Every day I'm getting older. Every day the chance of experiencing love becomes thinner and thinner. At my age (23) it's not even socially acceptable anymore to not know how to kiss or have sex, if I told a girl I have never kissed anyone she would just laugh at me.
I don't want to even do anything in life anymore. What's the point? I fucking hate everything. I'm full of anger towards the fact I have to exist, I don't think death is the end of existence as a whole but at least it's the end of this life, a reset button.
I have also started to lose my sanity, I tend to hear voices especially when I'm in the shower (people talking about me) and people on the streets stare at me. I have had many bad nightmares that felt like I was in contact with some kind of evil satan which caused me to have a mild panic attack even after waking up. I think I might have early form of schizophrenia. I'm kind of hoping to get it, at least I'd have a socially acceptable reason to not do anything and be a virgin.
I don't want to even do anything in life anymore. What's the point? I fucking hate everything. I'm full of anger towards the fact I have to exist, I don't think death is the end of existence as a whole but at least it's the end of this life, a reset button.
I have also started to lose my sanity, I tend to hear voices especially when I'm in the shower (people talking about me) and people on the streets stare at me. I have had many bad nightmares that felt like I was in contact with some kind of evil satan which caused me to have a mild panic attack even after waking up. I think I might have early form of schizophrenia. I'm kind of hoping to get it, at least I'd have a socially acceptable reason to not do anything and be a virgin.
