Serious I can't even cry/weep, because neighbours left and right, up and down would all hear, soundproofing is non-existent in this cheap apartment

[AutisticMonstrosity]

This is torture. I think maybe I should go to the forest nearby in the night for just crying out loud. I am even having trouble breathing. Have not eaten or done anything I should have done this whole day. I woke up last night after 2 hours of sleep. I have hold back crying for a week or two now. But always I have to be quiet, so it is not the full effective crying. I envy you that live on an own house or in an apartment that has soundproofing. I can literally hear my neighbours speaking in a normal voice, I can hear what TV program they watch. They are probably used to hear porn video voices from my apartment.

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

Why do you even want to cry?

 

[Deleted member 26032]

Why do you even want to cry?

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Do this


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fG_Uj7zPvmI

 

[Deleted member 21768]

Why do you even want to cry?

 

[Deleted member 22572]

Ummmm.... Does your girlfriend also live in an apartment that isn't soundproof then? xD

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Because of what I have missed and I am old already and I have no chance to have a girlfriend (and already too old to even use the term "girlfriend", I should have wife and kids by now). The worst thing is being this old. And recently I've noticed wrinkles in my face, hairline has receded very noticiably, got even more non-curable, permanent skin blemishes...and I have no friends and never had anyone I could talk to. And I can't get anything done, not even simple tasks, because I can't make any decisions, so I can't even take care of myself.

Ummmm.... Does your girlfriend also live in an apartment that isn't soundproof then? xD

I don't have a girlfriend. If I had, do you think I would be here at 00.29 if I could sleep next to my girlfriend?

I did not understand what you intended to convey or joke.
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Honestly, spending time in the forest can be semi-decentish cope sometimes, if there are no other people there. But I don't have a light and it's dark now. And I fear snakes, bears, wolfs etc.