I feel like I went back in full circle, sex feels utterly arbitrary if it's with someone completely dismissive of my existence.
If love cannot happen, why must I even cope with the idea of this type of sex that's built on the same premise as paid one?
Why must I conform, bow down and give up while there are so many out there who are just able to access that sort of relationship so easily?
At first, I thought this sort of ideology made me somewhat realistic with the world, but now I realised that the world doesn't care about realistic views, it demands solely conformity.
We are utter slaves to our instincts, we only derive pleasure when anything appeals to them; it doesn't matter how much we pretend our knowledge gives some grandiose insight to society, in the end we still hunger for that affection and desire.
Fuck my life, utter bullshit.
If I can't love, all this is utterly meaningless; if I get too desperate I'll either kill myself, swallow the only bit of dignity and sense of self I have left to get an escort or something, making my life even more miserable as I lose the last bit of novelty it has left realising how little sex itself would change it.
I still can't let go of trying so hard, I can't stop trying to keep up in every axis. If I stopped, I'll die, it's that simple. I'll die.
Life is so bullshit, I can't have love from my family, can't have any platonic love from friends, can't have any societal love, no romantic love. Why the fuck would I care about some pussy?
I want this world to fucking erupt and choke on itself, forced to comply with no choice in the matter. It's all pre-determined since the existence of life, my depravity so fundamental I only get more and more answers on why it is so hopeless rather than even a tiny bit of hope.
Honestly feels like a joke, all of this. Fucking hell, even now people are probably reading my posts and comments to laugh to themselves as they go on their busy lives.
I'm a joke, inceldom is a meme, 'ascension' is a hoax that only ends up confirming the blackpill as those "ascended" go on to live a miserable existence as failed normies; still affected by predetermined characteristics in the end.
Jfl, seeing every time some bullshit happens like them roping, being cheated on, cucked, worse of entirely compared to before... It's a joke!
A clown world where we continuously do little tricks just to survive another day.
If love cannot happen, why must I even cope with the idea of this type of sex that's built on the same premise as paid one?
Why must I conform, bow down and give up while there are so many out there who are just able to access that sort of relationship so easily?
At first, I thought this sort of ideology made me somewhat realistic with the world, but now I realised that the world doesn't care about realistic views, it demands solely conformity.
We are utter slaves to our instincts, we only derive pleasure when anything appeals to them; it doesn't matter how much we pretend our knowledge gives some grandiose insight to society, in the end we still hunger for that affection and desire.
Fuck my life, utter bullshit.
If I can't love, all this is utterly meaningless; if I get too desperate I'll either kill myself, swallow the only bit of dignity and sense of self I have left to get an escort or something, making my life even more miserable as I lose the last bit of novelty it has left realising how little sex itself would change it.
I still can't let go of trying so hard, I can't stop trying to keep up in every axis. If I stopped, I'll die, it's that simple. I'll die.
Life is so bullshit, I can't have love from my family, can't have any platonic love from friends, can't have any societal love, no romantic love. Why the fuck would I care about some pussy?
I want this world to fucking erupt and choke on itself, forced to comply with no choice in the matter. It's all pre-determined since the existence of life, my depravity so fundamental I only get more and more answers on why it is so hopeless rather than even a tiny bit of hope.
Honestly feels like a joke, all of this. Fucking hell, even now people are probably reading my posts and comments to laugh to themselves as they go on their busy lives.
I'm a joke, inceldom is a meme, 'ascension' is a hoax that only ends up confirming the blackpill as those "ascended" go on to live a miserable existence as failed normies; still affected by predetermined characteristics in the end.
Jfl, seeing every time some bullshit happens like them roping, being cheated on, cucked, worse of entirely compared to before... It's a joke!
A clown world where we continuously do little tricks just to survive another day.
@Grodd originally the answer to this thread before I removed it
incels.is
I only want sex at this point
After being blackpilled i don't know how you'd want a girlfriend i can't even stand listening to foids online let alone if i were to be around some vile whore on a regular basis and besides no foid could ever love me. I only want sex with a hole nothing more, of course if foids weren't rotten...
incels.is
Tbh people always say this towards my threads, I write too much.
