SuicideFuel I can’t force myself to leave this forum

[Celasius]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

 

[Celasius]

@PLA1092 thoughts on me being THIS fucking bipolar? Didn’t even take me 24hrs to regret it.

@B/W muttcel ‘see you tomorrow’ taken to another length.

 

[Celasius]

Oh and, thank you @Caesarcel. Sorry if I gave you a headache in the DMs and just for clarity, I did the same with my blackpill.club account around the same time:

I’d like to request an account deactivation / removal

If that’s even possible, if not, just render it banned or unusable. @FemoidsGTFO @UncleSpertz @GameDevCel I might eventually come back with a different account, but as of right now, I’d like to not partake in this community any longer. Thank you.

incels.in

I’m not gonna be as active as before but I just NEED a place to vent dude. I can’t take the loneliness. I keep deluding myself into believing that I can just leave this forum and go past this phase but I genuinely can’t take the loneliness. I just can’t it. It’s become unbearable.

 

[RegularManlet]

HAHAH well glad to have you back brocel, I understand wanting to leave this forum but not the anxiety part that seems like some silly foid shit to me. But my ultimate goal is to leave this forum too but I cannot right now. If I did I would have the same problem I have nothing to do and no friends.

 

[PersonalityPrince]

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OK4_fDHv-SQ

 

[Celasius]

HAHAH well glad to have you back brocel, I understand wanting to leave this forum but not the anxiety part that seems like some silly foid shit to me. But my ultimate goal is to leave this forum too but I cannot right now. If I did I would have the same problem I have nothing to do and no friends.

Thanks man. Yeah I think leaving should be everyone’s ultimate goal honestly and much like yourself, idk if I can combat it.

I held a mini memorial in a thread thinking you'd never return, glad you're here

My brocel.

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OK4_fDHv-SQ

Banger. And thank you.

 

[kay']

Take it easy hermango have a cig

 

[Fallout]

 

[RegularManlet]

Yeah I think leaving should be everyone’s ultimate goal honestly and much like yourself, idk if I can combat it.

Yeah and its the same for nofap for me too, I want to quit it and have tried but I end up fapping again since I have no friends which leaves me with a lot of idle time and I have no girlfriend or way to get one fast so I would be sexually frustrated for god knows how long maybe forever at this rate. If I had friends and a girlfriend I would stop fapping. Alternative would be to escortmaxx but I am not currently interested in that right now I would only see a whore if I got a cancer diagnosis or something.

 

[kay']

Did you smoke today bunny?

hopefully no

 

[kay']

I'm so glad for you! Keep it up

 

[Celasius]

Yeah and its the same for nofap for me too, I want to quit it and have tried but I end up fapping again since I have no friends which leaves me with a lot of idle time and I have no girlfriend or way to get one fast so I would be sexually frustrated for god knows how long maybe forever at this rate.

Yeah and I think much like that, it’s good to try not be as active. Always in moderate amounts as they say and I think people with the least amount of inhibition in general are usually the ones suffering from this.

If I had friends and a girlfriend I would stop fapping. Alternative would be to escortmaxx but I am not currently interested in that right now I would only see a whore if I got a cancer diagnosis or something.

I honestly can’t believe there are people with genuine real life friends that are here.

 

[RegularManlet]

Yeah and I think much like that, it’s good to try not be as active.

Yeah maybe I should limit my time on here or something I have done unhealthy amounts of time on here before tbh but I have nothing else to do. I started using this forum because my video game cope has pretty much been run dry for awhile now.

I honestly can’t believe there are people with genuine real life friends that are here.

Must be nice, it used to be me a long time ago but even then not really, we did not hang out often or do activities that much there was no great amount of frequency to it. I would not be on here if I had friends even if I still was incel.

 

[Robb97]

Why would you get anxiety?

 

[kay']

I honestly can’t believe there are people with genuine real life friends that are here.

You can have 100 friends mate and still feel alone.

Also all of your friends will leave u when you are down.

Just like when ur gf or wife also leaves u when u are down.

Truth is you only have yourself and maybe your parents if they are good parents.

But if the forum is making you sad then u should leave again and focus on other things.

 

[senses fail]

welcome back brocel.
stay a while grab a cocoa and chill out

 

[RegularManlet]

Also all of your friends will leave u when you are down.

I had one day in my life that was so bad I felt like shit or about to cry and I was like fuck it I am going to message my "friend" to hang out and I told him I had a rough day and he did not even really give a fuck and said he was busy. That was the one time I actually really needed a friend or a shoulder to lean on and he was not there. I have had "friends" but I have never really had a friend.
Luckily I did not end up trying to cut myself or something since I am not a faggot but fuck if life could just be a little easier for me to bare.

 

[Celasius]

Why would you get anxiety?

Surprisingly enough, I don’t have any social anxiety around people. At least not anymore, just the regular regarding health problems, upcoming events, etc. taken to an extreme degree.

Also all of your friends will leave u when you are down.

The thing about being an incel is that it’s just a really sad situation all around and at its core, you just feel extremely alienated. You just can’t relate to anyone and at one point, your “friends” will eventually get a gf and since you’re too fucking ugly and autistic to do the same, they’ll see you as someone who’s just bringing down their normie social status ladder climbing game. It’s an extremely unhealthy and hyper-focused-on-looks way of looking at it, but it’s just what it is: most adult men don’t have any meaningful friendships for this very reason. You need ONE person to spend quality times with for your mental health to not perish, not a dozen shallow connections.

welcome back brocel.
stay a while grab a cocoa and chill out

 

[RegularManlet]

just the regular regarding health problems, upcoming events,

I think anxiety for upcoming events a little is normal, even I get that since I just LDAR at home for most of my existance anyway.

The thing about being an incel is that it’s just a really sad situation all around and at its core, you just feel extremely alienated. You just can’t relate to anyone and at one point, your “friends” will eventually get a gf and since you’re too fucking ugly and autistic to do the same, they’ll see you as someone who’s just bringing down their normie social status ladder climbing game. It’s an extremely unhealthy and hyper-focused-on-looks way of looking at it, but it’s just what it is: most adult men don’t have any meaningful friendships for this very reason. You need ONE person to spend quality times with for your mental health to not perish, not a dozen shallow connections.

Yeah it fucking sucks, I had a normie friend but he got a GF and he probably does not even remember I exist, its been almost a year since I have seen or talked to him. He believes in me and thinks of me as intelligent but he heightmogs me and NTmogs me hard. Last time I even did try to hang out with him he left after an hour to go with his GF to do something. I kind of don't blame him though. I would like to have one quality foid to spend the rest of my life with and I can not even have that in this life.

 

[senses fail]

The thing about being an incel is that it’s just a really sad situation all around and at its core, you just feel extremely alienated. You just can’t relate to anyone and at one point, your “friends” will eventually get a gf and since you’re too fucking ugly and autistic to do the same, they’ll see you as someone who’s just bringing down their normie social status ladder climbing game. It’s an extremely unhealthy and hyper-focused-on-looks way of looking at it, but it’s just what it is: most adult men don’t have any meaningful friendships for this very reason. You need ONE person to spend quality times with for your mental health to not perish, not a dozen shallow connections.

preach brotha
this is why so many of us end up the same, death at our own hands. Just cant take the isolation and soycietal neglect. Somethings gotta give and eventually, my brain is so starved i get a one track mind and it screams nothing but suicidal ideation. I calm myself and douse my emotions with a white-hot flaming rage. its unhealthy to live like this, i realize this. So long as i recognize that internally im corrupted i feel like i have some semblance of control.

 

[kay']

I had one day in my life that was so bad I felt like shit or about to cry and I was like fuck it I am going to message my "friend" to hang out and I told him I had a rough day and he did not even really give a fuck and said he was busy. That was the one time I actually really needed a friend or a shoulder to lean on and he was not there. I have had "friends" but I have never really had a friend.
Luckily I did not end up trying to cut myself or something since I am not a faggot but fuck if life could just be a little easier for me to bare.

I have over 20+ male friends. When i tried to suicide last year and they knew none of them came to my house or offered any help only one or two and even if i asked for help im sure they wouldnt help anyway its just talk.

 

[RegularManlet]

preach brotha
this is why so many of us end up the same, death at our own hands. Just cant take the isolation and soycietal neglect. Somethings gotta give and eventually, my brain is so starved i get a one track mind and it screams nothing but suicidal ideation. I calm myself and douse my emotions with a white-hot flaming rage. its unhealthy to live like this, i realize this. So long as i recognize that internally im corrupted i feel like i have some semblance of control.

I have used the analogy before that if life was a game and were pro chess players or something we would just resign at this point and play the next game but you can't life is a 1 shot deal, at least to our knowledge. Dwelling on this further would make me have an existantial crisis though and I would get nowhere.

I have over 20+ male friends. When i tried to suicide last year and they knew none of them came to my house or offered any help only one or two and even if i asked for help im sure they wouldnt help anyway its just talk.

Jesus I have never even had 20 fake friends lol.
Normies love to pretend to care but when it comes down to it they won't if you do not have much to offer or if they have girlfriends or something, you just don't matter, you gotta be strong enough to go at it alone which fortunately I am. Sometimes in a way I am glad it is me that suffers, I am so fucking alone, alot of others could not do this.

 

[Celasius]

I think anxiety for upcoming events a little is normal, even I get that since I just LDAR at home for most of my existance anyway.

Maybe, but mine gets out of control and it’s just pathetic. I’m not proud of it and I’m just tired of constantly and aimlessly taking medications for it.

Yeah it fucking sucks, I had a normie friend but he got a GF and he probably does not even remember I exist

Yup. They’ll ditch you almost immediately after. Seen it happen.

He believes in me and thinks of me as intelligent but he heightmogs me and NTmogs me hard. Last time I even did try to hang out with him he left after an hour to go with his GF to do something. I kind of don't blame him though. I would like to have one quality foid to spend the rest of my life with and I can not even have that in this life.

Male friendships are seldom everlasting. A lot of them aren’t meaningful in any way and are mostly just surface-level socialization. I don’t seek out relationships any longer, but deep down, knowing that THIS is what awaits for the next half a century to come, saddens me and it’s just depressing to say the least.

Somethings gotta give and eventually, my brain is so starved i get a one track mind and it screams nothing but suicidal ideation. I calm myself and douse my emotions with a white-hot flaming rage. its unhealthy to live like this, i realize this. So long as i recognize that internally im corrupted i feel like i have some semblance of control.

That’s why a lot of us cope with anger and pure hatred. Helps to conceal that sort of feeling and escape that frigid mental state of mind.

 

[senses fail]

I have used the analogy before that if life was a game and were pro chess players or something we would just resign at this point and play the next game but you can't life is a 1 shot deal, at least to our knowledge. Dwelling on this further would make me have an existantial crisis though and I would get nowhere.

We have been dealt a losing hand and are forced to play it. The incels who dont play ball end up in prison or the grave. There is no second chance for us, at least not the truecels. Some cringe niggers will come on here and lament how no foids love them, masquerademaxx as a normie, get some pussy and come back to spread the whitepill.
Truecels dont get that opportunity EV-ER. We are regulated as the true dregs of soyciety. The real untouchables. Use them exploit them but never treat them as equals, they say. I say FUCK THEM.
let their world burn to ash. I wont be there to pick up THEIR pieces.

 

[Friezacel]

I'm addicted to .is, i often surf it instead of going to sleep

 

[RegularManlet]

I’m not proud of it and I’m just tired of constantly and aimlessly taking medications for it.

Yeah well idk what its like but it always seemed like a foid/bluepill trait to me but I am not a doctor.

Yup. They’ll ditch you almost immediately after. Seen it happen.

And it fucking sucks because I can not just get a girlfriend and do the same which is all I want from this life.

Male friendships are seldom everlasting. A lot of them aren’t meaningful in any way and are mostly just surface-level socialization. I don’t seek out relationships any longer, but deep down, knowing that THIS is what awaits for the next half a century to come, saddens me and it’s just depressing to say the least.

Men are just generally in competition with each other anyway, the whole bro code bros before hoes is the biggest fucking meme. I tried it, it used to be me and it does not work, validation from foids gets you validation from men but validation from men has to be extremely statusmaxxing to get foids.

We have been dealt a losing hand and are forced to play it.

Literally and its brutal in my case because I feel like if maybe something little was changed like being born a bit taller or a bit earlier. My parents having more social resources, maybe my parents making me switch schools when I was bullied. Maybe I would not be posting on here it's like I am so close yet so fucking far. It's not completely over since I am not 5 feet or massively deformed but its still fucking OVER.
Instead it feels like a bunch of variables out of my control. On a video game I would just go next and take what I have learnt for the next time but you can not do that with your life for alot of things due to the agepill.

 

[Celasius]

I'm addicted to .is, i often surf it instead of going to sleep

It’s impossible to not become addicted when you’ve been neglecting and holding back on everything and then suddenly get presented with a community where you can afford the gloves to go off.

The incels who dont play ball end up in prison or the grave. There is no second chance for us, at least not the truecels. Some cringe niggers will come on here and lament how no foids love them, masquerademaxx as a normie, get some pussy and come back to spread the whitepill.

That and those Neets.net type fucks who LARP as wannabe oppressed when they’re just complete shut-ins who jerk off to hentai and have no one but themselves to blame, seeing as how 95% of the time, they’re good or at least healthy looking enough white teenagers.

Truecels dont get that opportunity EV-ER. We are regulated as the true dregs of soyciety.

Yup. We can’t have that sort of treatment. You just constantly feel suppressed for how badly you ended up on the extreme side of the spectrum.

 

[Friezacel]

It’s impossible to not become addicted when you’ve been neglecting and holding back on everything and then suddenly get presented with a community where you can afford the gloves to go off.

well said

 

[greggymex7]

Its a blackpill curse buddy boyo, once you go black, you never go back

 

[Celasius]

once you go black, you never go back

Unironically our best slogan. Accurate too. You can never unsee the truth.

 

[im done]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

It's a cope seeing others life is as shitty as yours

 

[sultryloser]

I had one day in my life that was so bad I felt like shit or about to cry and I was like fuck it I am going to message my "friend" to hang out and I told him I had a rough day and he did not even really give a fuck and said he was busy. That was the one time I actually really needed a friend or a shoulder to lean on and he was not there. I have had "friends" but I have never really had a friend.
Luckily I did not end up trying to cut myself or something since I am not a faggot but fuck if life could just be a little easier for me to bare.

Brutal. I've had that happen to me, I know what it's like.

 

[all this time]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

The moment you lay a foot in the bp you’ll never leave it

 

[Agent47]

Good to see you again brocel. Will your old account eventually get reactivated or you will use this one?

 

[Mortis]

glad to have you back brocel

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Delete it, I will soon, I already doxxed myself enough, I am falling too deep into the mental isolation abyss, let it rot.

 

[Celasius]

Good to see you again brocel.

Thanks man.

Will your old account eventually get reactivated or you will use this one?

This is my only usable account as of now.

 

[PLA1092]

@Ricordanza state of iranians

 

[Freixel]

We are all in this fight together

 

[CrackingYs]

 

[Epedaphic]

Well it’s good to have you back.

 

[Celasius]

Well it’s good to have you back.

 

[mrlunatic]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

I never understood why you'd get anxiety from this forum

 

[RegularManlet]

Brutal. I've had that happen to me, I know what it's like.

Glad you can relate, I really needed someone that day that was not my fucking parents and I had no one and nothing, sad reality of my life.

 

[Ricordanza]

@Ricordanza state of iranians

Is this grotesk? I can't even tell who is who anymore

 

[PLA1092]

Is this grotesk? I can't even tell who is who anymore

no it's his brother @Celius, grotesk kept his word

 

[Zhou Chang-Xing]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

I didn't even have "mogging anxiety" until I got blackpilled.

 

[ethniccel1]

I already suffer greatly from anxiety and this shitty forum just further intensifies it, but I think at this point, I’m much more willing to put up with it instead of having to go through this absolutely fucking soul-tormentingly unbearable loneliness that I was hit with immediately after I clicked ‘deactivate account.’ As sad as it may sound, everything just felt blank and meaningless, so when it comes to weighing it in my hands, I’d absolutely pick the constant anxiety over feeling suicidal any day of the week.

In contrast to similar forums that I absolutely despise, one thing that I’ve realized about this place is that, despite all of its unhinged LARPers, it FEELS more real and it resonates with me. The users on here are much more fucked up in the head and oddly enough, I find a unique sense of comfort in that, seeing as how I prefer the taste of mania to being sad and suicidal 24/7. At least you get to hide the pain behind a strong emotion that way.

jsut sign off for 1-6 months same as everybody else when theyve had enough then come back later if want to later