what do i live.for
what do i study for
what do i wash my face for
my family hates me
i don't have friends
not even online friends
people here are either retarded or just haters
i just hate everything i see.
i don't know how I'll even survive with this.
rehab room says that we should accept bp and navigate life using it but what use is bp for if it only identifies the already existing problems. tbh there are no solutions for anything.
the truth can't save me.
better coping in denial than to rot and suffer in truth.
but i can't even go back and deny everything.
religious cope is over
gymmaxing cope is over
muh traditions cope is over
money cope is over
nothing is left except my physical existence with my retarded head which stops functioning the moment anyone enters the room.
i dreamed of life , to live a life maybe in the west , be some gigachad scientist or politician.
i can't even dream or daydream anymore.
I don't understand how everyone here copes, how the fuck do you even get drugs.
im too high inhib and surrounded by sophisticated assholes.
plus my parents would kick me out if i do get any drugs.
fuck my incel life.
that's the only phrase that comes into my mind everytime anything goes wrong.
I have to study then get a job and muh arranged marriagemaxx at 30 something age just to end up being her betacuck slave and sexless marriage.
i don't have any options to do anything.
west is either too expensive to move or it's just fucking brutal there, I'll end up getting shot by some white supremacist from this forum. Maybe @Devoteecel
JFL.
Life just sucks.
what do i study for
what do i wash my face for
my family hates me
i don't have friends
not even online friends
people here are either retarded or just haters
i just hate everything i see.
i don't know how I'll even survive with this.
rehab room says that we should accept bp and navigate life using it but what use is bp for if it only identifies the already existing problems. tbh there are no solutions for anything.
the truth can't save me.
better coping in denial than to rot and suffer in truth.
but i can't even go back and deny everything.
religious cope is over
gymmaxing cope is over
muh traditions cope is over
money cope is over
nothing is left except my physical existence with my retarded head which stops functioning the moment anyone enters the room.
i dreamed of life , to live a life maybe in the west , be some gigachad scientist or politician.
i can't even dream or daydream anymore.
I don't understand how everyone here copes, how the fuck do you even get drugs.
im too high inhib and surrounded by sophisticated assholes.
plus my parents would kick me out if i do get any drugs.
fuck my incel life.
that's the only phrase that comes into my mind everytime anything goes wrong.
I have to study then get a job and muh arranged marriagemaxx at 30 something age just to end up being her betacuck slave and sexless marriage.
i don't have any options to do anything.
west is either too expensive to move or it's just fucking brutal there, I'll end up getting shot by some white supremacist from this forum. Maybe @Devoteecel
JFL.Life just sucks.
