I enjoy pain

[ServusLuciferi]

I almost went insane when I confronted the inner pain of being socially rejected, which I coated with a nice faux Judeo-Christian moralizing. "At least God loves how pure and not-superficial I am, at least I can see someone who is beautiful on the inside". When the delusions snapped, I was bent and my spine almost split into two.

But I actually like the pain now. It makes me happy. After all, when the pain goes away, I can appreciate the relief more. Plus the pain has been a great motivator to work out more and not give a fuck about anything outside of my own interests. I can now bench more than I ever have (Yeah, 185 max isn't that impressive, but I'm an ekto, so fuck off).

 

[BlackPilledNeet]

Its good that you work out. Its a nice cope at least

 

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my mind adapted to the immense pain I was experiencing daily working in a brutal factory in the middle of nowhere and working out gym maxing at the same time. I adapted so much all pain was good and all hatred toward me was also good because they all hated me there. Everything bad became good. It was incredible the adaptation of the brain. I am also now permanently filled with hate lol and feel like Christian bale in American psycho. Which is not compatible in working class soyciety

 

[Deleted member 41988]

Its good that you work out. Its a nice cope at least