Deleted member 29447
- Sep 18, 2020
All my coping mechanisms and motives stop to exist after a while. All I desire since high school is Sex, a romantic relationship, love. I dont care about fucking Jobs, careers, studying, these and that..All the things people aspire in my age are so irrevelant to me, because Im still stuck in early high school years development wise. Literally I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in this shitty world. I dont want to function anymore. But if you dont function your life gets even more terrible, you cant afford things anymore, poverty will be your companion and you may even become homeless. I would like to have anything to look forward to, anything to work for or anything to be really passionate about. But after a while I always realize that I desire Sex, love and affection so much, yet being absolutely unable to get even near to it. And with this realization any joy I might have felt for a little while ceases to exist.