I feel nothing

[etononstop]

I started gambling to feel the rush that's ascribed to it. Won 100€ from 1 cent in a single bet... nothing. Lost 150€ in a couple minutes... nothing. Had a dream I got dragged into some bunker and was about to be shot. It wasn't even a nightmare, I just closed my eyes and didn't see it as anything important. Feels like there's nothing worth doing in life. I think this numbness is just a byproduct of no one giving a fuck about me.

 

[literallyretarded]

I started gambling to feel the rush that's ascribed to it. Won 100€ from 1 cent in a single bet... nothing. Lost 150€ in a couple minutes... nothing. Had a dream I got dragged into some bunker and was about to be shot. It wasn't even a nightmare, I just closed my eyes and didn't see it as anything important. Feels like there's nothing worth doing in life. I think this numbness is just a byproduct of no one giving a fuck about me.

gambling is bad

 

[etononstop]

gambling is bad

I know. As I'm not seeking out the good, I don't see why I should avoid the bad. I've sort of just given up on life.

 

[anon65]

I am still able to feel sadness and anxiety

 

[Freixel]

Same, we live in void