RageFuel I can't stand being around people who kiss/make out right in front of you, and how do I cope with pretending to be happy/ecstatic?

[MajorThomas666]

Is this a normal thing, should I be fine with it?

I know love is a thing I'll never experience, but still, is this a normal feeling to have?

Also, how can I force myself to be ecstatic about a marriage when, well, I don't care about anything or anyone... not even enough to smile?

I have many people in 'my life' that are getting married, but haven't really helped me all that much for anything, some have even took advantage of my circumstances, but expect me to be their best man and do a speech, and having social anxiety, which I make up for in jestermaxxing (though, this has always gone terribly wrong as an adult because I say things I shouldn't), ingrains these thoughts of wanting to just kick my feel back and not go to any wedding, despite the social ramifications.

I hate talking, I hate listening, I'm not a fan of anyone, which makes my behavior and feelings foreign to normies.

There's nobody in my family even remotely like me. Most are normies, HTN and Chads.

I know low inhinNTcelz will think differently.

 

[MrDucky]

look away

 

[nirvana]

You eventually get tired of pretending that you give a fuck about other people's happiness, especially when you're not included in it.

What you feel when people make out in front of you is envy and jealously, and of course it's natural.

 

[MajorThomas666]

look away

Thanks jew

 

[MajorThomas666]

You eventually get tired of pretending that you give a fuck about other people's happiness, especially when you're not included in it.

What you feel when people make out in front of you is envy and jealously, and of course it's natural.

I'm not jealous though. I'm dead. Like I hate the sounds and want silence.

My brain runs on silence, solitude.

The moment I have to say, be at a baby shower with a hundreds people, I can perhaps be there 2 mins before I want to c4 the entire place.

It's not jealousy. It's my inability to be excited or happy for others, and ME NOT WANTING TO BE APART OF ANYTHING ANYONE else achieves or a milestone in someone else's life.

I went to a wedding years ago and had to talk to a hundreds normies and Chads, most brutal, energy draining thing I've ever had to do.

 

[nirvana]

I'm not jealous though. I'm dead. Like I hate the sounds and want silence.

My brain runs on silence, solitude.

The moment I have to say, be at a baby shower with a hundreds people, I can perhaps be there 2 mins before I want to c4 the entire place.

It's not jealousy. It's my inability to be excited or happy for others, and ME NOT WANTING TO BE APART OF It.

Oh, I see. You're mentally and emotionally drained/exhausted like a zombie with no energy to cheer for others. It's like you're overwhelmed by having lots of people around. I'm almost getting there as well.

 

[MajorThomas666]

Oh, I see. You're mentally and emotionally drained/exhausted like a zombie with no energy to cheer for others. It's like you're overwhelmed by having lots of people around. I'm almost getting there as well.

Yup. A hypnotic state of unease. Sitting in a cave looking out.

Weirdly most would call that depression, but when I'm alone, I feel happy. Euphoria. Walk dog. Tend to garden.

But in the prescense of others, my brain always is in a state of fight or flight, I guess you could say anxiety, but it's not exactly that, more so the feeling that, "why the fuck am I here, I don't care, I don't want to be here." And this is going throughout my head while normies are asking my what my favorite beer is, or, what kind of sports team I like.

 

[rxkrd72]

Yup. A hypnotic state of unease. Sitting in a cave looking out.

Weirdly most would call that depression, but when I'm alone, I feel happy. Euphoria. Walk dog. Tend to garden.

But in the prescense of others, my brain always is in a state of fight or flight, I guess you could say anxiety, but it's not exactly that, more so the feeling that, "why the fuck am I here, I don't care, I don't want to be here." And this is going throughout my head while normies are asking my what my favorite beer is, or, what kind of sports team

same over here , I'm tired of these normie npcs acting all lovey dovey while I am dead insidde