Venting I can't sleep because of the thoughts that torment me at night.

[autisticghost]

Whenever I close my eyes and sleep I immediately imagine myself having sex like a normal human. And then in an instant I realize that this will never happen. I will never experience the loving touch of a woman. I will never lose my virginity to another virgin. It's almost as if my own thoughts are mocking me when I sleep. Hell, even beds themselves sort of trigger me because I know that I will ALWAYS be the only person in a bed. I will never wake up to a beautiful woman smiling at me. I will never experience passionate sex in bed like a normal human. I just want to fucking scream and cry.

 

[Deleted member 14218]

try writing down ur thoughts , and i know im gonna sound like the normshits but seek a psychologist and get em to prescribe u benzos and u will sleep just fine

 

[AmIjustDreaming]

ambien

 

[Deleted member 33893]

Whenever I close my eyes and sleep I immediately imagine myself having sex like a normal human. And then in an instant I realize that this will never happen. I will never experience the loving touch of a woman. I will never lose my virginity to another virgin.

You can get touched for a decent sum of shekels however it will never be a loving touch. Guys like us will never experience true attraction from females even if we get a date. Fucking us will be like a chore to a woman or a meh like activity they do to pass the time. I sometimes struggle to sleep thinking about everything I missed out on. Porn is triggering because I have to watch it and yet I am watching something that I will never have

 

[Deleted member 24016]

same

 

[Deleted member 5712]

Haunting memories of all my failures are what keep me awake as well
and the fucked up thing for me is its all the stuff thats not even my fault or what i have control over. Like sex. A girl fucks you or doesnt. I literally have no input in that. Children. I wanted a few. Its not like i made a conscious decision to not have any. That decision was made when i was born and i had no say in it. Friends. Job opportunities. All luck. All nothing i can comtrol

thats tge worst knowing its not like i fucked up and ruined my life like say a drug addict. I didnt snort coke for 15 years then wonder why my life came crashing down. I was literally just born and never even had a chance to begin with because of my genetics. The game was rigged from the start