Last night I had a dream, I wanted to enter a club and it said "You must be 200 cm to enter", and a 200 cm man and his 220 brother entered and started laughing at how short I am. They just laughed and laughed and wouldn't stop laughing. While in my dreams the people mocking and bullying me always tower over me I've never really had that much anxieties about my height as I've had, despite often being the shortest kid in class and when I wasn't the shortest kid in class the actual shortest kid in class was often the kid who would bully me on a daily basis.
Until I took the Heightpill last month or perhaps two months ago whenever I went out I oggled at almost every non-Black, non-Dravidian toilet I saw in the street, but now, I basically stopped looking at toilets and only compare myself to other men seeing why they have girlfriends / wives and I don't, the answer is simple, they all mog me and 99% of them (including most toilets) height-mog me. When I was a teenager I stopped growing and everyone around me continued growing and I was always one of the shortest people, I am almost always the shortest man in the room whenever I'm with other men.
I just thought this is what life is, other men grow and I am stuck at being "barely a man" at 6'2 "tall". The last time I even thought about my height was when my Latin American Nigger cousin moved to my country and he thought that he was "tall" at 185 cm (6'1) and because of my slouched posture thought that I was shorter than him, I stood next to him, raised my back and was taller and my mother took a photograph of both of us. Later I heard him cry into tears talking about how he "doesn't feel like a man" here and I didn't really realise what he was talking about because I was bluepilled about height. Reading online people in other countries talk about how "6~6'2 is tall, but not very tall" but in my country this isn't true at all, on Quora one man described 6'2 as "shortish" and that's only true in general, once you start comparing yourself with White people and Curries (Dutch Curries are almost always 6'4+, even recent immigrants) you realise that you're not just short, you're an absolute dwarf.
I used to live in a province that's so White that you can travel from village to village without ever seeing a non-German foreigner for days. But here I know why my country's average height is only 6 feet, it's because of lots of Niggers that skew the data, Dutch Chinese, Dutch Curries, and indigenous Dutch people all stand above 195 cm, but Africans are almost all short.
Whenever I go out now I basically compare myself to literally every man I see and I know why I get 0 matches on literally every dating app I install, even my blue eyes White friends who are much taller than me get 0 matches.
The idea that you stop growing while you see other men continue to grow around you is an existential dread and I've been contemplating suicide over my short stature... I still want to try shoe lifts but I think that the 7 cm lifts won't be enough, I think that I will need the 15 cm lift to become taller than 200 cm. In my dream from last night the men were mocking me and laughing at my short stature and I broke down in tears and I took my phone and kept scrolling for lifts in my dream, I ordered shoe lifts and all my savings were gone.
As horrible as that dream was in real life I'm not even that lucky, I can't find shoe lifts in my size because despite being short as hell my feet are disproportionately large.
I'm around 30 and in my multiple decades on this planet I've never even thought about height in this way, my toilet friends always tell me that height is a non-issue but all their boyfriends dwarf me. I have met a 142 cm Vietnamese toilet with a 198 cm German husband and she still described him as "the shortest man I've ever been with, tee-hee". A mutual friend even told me how she said that his 19 cm dick was the smallest she ever saw, but she said that for her that's considered quite large. I was like "waaahhhh" and I still didn't put the connections together and realised how over it is for me.
Female friends don't get you girlfriends, they won't introduce non-Chad's to their single female friends because they would see that as a form of humiliation. Female friendmaxxing doesn't work.
If you're ugly your ONLY option is to be tall, but I don't even have that. Meanwhile I'm worried that if I keep telling men to looksmax with shoelifts that I am inadvertently dooming myself to be even relatively shorter.
Since I started comparing myself with other men I've rarely seen a man shorter than me, maybe this is because of one of 3 reasons:
(1) I'm simply in the wrong geography as I live in a rich neighbourhood and richer people are simply taller, but it doesn't matter where I go, I'm always the shortest man around.
(2) I just have horribly low self-esteem and PERCEIVE men shorter than me as taller, this might be the case as when I look in mirrors next to a lot of people I'm actually taller than some people, but most men actually tower over me.
(3) I'm heightparanoid. I'm probably sure that I'm not, I am just a dwarf in a nation of giants.
Being in the Netherlands is one of the most horrible places to live, but even in Beijing and Seoul most men height-mogged me. At the time I just thought "wow, Asians are tall" but the reality is that I'm short. The worst part is that I didn't even care about it until so recently, now I regret not being blackpilled as a teenager so I could have taken supplements to help my growth. Unfortunately I'm too old and the Blackpill didn't exist back then, at least it wasn't properly identified, the negative effects of unattractiveness have always existed.
Whenever I go out I compare railings to how high my eyes are. I put my shoulders next to closets and everything to see how I compare with other men, I'm so insecure about my height now.
Until I took the Heightpill last month or perhaps two months ago whenever I went out I oggled at almost every non-Black, non-Dravidian toilet I saw in the street, but now, I basically stopped looking at toilets and only compare myself to other men seeing why they have girlfriends / wives and I don't, the answer is simple, they all mog me and 99% of them (including most toilets) height-mog me. When I was a teenager I stopped growing and everyone around me continued growing and I was always one of the shortest people, I am almost always the shortest man in the room whenever I'm with other men.
I just thought this is what life is, other men grow and I am stuck at being "barely a man" at 6'2 "tall". The last time I even thought about my height was when my Latin American Nigger cousin moved to my country and he thought that he was "tall" at 185 cm (6'1) and because of my slouched posture thought that I was shorter than him, I stood next to him, raised my back and was taller and my mother took a photograph of both of us. Later I heard him cry into tears talking about how he "doesn't feel like a man" here and I didn't really realise what he was talking about because I was bluepilled about height.
Reading online people in other countries talk about how "6~6'2 is tall, but not very tall" but in my country this isn't true at all, on Quora one man described 6'2 as "shortish" and that's only true in general, once you start comparing yourself with White people and Curries (Dutch Curries are almost always 6'4+, even recent immigrants) you realise that you're not just short, you're an absolute dwarf.I used to live in a province that's so White that you can travel from village to village without ever seeing a non-German foreigner for days. But here I know why my country's average height is only 6 feet, it's because of lots of Niggers that skew the data, Dutch Chinese, Dutch Curries, and indigenous Dutch people all stand above 195 cm, but Africans are almost all short.
Whenever I go out now I basically compare myself to literally every man I see and I know why I get 0 matches on literally every dating app I install, even my blue eyes White friends who are much taller than me get 0 matches.
The idea that you stop growing while you see other men continue to grow around you is an existential dread and I've been contemplating suicide over my short stature... I still want to try shoe lifts but I think that the 7 cm lifts won't be enough, I think that I will need the 15 cm lift to become taller than 200 cm. In my dream from last night the men were mocking me and laughing at my short stature and I broke down in tears and I took my phone and kept scrolling for lifts in my dream, I ordered shoe lifts and all my savings were gone.
As horrible as that dream was in real life I'm not even that lucky, I can't find shoe lifts in my size because despite being short as hell my feet are disproportionately large.
I'm around 30 and in my multiple decades on this planet I've never even thought about height in this way, my toilet friends always tell me that height is a non-issue but all their boyfriends dwarf me. I have met a 142 cm Vietnamese toilet with a 198 cm German husband and she still described him as "the shortest man I've ever been with, tee-hee". A mutual friend even told me how she said that his 19 cm dick was the smallest she ever saw, but she said that for her that's considered quite large. I was like "waaahhhh" and I still didn't put the connections together and realised how over it is for me.
Female friends don't get you girlfriends, they won't introduce non-Chad's to their single female friends because they would see that as a form of humiliation. Female friendmaxxing doesn't work.
If you're ugly your ONLY option is to be tall, but I don't even have that.
Meanwhile I'm worried that if I keep telling men to looksmax with shoelifts that I am inadvertently dooming myself to be even relatively shorter.Since I started comparing myself with other men I've rarely seen a man shorter than me, maybe this is because of one of 3 reasons:
(1) I'm simply in the wrong geography as I live in a rich neighbourhood and richer people are simply taller, but it doesn't matter where I go, I'm always the shortest man around.
(2) I just have horribly low self-esteem and PERCEIVE men shorter than me as taller, this might be the case as when I look in mirrors next to a lot of people I'm actually taller than some people, but most men actually tower over me.
(3) I'm heightparanoid. I'm probably sure that I'm not, I am just a dwarf in a nation of giants.
Being in the Netherlands is one of the most horrible places to live, but even in Beijing and Seoul most men height-mogged me. At the time I just thought "wow, Asians are tall" but the reality is that I'm short. The worst part is that I didn't even care about it until so recently, now I regret not being blackpilled as a teenager so I could have taken supplements to help my growth.
Unfortunately I'm too old and the Blackpill didn't exist back then, at least it wasn't properly identified, the negative effects of unattractiveness have always existed.Whenever I go out I compare railings to how high my eyes are. I put my shoulders next to closets and everything to see how I compare with other men, I'm so insecure about my height now.
