LDAR I can only sleep a few hours at a time

[Giracel]

After a very intense nonstop sequence of assignments and assessments for the past week, I finally was able to rest. I was in fact so tired that I immediately fell asleep at 7 pm. But what happens when I go to sleep that early is that I wake up quite predictably around midnight.

Thankfully tomorrow is a day off so it does not matter when I wake up, but it is still very annoying being awake in the middle of the night when I specifically decided to go to bed early. Nothing I do fixes anything.

 

[Giracel]

Thinking about how utterly retarded it is, how I waste time laying awake alone in bed and doomscrolling twitter when I could be cuddling (and grinding) an foid.

I am beyond done.

 

[VanGobbel]

Drink alcohol

 

[Giracel]

Every day I am closing in on the criteria for graduating with highest honors, and thereby, I will at least have this to hold over the normgroids who live better lives than me

 

[pisser]

Drink alcohol

 

[pisser]

substances

 

[VanGobbel]

Every day I am closing in on the criteria for graduating with highest honors, and thereby, I will at least have this to hold over the normgroids who live better lives than me

no diploma for your face

 

[drowningindenial]

substances

 

[Giracel]

substances

My mother has offered to send me melatonin but said she did not want me to get addicted. At this point it doesn't matter, some days I am living like an addict anyway as it is, lethargic randomly falling asleep at 3 pm etc.

 

[Giracel]

@drowningindenial I also need sister gf. I have a fantasy concept I made of a big sister that sees her little brother is depressed on coming home from college on breaks because he gets no girls there and she takes it upon herself to help him out

 

[drowningindenial]

@drowningindenial I also need sister gf. I have a fantasy concept I made of a big sister that sees her little brother is depressed on coming home from college on breaks because he gets no girls there and she takes it upon herself to help him out

 

[Giracel]

There was a girl when I was very young that would come as a babysitter at times who I sort of saw as my older sister. Later though, her family imploded and she became an FtM trans. Very tragic.

 

[pisser]

My mother has offered to send me melatonin but said she did not want me to get addicted. At this point it doesn't matter, some days I am living like an addict anyway as it is, lethargic randomly falling asleep at 3 pm etc.

Mix it up with benadryl here and there, as far as “addiction” i mean there isn’t necessarily any fatal risks compare to real substances. Even so this lifes too miserable to want to spend it longer sober or in your case with bad sleep

 

[Giracel]

Mix it up with benadryl here and there, as far as “addiction” i mean there isn’t necessarily any fatal risks compare to real substances. Even so this lifes too miserable to want to spend it longer sober or in your case with bad sleep

True, actually I do have benadryl for allergic reactions. One time I had to take one after eating some apparently nut-containing bar. The rest of the day I was extremely tired but I did not know that was why at first.

The tiredness was a side effect, I later learned, but it never occurred to me I could intend it as the primary effect.