
Sleepycell
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I've honestly reached a nightmare level of Inceldom at this point. I don't seem to enjoy eating anymore because food no longer tastes good, no matter what I eat. Even fast food fails to satisfy me. Every new anime I try to watch feels disappointing, and the games I play are boring. Even when I attempt to watch YouTube or Netflix, everything seems dull. I'm exhausted from dealing with physical and mental pain on a daily basis. It ranges from sensitive teeth and sore joints to constant shortness of breath and GERD-related mucus. Mentally, I often feel depressed, socially anxious, and paranoid whenever I try to go outside. These days, I only leave my house every two to three weeks to study at the library, but even there, I'm treated poorly and mocked. It's not an exaggeration to say that I no longer feel human; I feel like I belong to an entirely different species because of my thought processes. I genuinely believe that "normies" are a different, more ignorant species who refuse to accept the truth—the "black pill," which I consider to be one of the ultimate facts of this world. When I'm angry, I find myself resorting to self-harm, punching and hitting myself. My jaw is still aching from a punch I threw 30 minutes ago because my sandwich didn't taste good. Every day feels monotonous, as I constantly feel like a source of embarrassment. It's painful to admit, but all the people who bullied me and my teachers in school were right about me. My bullies would insult me, calling me ugly and retarded, and they would even tease me by linking me with other girls who would respond negatively. Everyone always made fun of me for being slower in learning and called me dumb. Even one of my former teachers indirectly implied that I was retarded, and another teacher outright asked me if I had a mental disabilty. My depression has worsened to the point where I neglect cleaning my basement, and it's filled with garbage, trash, and old, moldy food. I only take a shower once or twice a week, and I brush my teeth every other day, resulting in yellow teeth and bad breath aswell as extremely sensitive teeth. The only things that keep me somewhat sane are listening to music and daydreaming for hours on end, as well as my faith in Islam and also knowing that we are living in the endtimes and this life is almost over for everyone. Its truly over for me
. This story takes place in Minecraft and isn't real whatsoever
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