It’s 3 am and I’m just sitting in my bedroom listening to Pink Floyd thinking about this fucked up world.
The ugliness of humans is so sad it just makes me cry. I never wanted to be full of hate and anger. The memory of that smiling, clueless little boy I used to be just fades each passing day.
I just think about all the times I’ve ever punched down on someone who managed to look more subhuman than me, back when I was a retarded teenager, and I feel nothing but guilt and shame, because I understand the pain and the hypocrisy of it. I was surviving this fucked up game of social hierarchy like all these other normies until I couldn’t keep up because of my genes. It was instinctual because I thought it was cool to do; it was the way to fit in and an easy was to feel better about myself.
And so what really set me off tonight was scrolling instagram reels and seeing a reposted video of Bagel Boss (RIP). I couldn’t even watch the video and scrolled the comments, and not a SINGLE ONE had any sympathy for the guy. Profiles with shit like “Free Palestine” and “God is good” in their bio absolutely torching this guy for understandably having a meltdown because of his shit life and being mistreated and abused. Retarded foids ( a lot of them fat ) calling him manlet, bald, ugly, telling him it’s his fault and applauding the tall fag for tackling him as if it was some accomplishment. Faggots just doubling down on the short jokes and emasculating him while simultaneously bragging about their own heights. Nobody fucking asked them, but they have to reaffirm their social standing like a BUNCH OF ANIMALS.
What do these animals expect from a guy like that? Total subservience to the status quo? Whenever I get into arguments with normies about genetics, they always cite Danny Devito as a success story. And yet, as I scroll through these comments, they are using Danny Devito gifs to roast St. Bagel, highlighting how they truly feel about subhumans. Nothing but a punchline, a reference point to look at and say “at least I’m not that freak”.
None of them would ever want to be in the position of daily humiliation and being pigeonholed into jestering and being a clown, but that’s exactly what they expect of Bagel. Jesus Christ I would kill myself if I was him, and I’m already depressed. Absolutely no source of genuine respect from the population. What did he have to live for? What was the point of God making his life so shit? How is it fair for him to go to hell? Why was it decided in the cosmos to make his life, out of all of ours, a reference point to look at instead of a life filled with cherished memories, love, kindness, and self-fulfillment? The same can be said for us, as we are not far off on the social ladder.
I sit here and wonder how these freakish ghouls known as normies convince themselves that they’re good. It’s so bizarre now that the world is silent and dark as I think about it. How do they pray to God and talk about morality as if it means anything in their tribalism? They are only out for their best interest, they are willing to kill (figuratively and literally) their fellow man to get ahead. Their repentance, their show or remorse, their manners are all theatrical and rehearsed to fuel that part of themselves that craves a soul, but they have none. I know that the only reason I am aware of this ugliness in human nature is because it was unlucky enough to have this forced in my face, so I’m not exempt from humanity’s overall ugliness.
If you and I looked were to ascend tomorrow, would we turn into monsters like these animals? I’d like to believe I wouldn’t after everything I experienced, but I’m not sure if it’s possible to be truly good.
What’s the point of this suffering? Why is it all so fucked up? Every now and then, I see glimpses of beauty in nature and music, and for a second I get life fuel and wonder if there is hope.
But then, like clockwork, I just get another video or post or social interaction that reaffirms the horror that this world is.
I wish people were genuinely nice instead of doing it performatively to gain social points. It makes my stomach turn. I have tears in my eyes typing this out like a cuck. I wish nothing but the best for all of you here. I’m sorry it happened to you.
Im sad it all ended up this way. Life’s not a Disney movie. Have a good night
The ugliness of humans is so sad it just makes me cry. I never wanted to be full of hate and anger. The memory of that smiling, clueless little boy I used to be just fades each passing day.
I just think about all the times I’ve ever punched down on someone who managed to look more subhuman than me, back when I was a retarded teenager, and I feel nothing but guilt and shame, because I understand the pain and the hypocrisy of it. I was surviving this fucked up game of social hierarchy like all these other normies until I couldn’t keep up because of my genes. It was instinctual because I thought it was cool to do; it was the way to fit in and an easy was to feel better about myself.
And so what really set me off tonight was scrolling instagram reels and seeing a reposted video of Bagel Boss (RIP). I couldn’t even watch the video and scrolled the comments, and not a SINGLE ONE had any sympathy for the guy. Profiles with shit like “Free Palestine” and “God is good” in their bio absolutely torching this guy for understandably having a meltdown because of his shit life and being mistreated and abused. Retarded foids ( a lot of them fat ) calling him manlet, bald, ugly, telling him it’s his fault and applauding the tall fag for tackling him as if it was some accomplishment. Faggots just doubling down on the short jokes and emasculating him while simultaneously bragging about their own heights. Nobody fucking asked them, but they have to reaffirm their social standing like a BUNCH OF ANIMALS.
What do these animals expect from a guy like that? Total subservience to the status quo? Whenever I get into arguments with normies about genetics, they always cite Danny Devito as a success story. And yet, as I scroll through these comments, they are using Danny Devito gifs to roast St. Bagel, highlighting how they truly feel about subhumans. Nothing but a punchline, a reference point to look at and say “at least I’m not that freak”.
None of them would ever want to be in the position of daily humiliation and being pigeonholed into jestering and being a clown, but that’s exactly what they expect of Bagel. Jesus Christ I would kill myself if I was him, and I’m already depressed. Absolutely no source of genuine respect from the population. What did he have to live for? What was the point of God making his life so shit? How is it fair for him to go to hell? Why was it decided in the cosmos to make his life, out of all of ours, a reference point to look at instead of a life filled with cherished memories, love, kindness, and self-fulfillment? The same can be said for us, as we are not far off on the social ladder.
I sit here and wonder how these freakish ghouls known as normies convince themselves that they’re good. It’s so bizarre now that the world is silent and dark as I think about it. How do they pray to God and talk about morality as if it means anything in their tribalism? They are only out for their best interest, they are willing to kill (figuratively and literally) their fellow man to get ahead. Their repentance, their show or remorse, their manners are all theatrical and rehearsed to fuel that part of themselves that craves a soul, but they have none. I know that the only reason I am aware of this ugliness in human nature is because it was unlucky enough to have this forced in my face, so I’m not exempt from humanity’s overall ugliness.
If you and I looked were to ascend tomorrow, would we turn into monsters like these animals? I’d like to believe I wouldn’t after everything I experienced, but I’m not sure if it’s possible to be truly good.
What’s the point of this suffering? Why is it all so fucked up? Every now and then, I see glimpses of beauty in nature and music, and for a second I get life fuel and wonder if there is hope.
But then, like clockwork, I just get another video or post or social interaction that reaffirms the horror that this world is.
I wish people were genuinely nice instead of doing it performatively to gain social points. It makes my stomach turn. I have tears in my eyes typing this out like a cuck. I wish nothing but the best for all of you here. I’m sorry it happened to you.
Im sad it all ended up this way. Life’s not a Disney movie. Have a good night
