I don't think I'd be an incel if not for my legitimate mental illnesses

[Deleted member 7448]

I am ugly now, that's true. But I wasn't that ugly 7 or so years ago, at 18. I wasn't ever a good-looking guy. I started balding at 17, I was always fat, then I became anorexic for 1 year and a half. I looked worse skinny than I did fat. Now I've been fat again for more than 5 years. But I was still better looking before all this shit. The years of neglecting myself made me fat, gave me diabetes, even worse eye problems (-3 myopia now), broke my front teeth, had to fix them and yet people can still tell they were broken. Lost more hair, still have acne at this age etc...

My biggest problem, aside from the avoidant personality, is my total inability to do anything that I don't absolutely have to. I've been glued to my PC since I was like 10, never did anything other than school then eventually work. After the workday was done I'd rush home at the PC. Not because I like the PC that much, I'm bored even here. But because I literally can't muster an ounce of energy or motivation to do anything. I don't know what it is, what's it called, but I seriously believe it's some mental disorder. I keep trying to psych myself up to do something and I can't. I guess it's a mix of heavy depression, anxiety and general nihilism and cynicism.

I'm the definition of a loser. When you imagine a loser, you imagine me.

 

[incels.REEEE]

My biggest problem, aside from the avoidant personality, is my total inability to do anything that I don't absolutely have to. I've been glued to my PC since I was like 10, never did anything other than school then eventually work. After the workday was done I'd rush home at the PC. Not because I like the PC that much, I'm bored even here. But because I literally can't muster an ounce of energy or motivation to do anything. I don't know what it is, what's it called, but I seriously believe it's some mental disorder. I keep trying to psych myself up to do something and I can't. I guess it's a mix of heavy depression, anxiety and general nihilism and cynicism.

I wonder if your mental issues could be grouped together as "social isolation". This is just a thought as I don't know the specifics well enough for an accurate guess. If you had friends and romantic relationships you would likely be encouraged to do more things, feel the reward and then become more motivated. If people(friends) treated you well and interacted with you often, perhaps you would also feel less cynical.

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

Same, my only hope are jewpills etc.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Same, my only hope are jewpills etc.

I can't get jewpills. I'm sure that even on my limited budget, I could afford some pills. But my avoidant personality makes me hate the idea of sharing things about myself with anyone. Even my parents. Especially my parents. And since I live with them, I don't want them to know I go to a psychiatrist or something. Even though they'd happily encourage me to go. Yeah I'm really fucked in the head. I've been this avoidant since a very young age.

 

[Deleted member 12256]

I can't get jewpills. I'm sure that even on my limited budget, I could afford some pills. But my avoidant personality makes me hate the idea of sharing things about myself with anyone. Even my parents. Especially my parents. And since I live with them, I don't want them to know I go to a psychiatrist or something. Even though they'd happily encourage me to go. Yeah I'm really fucked in the head. I've been this avoidant since a very young age.

If you go to therapist you will only waste your money , they can't cure you, he will only tell you bluepilled bs to get your money.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

If you go to therapist you will only waste your money , they can't cure you, he will only tell you bluepilled bs to get your money.

Yeah I know, I have a psychology degree. Therapists can't give you pills, they're all about talking and other shit. Psychiatrists do that too, but if you're really fucked in the head they can give you pills. Of course, that's risky, since in some countries if you're given pills by them you're on some list, and good luck getting a job.

 

[Frottbott]

I would say your lack of motivation stems from knowing that it's over, and that mental illness is just cope. But I could be wrong of course. The subconscious mind knows all.

 

[lonerKiwi16]

I literally can't muster an ounce of energy or motivation to do anything. I don't know what it is, what's it called, but I seriously believe it's some mental disorder.

I never knew that I'd find my doppelganger on this site

 

[oldcellcopecell]

Get in the gym phaggot.

You were talking about going to the gym, start going to the gym right now.