Deleted member 22999
5’4 Akechicel
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I can’t take it anymore guys. EVERYONE I know irl is succeeding and living like kings. But my reaction has changed. It sounds weird, but I realized I don’t really want what they have anymore either. I would hate being invited to parties and that stuff. But yet for some reason every time someone decides to drop that they are going to a party my immediate thoughts are hatred. No longer jealousy, but just wrath. My friend who was previously not scoring at all is suddenly getting attention from literally like over 20 girls all of a sudden. It’s because this degenerate kid a year below us he knows got him into weed and it fixed his anxiety and he stopped being a mentalcel. There is nothing more frustrating then him facetiming me as many as 3 times a day just to tell me he has another girl on the line. All he ever talks about now is girls. What used to be my most interesting friend as a kid is now a vapid foid obsessed braggart. If I have to hear one more time how soft a girls ass is I’m going to fucking snap. He starts every conversation with “you should get a girl bro”. HAS IT DAWNED ON YOU THAT THE REASON I DONT “HAVE A GIRL” IS BECAUSE IM A FUCKING 5’4 GOBLIN?!? DO YOU THINK I WANT TO BE LIKE THIS?!? I was talking to my other friend about vidya stuff (Trying to do the revelations easter egg in black ops 3 zombies) and he just interrupts me to talk about his latest conquest. I just flat out told him to shut the fuck up. I’m still somewhat able to hold appearances but I’m not even kidding I feel so mentally fucked. Theres not a single person I can talk to about my problems with irl either. I just have to talk to the fucking box guy I made in my room. A fucking box with a face crudely drawn on with a sharpie and a top hat. I’m praying that someone blows up a party or some shit around here. I found this bird feeder I made as a kid in elementary school art class and it’s amusing how much it reflects my mental state.
“Noo escape” is fucking right. It only will get worse from here I’ve been told. I’m not sure how I’ll deal with college. All I know is it will be an influx of suifuel I dont know I can take
“Noo escape” is fucking right. It only will get worse from here I’ve been told. I’m not sure how I’ll deal with college. All I know is it will be an influx of suifuel I dont know I can take