Venting i forgot how to feel happy

[loremango]

It's been more than 4 years since I've felt happiness. I live alone with no friends or family (I study in a different country), and I'm now in my final year. During these four years, my daily routine has been simply the same wake up, watch movies, play games (alone), occasionally study, order food, and sleep. I can't remember having a meaningful conversation with anyone in a long, long time (besides calling my parents), and in the past 2 years, I couldn't even go back to see them because I can't afford it and i dont want to get a job and interact with people. I tried really hard in the first month of university since I was desperate to make connections, but all that happened was me getting mocked, ridiculed, and most of the time, feeling invisible (anyone I would talk to would utter 2–3 words and tell me that they had to go). After that, I stopped talking and leaving my room, which led me to forget how to feel happy and think about how meaningless life is. The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

 

[Icarus]

Absolutely brutal man

 

[fullofchagrin]

It's been more than 4 years since I've felt happiness. I live alone with no friends or family (I study in a different country), and I'm now in my final year. During these four years, my daily routine has been simply the same wake up, watch movies, play games (alone), occasionally study, order food, and sleep. I can't remember having a meaningful conversation with anyone in a long, long time (besides calling my parents), and in the past 2 years, I couldn't even go back to see them because I can't afford it and i dont want to get a job and interact with people. I tried really hard in the first month of university since I was desperate to make connections, but all that happened was me getting mocked, ridiculed, and most of the time, feeling invisible (anyone I would talk to would utter 2–3 words and tell me that they had to go). After that, I stopped talking and leaving my room, which led me to forget how to feel happy and think about how meaningless life is. The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

brutal brocel. i am also in a similar situation. welcome to the forum

 

[loremango]

brutal brocel. i am also in a similar situation. welcome to the forum

Thankfully I stumbled upon this forum or else I would’ve genuinely ….

 

[|R12|]

I am in the same situation, I am alone.


Reject society and don't try to make friends, they all suck.

 

[loremango]

I am in the same situation, I am alone.


Reject society and don't try to make friends, they all suck.

But if I had incel in real life friends or anything I just want to do anything . I’m completely void of almost all emotions i don’t go anywhere except lectures once in a blue moon (attendance isn’t even mandatory) it genuinely feels bad im sickly skinny and ugly but still i wish i had any friends or even a girlfriend but I know that will never happen

 

[|R12|]

But if I had incel in real life friends or anything I just want to do anything . I’m completely void of almost all emotions i don’t go anywhere except lectures once in a blue moon (attendance isn’t even mandatory) it genuinely feels bad im sickly skinny and ugly but still i wish i had any friends or even a girlfriend but I know that will never happen

You know well.


I would like your wishes to come true, but they won't, so I hope you can at least have a good time in this forum.

 

[loremango]

You know well.


I would like your wishes to come true, but they won't, so I hope you can at least have a good time in this forum.

I can’t keep on living like this or else I’m gonna go mentally insane I’m still quite young but I don’t have any ways to solve my issues .

 

[Lazyandtalentless]

Brutal

 

[|R12|]

I can’t keep on living like this or else I’m gonna go mentally insane I’m still quite young but I don’t have any ways to solve my issues .

I can feel it, don't keep going if you don't want to.


Being insane doesn't sound bad, by the way.

 

[loremango]

I can feel it, don't keep going if you don't want to.


Being insane doesn't sound bad, by the way.

to be honest I don’t want that do any of that or go insane because I need to step up and take care both of my parents until then I have to live and struggle , I wish there’s was a way for me to actually to enjoy life and be happy

 

[|R12|]

to be honest I don’t want that do any of that or go insane because I need to step up and take care both of my parents until then I have to live and struggle , I wish there’s was a way for me to actually to enjoy life and be happy

I'm glad you are a good person.



Can you enjoy things like watching movies, playing video games and others? find a way to be at home and have a good time.

 

[bronzespartan]

It's been more than 4 years since I've felt happiness. I live alone with no friends or family (I study in a different country), and I'm now in my final year. During these four years, my daily routine has been simply the same wake up, watch movies, play games (alone), occasionally study, order food, and sleep. I can't remember having a meaningful conversation with anyone in a long, long time (besides calling my parents), and in the past 2 years, I couldn't even go back to see them because I can't afford it and i dont want to get a job and interact with people. I tried really hard in the first month of university since I was desperate to make connections, but all that happened was me getting mocked, ridiculed, and most of the time, feeling invisible (anyone I would talk to would utter 2–3 words and tell me that they had to go). After that, I stopped talking and leaving my room, which led me to forget how to feel happy and think about how meaningless life is. The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

In the same situtation although I'm lucky to be studying in the same country as where my parents are, so at least I can chill with them. Lucky to have loving parents as well and one good friend at uni who I am close with though. My routine is basically the same as yours. Hang in there, hopefully life can turn around for us.

I'm planning on getting several surgeries after I graduate so hopefully that makes socialising easier.

 

[fedded]

I live alone with no friends or family (I study in a different country)

I'm in the exact same boat, it's brootal.

 

[incelno.1]

It's been more than 4 years since I've felt happiness. I live alone with no friends or family (I study in a different country), and I'm now in my final year. During these four years, my daily routine has been simply the same wake up, watch movies, play games (alone), occasionally study, order food, and sleep. I can't remember having a meaningful conversation with anyone in a long, long time (besides calling my parents), and in the past 2 years, I couldn't even go back to see them because I can't afford it and i dont want to get a job and interact with people. I tried really hard in the first month of university since I was desperate to make connections, but all that happened was me getting mocked, ridiculed, and most of the time, feeling invisible (anyone I would talk to would utter 2–3 words and tell me that they had to go). After that, I stopped talking and leaving my room, which led me to forget how to feel happy and think about how meaningless life is. The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

Same here, self isolated.

 

[loremango]

In the same situtation although I'm lucky to be studying in the same country as where my parents are, so at least I can chill with them. Lucky to have loving parents as well and one good friend at uni who I am close with though. My routine is basically the same as yours. Hang in there, hopefully life can turn around for us.

I'm planning on getting several surgeries after I graduate so hopefully that makes socialising easier.

Wishing you luck man and also to enjoy your time with your parents and friend at least your not alone , so you can always rely on them keeping you sane

 

[poorenglishcel]

The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people

 

[Grodd]

Brutal

 

[bronzespartan]

Wishing you luck man and also to enjoy your time with your parents and friend at least your not alone , so you can always rely on them keeping you sane

Thank you bro, good luck to you to. You can DM me any time you want someone to talk to

 

[ForcedMarriageNow]

The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

You probably don't need to go through the effort of doing that, I doubt your parents would think to much about you not sending photos and pictures of social activity.

 

[Emba]

I have happiness envy

 

[8CbZA-kHFu6pFgE*]

Do you live off NEETbux ?

 

[loremango]

You probably don't need to go through the effort of doing that, I doubt your parents would think to much about you not sending photos and pictures of social activity.

Do you live off NEETbux ?

It’s just that I like to make my parents think highly of me , and that they can feel proud rather than worried and guilty for letting me travel abroad , and also I don’t want to specify how I exactly get my allowance (only a handful of people in my country do get it) but the university/rent/food and extra allowance is all getting paid , but I can only survive with this money I can’t enjoy it if you get what I mean . (Although life have done me dirty I’m thankful that it gave me a somewhat decent brain) didn’t help with socializing though . I want to make a new thread on how to get friends

 

[Mistake]

The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

Holy brutal man

 

[Eucalyptus Warrior]

The saddest part is I didn't want to worry my parents, so I would send them videos online of other people having fun and tell them that was me. I even photoshopped a picture of myself with random people. im really depressed andi want to know if anyone is in the same situation .

Don't do this. It only makes it worse.