Discussion i can pass as neurotypical in a social situation, but i feel extremely drained afterwards.

[stoicincel]

i'm autistic, but i can mask my traits fairly well and make people think i'm funny and witty, and make them think that "i don't really care". but the reality is that is all a façade. i feel completely exhausted and drained from social interaction and putting a mask like this. i've had people wanting to be friends with me and wanting to hang out, but i always ghost them, because i know i can't keep up faking it like that, and i'm not interested at all in being their friends in the first place.. i do it more so that people don't think i'm weird and socially inept.. anybody else relate to this?

 

[RetardedChinlet]

Yeah, I know what you mean. It's a double edged sword because trying to enter normie life with that facade will eventually either drain you or slip you up and cause you to be branded a "weirdo". There is probably a lot of individual variance as to how much energy it takes and all that so you'll have to decide for yourself if you want to live a lie essentially.

I was slightly traumatized when I once found indirectly that my attempt to pass off as a fun and chill normie caused people to think I'm a total weirdo. I stopped trying after that.

 

[El Enemigo]

I've felt this and have also noticed I only need a bit of social interaction, like once a week maybe to keep me sane

 

[Atavistic Autist]

I'm not capable of this, but it's probably to my benefit.

No wasted energy and time with trying to please people who hate me.

 

[stoicincel]

I'm not capable of this, but it's probably to my benefit.

i was always obsessed with psychology and understanding people, thats why i think i have this.. and this is likely because i was always very aware of how clueless i am, and i didn't want to be ridiculed. i've been called a weirdo, "cringe", and many other things and it hurts so much, so i was always trying my best to prevent that and be seen as "cool".

 

[stoicincel]

I've felt this and have also noticed I only need a bit of social interaction, like once a week maybe to keep me sane

i'm an introvert but enjoy small dose of social interaction. but i much rather to socialize with other autisitic or weirdos, bc i can be more myself without being judged

 

[Atavistic Autist]

i was always obsessed with psychology and understanding people, thats why i think i have this.. and this is likely because i was always very aware of how clueless i am, and i didn't want to be ridiculed. i've been called a weirdo, "cringe", and many other things and it hurts so much, so i was always trying my best to prevent that and be seen as "cool".

I'm at the point where I just menacingly stare at groids and foids and think about stalking them if they wrong me

 

[lemon21]

Introverted people gain energy spending time alone, extroverted ones gain energy being with other people. That's why you feel drained afterwards, i feel the same. One/two times meeting up with people a week is plenty, more than that and it gets bothersome.

 

[mentally lost cel 1]

i'm autistic, but i can mask my traits fairly well and make people think i'm funny and witty, and make them think that "i don't really care". but the reality is that is all a façade. i feel completely exhausted and drained from social interaction and putting a mask like this. i've had people wanting to be friends with me and wanting to hang out, but i always ghost them, because i know i can't keep up faking it like that, and i'm not interested at all in being their friends in the first place.. i do it more so that people don't think i'm weird and socially inept.. anybody else relate to this?

Same, I’m actually nt irl in circles but it doesn’t help in any way

 

[stoicincel]

Introverted people gain energy spending time alone, extroverted ones gain energy being with other people. That's why you feel drained afterwards, i feel the same. One/two times meeting up with people a week is plenty, more than that and it gets bothersome.

it's not just about being an introver. i just feel like an alien trying to pass as human.

 

[lemon21]

it's not just about being an introver. i just feel like an alien trying to pass as human.

that's quite a strech isn't it

 

[Atavistic Autist]

that's quite a strech isn't it

Not if you're autistic, because then you're a different sub-species from normgroids.

 

[lemon21]

Not if you're autistic, because then you're a different sub-species from normgroids.

Yeah, unless you chad.

 

[stoicincel]

that's quite a strech isn't it

that's how it feels for me. i can't relate at all with NTs

 

[kretschmer]

impossible to mimic these souless hordes. fuck them and their bs.

 

[kretschmer]

how to mimic NTs. act hypo-emotional, move in a rigid robotic manner.

 

[stoicincel]

how to mimic NTs. act hypo-emotional, move in a rigid robotic manner.

it's more like mimicking certain behaviours, interests, the types of jokes and understanding timings, body language, etc.. i use to build mental "script" of how the interaction would go.