and what makes it worse is the thought of me having to compete with other guys she could potentially pick from.
I don't even think about this, at least not very often.
I have the worrying thought that even when a potential-oneitis/"one-day-oneitis" would show me interest or even talk to me the next time we see each other, it would not matter anymore for me.
You have the anxious thoughts, if she is replicating your affection, when I understand your post rightly (I am nonnative, sorry). Not identical, but has maybe the same effect.
But maybe
@watcher is right, that this (cold like an ice block even if a woman pays attention) would not happen.
Happens to me too. I think it's natural for people like us. We have to build defenses against the inevitable disappointment that comes from putting ourselves in a vulnerable position that will almost invariably end with rejection.
I had an oneitis in middle school and one different each year of HS. Also one in the first year of college. I told all of them what I felt for them and they all rejected me. That makes up 8 rejections from girls I had a hard crush on. That definitely has a toll. One has to develop defense mechanisms against that.
Lol, your new signature is just brutal
It is even fascinating that the mind finds one girl to think about after seeing dozens of girls who were attractive (in the supermarket). Maybe because they all had guys with them and this one girl I saw today came alone with an old Opel Corsa.
I have no history of approaches/rejections, so this could not direct cause. Maybe it is the blackpill, because also a girl from school, which complimented once my nonexistent freckles and I thought sometimes of her the next decade (she wanted to become a tailor, attractive humbly) I can barely think of positively anymore.
But as I said above: Therefore that I suspect even with received attention to remain cold at the next encounter, another possible reason besides suspected mental mutation is God takes away the affection because he knows that this is would not a couple of his will (unbeliever with believer). Atheists may laugh, but I had some experiences of immediate and long-term change of desires already experienced.
To more directly answer your question about wind turbines and aboriginal communities in Canada I don't think they have many tbh the climate might just be too harsh to install them and keep up with maintenance.
I thought of "aboriginal" at