I can’t connect with anyone really especially women it would be nice to have lots of friends and a gf but that is literally imagining being born entirely differently if you think about it. In this life I can’t have a gf or relate with people. Most people irl stopped talking with me first so I just cut off my last irl friend for two reasons. Almost like revenge for most people already cutting me off to begin with and secondly I can’t relate to him anymore. All of the people I talk with are online now 99% are brocels.
No woman around here has shown any interest in me in fact even when I was more normal in middle school I recount lots of women who hated me for no reason. Around 4 chicks hated me irl for no fucking reason being condescending, rude, disrespectful, for nothing. It was also the worst I ever looked I was the fattest.
After I lost some weight (in high school) I noticed girls instead of being cruel just became indifferent and didn’t bother to interact with me anymore. I thought I was gonna be some stud in high school after losing weight lol (I was a redpilled idiot) In high school I thought i would go to one party at least even though I never really liked that stuff I wanted to be social still.
Instead I experienced stomach issues and panic attacks. Then I was diagnosed with Degenerative Disc Disease so I stopped gym maxxing. I even tried skin care and nothing worked. Thing is I really think after losing weight I looked a little better before I was pretty ugly then I became maybe a 4.5-5/10 but it still wasn’t enough for girls.
I think my looks are a part of my struggle but the biggest part is my mental and physical issues. My Autism, ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, and my DDD. These things really made me more anti social during high school to the point I stopped wanting to socialize or leave my house.
I have never received compliments irl from girls at all. The last time i interacted with a foid was when I got a haircut at the barbershop and the bitch said I look like the rapper YEAT which is by no means a compliment.
I graduated early in high school around December because of my health issues and also because I got doxxed around the time and had to deal with authorities.
My life was supposed to be normal but all these things that happened to me like almost drowning and getting molested at 6. Being treated rudely or indifferent by women. Being dropped by most of my peers. And being mistreated by authorities and the government has fucking ruined my life.
I am a accelerationist I wish for destruction of the west and hopefully a new society a more fair one can be built up. But this is only a fantasy a non realistic one.
No woman around here has shown any interest in me in fact even when I was more normal in middle school I recount lots of women who hated me for no reason. Around 4 chicks hated me irl for no fucking reason being condescending, rude, disrespectful, for nothing. It was also the worst I ever looked I was the fattest.
After I lost some weight (in high school) I noticed girls instead of being cruel just became indifferent and didn’t bother to interact with me anymore. I thought I was gonna be some stud in high school after losing weight lol (I was a redpilled idiot) In high school I thought i would go to one party at least even though I never really liked that stuff I wanted to be social still.
Instead I experienced stomach issues and panic attacks. Then I was diagnosed with Degenerative Disc Disease so I stopped gym maxxing. I even tried skin care and nothing worked. Thing is I really think after losing weight I looked a little better before I was pretty ugly then I became maybe a 4.5-5/10 but it still wasn’t enough for girls.
I think my looks are a part of my struggle but the biggest part is my mental and physical issues. My Autism, ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, and my DDD. These things really made me more anti social during high school to the point I stopped wanting to socialize or leave my house.
I have never received compliments irl from girls at all. The last time i interacted with a foid was when I got a haircut at the barbershop and the bitch said I look like the rapper YEAT which is by no means a compliment.
I graduated early in high school around December because of my health issues and also because I got doxxed around the time and had to deal with authorities.
My life was supposed to be normal but all these things that happened to me like almost drowning and getting molested at 6. Being treated rudely or indifferent by women. Being dropped by most of my peers. And being mistreated by authorities and the government has fucking ruined my life.
I am a accelerationist I wish for destruction of the west and hopefully a new society a more fair one can be built up. But this is only a fantasy a non realistic one.
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