It feels like I was just never meant to win in life. I am ugly, autistic, ethnic, and extremely socially awkward. No women will ever want me, not even women from my own race. Everyday I try hard to cope and ignore these things but every time these reminders just come back to haunt me. I have been going through so much fucking shit and each thing just feels like a bullet to my chest. I want to cry but I physically can’t, I feel like I am about to explode from within but it just won’t go off. I am genuinely so tired of this life, I just want to rope but I can’t because it’s against my religion. Also my oneitis is in love with some other dude which sucks. She never loved me in the first place but it still hurts to see the woman that you stalk find a partner. While she is probably getting fucked by her chad boyfriend I am just here alone in my room posting on .is. Man this life is so unfair, why couldn’t I just be a fucking NT chad it’s so over.
