I won't lie, I want to be the victim but I'm really the perpetrator. I've emotionally abused the only friends I have and I admit I've blocked contact with them as well. I'm alone by my own mistakes and yet I victimize myself. Romantically it's not my fault but when it comes to friends it is. Maybe it's not completely my fault as I have BPD, but it's still somewhat. I hate to admit it but I'm not always the victim.
