LDAR I can't keep doing this, I'm tired

[Giracel]

I am in my last university semester and I managed to make my Friday schedule have no classes. However, all I did was LDAR practically the entire day except when I went on an errand. To begin with I got up at 3 pm (I had already woken up several times by then) because I didn't sleep on Wednesday night at all. Despite sleeping in, I was lethargic and had no energy to do anything productive. I flipped through this one book I apparently have to read and within minutes I read something about "don't make sex jokes in conversations with women because it demeans women" (???) as if women aren't themselves constantly talking about sex and inappropriate things in every conversation they have. Once I overheard a hot asian literally yell to her friends about some guy's dick being 7 in, like chigga you are in public in a STEM building, crack open a book or GET THE FUCK OUT (but I digress).

Anyway I'm just so done with this, sick of coming back to an empty bed after exams, sick of studying alone and having no girlfriend like I deserve, sick of the stress, sick of always feeling behind… we've just started and I'm somehow already behind on content. I couldn't even bring myself to open the slide decks tonight and then got an insane headache out of nowhere.

I try to reason with myself that if I can just keep my grades good enough, then I will graduate in the highest honor category, and indeed I am already above the watermark for it. But with the way I am feeling now, I'm not sure where the energy is going to come from to stay there.

 

[Calamari Sun]

I relate

 

[Giracel]

I relate

If I had a cute indigenous amazonian girlfriend things would be different. We aren't meant to go through life alone, especially hard academics…

 

[Calamari Sun]

If I had a cute indigenous amazonian girlfriend things would be different. We aren't meant to go through life alone, especially hard academics…

True. That would actually be a motivation

 

[Giracel]

True. That would actually be a motivation

The logic held by some, including my parents, is that these things are a distraction from productivity. But I think inceldom is more distracting.

 

[Calamari Sun]

The logic held by some, including my parents, is that these things are a distraction from productivity. But I think inceldom is more distracting.

Inceldom is worse since you depressed and you don't really have an incentive to be successful since you don't have anyone to be happy with. That's what I think anyway

 

[superpsycho]

university is brutal, the only reason i went was to avoid the wage cage a bit longer and perhaps i can get a somewhat better job and enjoy higher quality copes. the worst part of university hasn’t been the academics though its been being surrounded by sexhavers, girlfriendhavers, and friendhavers 24/7. i always try and tell myself to not let it get to me but i cant stand getting lifemogged constantly by everybody that i see. anyways good luck with finishing out your time in uni, i got 4 more years of this shit…

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Once I overheard a hot asian literally yell to her friends about some guy's dick being 7 in

Suicidefuel. @LastGerman

Anyway I'm just so done with this, sick of coming back to an empty bed after exams, sick of studying alone and having no girlfriend like I deserve, sick of the stress, sick of always feeling behind… we've just started and I'm somehow already behind on content. I couldn't even bring myself to open the slide decks tonight and then got an insane headache out of nowhere.

It's hard to have purpose when you have none of the things we biologically desire to look forward too.

 

[Giracel]

Inceldom is worse since you depressed and you don't really have an incentive to be successful since you don't have anyone to be happy with. That's what I think anyway

You can't reason with people who have a cucked/bot mentality. I disagree with my parents on so many things now because I refuse to accept that I should be happy the way things are.

 

[Dead End]

The logic held by some, including my parents, is that these things are a distraction from productivity.

It baffles me how many people are indoctrinated into believing and perpetuating the idea that contributing to society is the primary goal in life. The average person is obsessed with productivity, more so than their own happiness. You will be shamed and viewed as inherently immoral for questioning whether a life of unconditional servitude to society is worthwhile.

 

[Giracel]

the worst part of university hasn’t been the academics though its been being surrounded by sexhavers, girlfriendhavers, and friendhavers 24/7.

Of course, I'm just dealing with low motivation so that's why the post was mostly about academics.

anyways good luck with finishing out your time in uni, i got 4 more years of this shit…

Thanks, it's going to be very hard. But in truth I would start over again just for another chance at having a cute school relationship. There's no making up for that in the real world. Even if I got a girlfriend tomorrow I couldn't truly compensate in the 4 or 5 months remaining.

 

[Giracel]

It's hard to have purpose when you have none of the things we biologically desire to look forward too.

 

[Giracel]

It baffles me how many people are indoctrinated into believing and perpetuating the idea that contributing to society is the primary goal in life. The average person is obsessed with productivity, more so than their own happiness. You will be shamed and viewed as inherently immoral for questioning whether a life of unconditional servitude to society is worthwhile.

You're a great writer. Btw it should come as no surprise that they want me to go to medical school afterwards, which is perhaps the most service-obsessive profession out there. If I go through with this, my days of academic stress are far from over.

 

[Giracel]

I just realized today that it was you who helped me find this clip, which is very pertinent. One of the comments even references going to med school in an ironic fashion


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uW0_C8FqVGg

 

[LastGerman]

Suicidefuel. @

@LastGerman

It never ends.

 

[Giracel]

just be a cuck and serve foids bro

Another eloquent Dead End trvth nvke