never got it cheked out because the hospital and healtcare workers hate us. They dont treat us and always dismiss us. I wish i never tright drugs. In my family there are addicts and i got the addiction genes, therefore even if I want to stop its almost inpossible. Its a dayli struggle and its hard. Like you said the brain is like soup. Wish you all the best bro

 

[zd60]

I feel you bro. Its nice to hear your story man and its so relatable. I thing i also had seizures but never got it cheked out because the hospital and healtcare workers hate us. They dont treat us and always dismiss us. I wish i never tright drugs. In my family there are addicts and i got the addiction genes, therefore even if I want to stop its almost inpossible. Its a dayli struggle and its hard. Like you said the brain is like soup. Wish you all the best bro

my family was the one to introduce me to drugs at young age, they used to be heavy addicts my mother used to abuse opioids, alcohol and my other family memebers always had benzos and weed to give me starting pretty young which ended up getting me hooked, ever since then its been beyond a struggle to quit any substance i i haven't really been sober once in the last decade much at this point i don't see any reason to quit, wish you the best to brocel

 

[KetamineCel]

somewhat similar, my brain is completely fucked, xanax completely destroyed like all abilities to form any memories in my brain they just vanish right out my memory shortly after i do anything its also the drug thats caused me the most problems besides coke and destroying my nose and gums, quitting xanax after doing it for like a year straight made me have shittier paranoia all the time, constant unrelenting anxiety especially when trying to sleep, nightmares and sleep paralysis for a while i dealt with the most horrible things had a seizure i think once from them never went to get that checked out though, drugs have turned my brain into complete soup think it some of them also gave me permanent tinnitus though i'd probably do it again

thanks for sharing, i always like reading others experiences on this topic, i was too scared to go any further with benzos when i got mild withdrawal, truly scary shit

 

[zd60]

thanks for sharing, i always like reading others experiences on this topic, i was too scared to go any further with benzos when i got mild withdrawal, truly scary shit

benzo withdrawal has to be the worst i've experienced even compared to opioids truly the worst

 

[KetamineCel]

benzo withdrawal has to be the worst i've experienced even compared to opioids truly the worst

i only had mild shakes but i knew id be in real trouble later, i had a counsellor say he had a previous client say he would rather three heroin withdrawals back-to-back than one xanax withdrawal

 

[zd60]

i only had mild shakes but i knew id be in real trouble later, i had a counsellor say he had a previous client say he would rather three heroin withdrawals back-to-back than one xanax withdrawal

I'd probably agree, xanax has left the worst effects on me from withdrawal and ever since never been able to quite fully recover unlike the opiates where i've just felt miserable shitting my guts out for a week or so with horrible insomnia

 

[lonely_slavi]

I'd probably agree, xanax has left the worst effects on me

I would also say xannax and speed: street amphetamine for me. 1 year clean from xans after a 30mg Blackout which almost took my life and i still cant forget them. Its a really hard struggle. With speed for me its a crave that even if i stay clean for like 3 months I always fall back to it.

 

[zd60]

I would also say xannax and speed: street amphetamine for me. 1 year clean from xans after a 30mg Blackout which almost took my life and i still cant forget them. Its a really hard struggle. With speed for me its a crave that even if i stay clean for like 3 months I always fall back to it.

I can't seem to ever seem to git rid of my cravings for any drug, even after black out multiple times on xans or other drugs i still have a intense craving for them day to day just in various bouts throughout the day some days i crave one over the other i've not been able to stay clean of much unless i have no way of actually getting things

 

[DissidentEast]

You haven't "fried" your brain its cause the stuff you used to hit on doesnt feel the same thing I suggest total withdraw of every stuff you are doing now its gonna be tough you'll feel the urge hitting back telling you do it again just ignore it

 

[lonely_slavi]

I can't seem to ever seem to git rid of my cravings for any drug, even after black out multiple times on xans or other drugs i still have a intense craving for them day to day just in various bouts throughout the day some days i crave one over the other i've not been able to stay clean of much unless i have no way of actually getting things

Thats the worst part of it. I want to be clean but its almost impossible. Alot of people think its a choice but it isnt. I started at 13 and the addiction genes make it worse. When you take drugs at a young age your brain rewires itself before its even complete. Its so hard to stay clean man....

 

[lonely_slavi]

You haven't "fried" your brain its cause the stuff you used to hit on doesnt feel the same thing I suggest total withdraw of every stuff you are doing now its gonna be tough you'll feel the urge hitting back telling you do it again just ignore it

The brain is largely fried already. Im clean now and trying to keep it that way even tho its realy hard. Thanks for the advice.

 

[nirvana]

Weed is a wonderful drug. I suggest you hop on it and quit the other ones for a while.

 

[lonely_slavi]

Weed is a wonderful drug. I suggest you hop on it and quit the other ones for a while.

Yeah when im Smoking weed i become very psychotic because of a mental Ilness. I also cant realy stop when i start. At first weed and then i think maybe something stronger and so on. Thanks for the advice tho.

 

[nirvana]

Yeah when im Smoking weed i become very psychotic because of a mental Ilness. I also cant realy stop when i start. At first weed and then i think maybe something stronger and so on. Thanks for the advice tho.

No problem, dude. Just stay away from heroin, will ya? Smack might fuck you over even harder.

 

[lonely_slavi]

No problem, dude. Just stay away from heroin, will ya? Smack might fuck you over even harder.

For sure bro

 

[MajorThomas666]

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My most abused drugs were xannax,speed,coke,extasy and they fried my brain. I had a few deadly overdoses which I survived and since then my brain is realy broken. (I was really suicidal and didnt care). My memory is really bad, for example when i go on a walk for hours and then come home its like i cant remember doing it. When im talking to people i cant realy think about my Responses anymore and answer what is on my mind. Its like im in the pasanger seat of my mind. Then I have neverending Paranoia and Bad memories reacouring that Torment me all the day. When im finally alsleep I have nightmares where im getting hunted and killed and many other things. I was put by a judge in a closed mental ward for 5 Months because of a failed suicide and other things. These doctors wont help me. I wont ask them for help. The thing is my brain is deteriorating and i dont know what to do. Im reading more books, living healthy but it doesnt help. I will most likely end up homeless because my brain wont work enough by then. Im living at my grandma's and when she dies I have nobody. Any advice?

ND's Gingko

 

[zd60]

Thats the worst part of it. I want to be clean but its almost impossible. Alot of people think its a choice but it isnt. I started at 13 and the addiction genes make it worse. When you take drugs at a young age your brain rewires itself before its even complete. Its so hard to stay clean man....

I used to wish about getting clean but i just can't fathom any life being clean i just like the drugs too much and starting young did nothing but lock that in my mind for me i'll probably be stuck being addicted to some substance for the rest of my life

 

[Goofygoober007]

I would also say xannax and speed: street amphetamine for me. 1 year clean from xans after a 30mg Blackout which almost took my life and i still cant forget them. Its a really hard struggle. With speed for me its a crave that even if i stay clean for like 3 months I always fall back to it.

Meth is the worst one its not the physical withdrawal its you think about it constantly, that one fucks me up and turns me into whole nother human. I dont think people like using it with me anymore lol. Smoking, boofing, snorting and eating it.

 

[Goofygoober007]

No problem, dude. Just stay away from heroin, will ya? Smack might fuck you over even harder.

Nah smack you hit rock bottom quicker eventually end in rehab not with weed youll stay a useless zombie the rest of your life not knowing you gone no were spent all your money on it.

 

[truecel1980]

Same

 

[Shitskin=Shitlife]

I don't even know how to get my hands on drugs

 

[goy]

any of you guys ever stuff drugs up your pee hole?

 

[lonely_slavi]

any of you guys ever stuff drugs up your pee hole?

NEVER do that. Ive heard of it

 

[ogrefrombirth]

NEVER do that. Ive heard of it

does it work well? outta needle spots.

 

[goy]

NEVER do that. Ive heard of it

LMAOOO