Due to void of sex, I do not feel like an adult. I meet people my own age. Who already have a second kid on the way. And it really makes me think what I've missed out on what I was supposed to do in my youth. I really ruined my opportunity. Perhaps my opportunity never existed. So I'm cursed to be a wizard. Haunting the shell of my former self pondering what could have been.
Yes, this is also my experience. I have the exact same thoughts. I can´t believe that I never experienced my youth. I just cannot; my brain does not take it. I can´t cope with it because it is something nobody can cope with. It will haunt me for the rest of my very shortened lifespan.
Can relate nothing more suicide fuel then seeing a 14 year old couple while you a grown man that’s sexless and intimacy deprived.
This is absolute suifuel. I am almost 30 and seeing such kids mogging me and having what I never had and never will... I can´t hide my frustration and anger. I was robbed of my life. And now my fate is to be humiliated by kids who lived 1/3 of my life? Also, this sight is ever present; every time I go out, with a bus, or basically anywhere, I see these young couples. I think this will contribute a lot to fasten my suicide, and not only mine, but I think this is a very big constant motivator to rope for most wizards. Utter nonsense this. Where was my 14-year-old girl when I was a teenager? Of course some fucking chad took virginities of multiple girls, yet I did not experience anything. I am not going to just get over it. One of the girls he disvirginized was reserved for me! She was supposed to give me the feeling of being loved, appreciated, and validated. She was supposed to be there for me so I could develop from a boy to a man! Fucking society instead let her whore herself and raise the ego of an already egoistic chad. FUCK THAT!
This is why I can't integrate in society. I see people who have already experienced love so they developed properly. I never experienced it so I turned into an autistic retard.
Young love is what helps you develop as a man, since we’re deprived of it it shatters our confidence/self esteem My Asperger/autism have gotten way worse aswell.
Basically this. Young love is what turns a boy into a man. Look at us! Do we look like normal, developed people now? I turned out to be a retarded faggot without any self-esteem and with huge anxiety and an inferiority complex. I could not compete with any other male because a fucking 12-year-old child mogs me and undermines my whole self. I can´t even look straight into the eyes of these children, and certainly not to compete with fully grown men. My development was stunted, and my life was fucked because I never developed motivation or male drive to achieve things, to be intrasocially competitive, or to acquire any social status. All because not a single girl gave me a chance. It's unachievable now.
I can't either. I'm so emotionally stunted.
Most of my peers from school at work are now married, have children and families.
Meanwhile, I still haven't managed to even hold a woman's hand. Mentally I'm like still 16.
It's simple over for us. There's no way of coming back from this. What could I even do? Pay an escort to let me hold her hand? What a fucking joke.
Yes, we are still at the same fucking point; we were left behind and never proceeded further. Tell me, how is it possible for me, as an almost 30-year-old guy, to never even hold hands with a girl? To be considered unsuccessful at my age is to not have a good career by now. To be considered an absolute loser at my age is to be broke. These are the milestones for a 30-year-old guy. Then what the fuck would you call a guy who never held hands together with a girl at the age of 30? We are mogged to oblivion. I cannot literally achieve something that almost every 12-year-old kid has already achieved.
I do believe in fact that not having sex, relationships, etc. doing all the "normie" shit, results in stunting your growth. You may not feel it right away when you're still "young", but if you're almost in your late 20's or 30's, etc. That's when shit really hits you hard, I would know. I almost feel like I'm not worthy of talking to others, that having any friendships is a waste of time, especially if all it does is hurt you - the whole compare / contrasting of oneself to others scenario. And, once you "feel" the black pill, there's no turning back. It only gets worse from here on out.
Completely agree. You described nicely what it does to you as time goes on. It is also called an arrested development pill. One cannot progress further if he does not achieve the milestone he was supposed to achieve at a certain age. After some time, the window of opportunity closes completely, and you are left behind, sentenced to a slow, humiliating death of your very self.
