This is torture. I think maybe I should go to the forest nearby in the night for just crying out loud. I am even having trouble breathing. Have not eaten or done anything I should have done this whole day. I woke up last night after 2 hours of sleep. I have hold back crying for a week or two now. But always I have to be quiet, so it is not the full effective crying. I envy you that live on an own house or in an apartment that has soundproofing. I can literally hear my neighbours speaking in a normal voice, I can hear what TV program they watch. They are probably used to hear porn video voices from my apartment.
