Story I can never trust anyone fully again after being brutally bullied and betrayed by friends constantly

[Runt171]

Ive had so many times I was betrayed by friends in my life

I still have a couple friends now but they were the ones who stayed with me through all this shit and I still cant fully enjoy spending time with them because
being betrayed so many times made me extremely paranoid about being abandoned or secretly bullied behind my back and shit like that
Even when my friends will do the slightest thing like saying they are going to work Im paranoid about them lying to me and betraying me somehow or meeting other friends behind my back

I have very bad trust issues now that I never had before I was 15
I remember being so trusting towards the “friends” I had and their betrayal ruined my brain
The constant stress from the ups and downs of being paranoid and untrusting are brutal
I will go from being happy these people are my friends to thinking that they hate me

I think even after all the abuse in my childhood this is the thing that made me break and really start to hate people


Ill give a few storys

When I was still in school
me and my “friend” did some dumb shit that I wont go into and He was going to be kicked out of school by himself as I was never caught

I thought that he wouldnt be able to cope in another school on his own because he had aspergers and I thought he would end up being bullied
so I owned up to my part in what we did

At the time I didnt realise that we would be split up so we ended up going to two different schools
He was very quickly put into a new school
He ended up making friends easily But I had to spend a year in a pru school filled with thugmaxxers Who bullied me constantly
After that I was transfered to a few other schools and I was treated like shit in every one I went to and never felt comfortable again like I did in the school I was kicked out of

He knew why I did this and that I was trying to be a good friend but he never thanked me for It or valued me as a real friend despite knowing that this completely ruined my life
After we were kicked out of school I stayed friends with him for years Because he was still friends with other people in my group

Does anyone else have any brutal party stories?? (Long story)

:blackpill:This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story :blackpill: This was around a year ago now maybe longer I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys it...

incels.is

This is another story that involves him if you are interested
This story is when I genuinely realised it was over for me and lost hope in my life

Things like This in my life is what proved to me that personality doesn’t mean shit
I had showed loyalty to my friend and went out of my way to show kindness to try and help him and yet he didnt even give me basic respect for any of this


Arent these good personality traits??
yet They didnt help me at all in life

I have always been loyal to anyone I view as a friend and most of the time It has never helped me
You'd think that these days where most people are selfish and out for themselves that people would value genuinely loyal people but just because I am subhuman they dont care

Another time I can remember I was meant to be meeting this same guy his cousin and my other friend

My other friend called me and said to meet at his house and I told him I would have to walk because My mum was at work and couldn't drive me there

I then had to walk from my house to his
He knew that I had bad anxiety and that this would be horrible for me

After an hour or so I finally got to his house and knocked on the door

No answer

I knock a couple more times and then realise no one is in
Im thinking maybe they went to the shop to buy some food or something so I call them to see whats going on

Im walking around his garden because normally I was welcomed by his family in their house so I didnt think it would be a problem and I didnt want to sit out in the street because people were walking by constantly

He picks up the video call
I see all of their faces underneath some trees looking down at the camera
I can picture this so vividly as this moment was the start of the downfall of my life

“Where are you what are you doing “ I said

“Are you at my house” he said

“Yeah”

“Get the fuck out of my house and fuck off”
He starts laughing with the other guys cousin but my other “friend” doenst laugh
Maybe he felt bad idk

I felt a pit drop in my stomach and I felt sick
I hate this feeling so much Ive exprienced it so many times the feeling you get when You know you are not valued and you know that you are just subhuman trash

I felt angry sad and confused I didnt know why they had done this to me I had done nothing wrong

I had walked all that way and suffered for nothing and now I had to do it all again just to go home

I wasn't expecting this because up to this point nothing like this had never happened to me and we had been good friends as far as I knew for a year
The brutal thing is I stayed “friends” with these people for years after this because I was scared of being alone

Later on another cunt joined the group and he brutally bullied me pretty much every time we met
Sometimes he would treat me normally so every time before we met I would just hope that He wouldnt bully me that day and that I could just be treated like a normal human like everyone else but most of the time I wouldnt be

There was no way I could defend myself or make him stop because this guy was way stronger then me
I tried to defend myself against him one time but He just overpowered me to show me could beat my ass if he wanted to

This went on for a year and a half and It was pretty much the only socialising I could get so I would always meet them

Everyday I would be picked on and I was the only one in the group this happened to

I remember one time He dared me to burn a cigarette on my hand and I did it to try and prove myself to him because I thought he would stop bullying me if I did

He forced the lit cigarette into my palm and I just remember staring at him in the eyes while It happened and it barely even hurt
It felt good to see how disappointed he was that I wasnt in pain
Im not sure how this didnt hurt because normally my pain tolerance is terrible but its like my pain went away just to spite him
Im guessing he didnt push it in that hard though because It never scarred my hand or anything but it still felt good just to spite him

Theres so many other stories that I can’t remember Well from this time but Pretty much everyday there was another brutal experience

After this Ive never been able to trust anyone fully again
There is always apart of me that thinks they are just using me for whatever reason or bullying me behind my back and That will never go away

My brain has been completely ruined by people from the abuse I suffered as a kid to the way all the fucking people in my life have treated me

Society will say that all you need to do to get a good social life is have a good personality obviously this isnt true and even if it was
how is that even fucking possible after experiencing things like this
Normal people never have to suffer through the experiences that we do they could never understand

The friends I have now are the only ones that didn't treat me like shit and treated me normally but I still cant fully trust them because Of how fucked my brain is now

Its strange to think about how pathetic of a person I used to be compared to now
Im not saying that Im a strong confident guy now but I would never put up with any of this shit now
but back then I was just a lonely dumb subhuman kid

I wish the worst on all the people that treated me like shit and all the people that have abused members of this site
This will never happen realistically though because this world rewards Evil people

I saw that mf that bullied me recently and He is living a good life while Ive been questioning killing myself everyday For months now

 

[PersonaPimp]

Mogs me for having friends to begin with.

 

[lowz1r]

at least you can still make friends as an incel (you just have to sadly accept the fact that they will always bully you).

Foids on the other hand, you can't even go anywhere near, let alone be treated with respect by them

 

[SubhumanGamer]

If you never open up you can never get hurt again : ) welcome to the club, sorry you got emotionally fucked up from those chodes

 

[Runt171]

at least you can still make friends as an incel (you just have to sadly accept the fact that they will always bully you).

Foids on the other hand, you can't even go anywhere near, let alone be treated with respect by them

Ive given up with women I never had any chance with them to begin with

Even as an incel you shouldnt accept being treated like shit by these people
No one should be treated like this

 

[lowz1r]

Ive given up with women I never had any chance with them to begin with

Even as an incel you shouldnt accept being treated like shit by these people
No one should be treated like this

they don't care. people are actually evil, even normies

 

[Emba]

Took you long enough to realize that they were scum... But at least you did. Many men don't

 

[Runt171]

If you never open up you can never get hurt again : ) welcome to the club, sorry you got emotionally fucked up from those chodes

I appreciate it man

Even now When I read what people say to me on here I question whether they are mocking me somehow I can never be comfortable again
The normies dont know how privileged their fucking lives are

 

[Runt171]

Took you long enough to realize that they were scum... But at least you did. Many men don't

I was young at the the time And I didnt want to be alone I thought eventually they would stop treating me like shit and treat me like a human

I knew that I wouldn't be able to make friends again so I didn't want to get rid of them and have nothing
I still thought I had a chance in life then so i thought if I stayed friends with them maybe It would lead to my life developing like getting a gf or more friends

I had a very strange mindset when I was young its like I was bluepilled and blackpilled at the same time

 

[Runt171]

they don't care. people are actually evil, even normies

I dont understand why the world has to be like this

People are so needlessly cruel the nature of the world nature and existence itself is truly evil

This people have no reason to be such horrible people
Even after all the shit ive faced in life I would still say im not a horrible person yet these people are pieces of shit when they have lived way easier lives then me so they have no excuse at all for their evil nature

 

[ElTruecel]

We should get revenge on that faggot then

 

[Runt171]

We should get revenge on that faggot then

Theres nothing I can do if I tried to get revenge it wouldn't be worth it and it would probably make my life even worse if they tried to get back at me

 

[lowz1r]

I dont understand why the world has to be like this

People are so needlessly cruel the nature of the world nature and existence itself is truly evil

This people have no reason to be such horrible people
Even after all the shit ive faced in life I would still say im not a horrible person yet these people are pieces of shit when they have lived way easier lives then me so they have no excuse at all for their evil nature

the worst part is, they literally have nothing to gain but a few tasteless laughs.

90% of the bullying is just normies saying tasteless jokes for their own amusement at your expense.

 

[Runt171]

Mogs me for having friends to begin with.

Would you really call any of the people I talked about in the stories my friends after reading this??

 

[Runt171]

the worst part is, they literally have nothing to gain but a few tasteless laughs.

90% of the bullying is just normies saying tasteless jokes for their own amusement at your expense.

Exactly my life is worth so little to these fucking demons but they dont care about how I feel they just want cheap entertainment

I wouldn't even call it cheap jokes they were genuinely violating me constantly for no reason

 

[light painted car]

i am sorry you had to experience all of that brocel

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

If you look ugly, this sometimes means you appear low trust too. So normies are less likely to have your back and will be wary or constantly on edge around you like they're easily agitated.

 

[Runt171]

If you look ugly, this sometimes means you appear low trust too. So normies are less likely to have your back and will be wary or constantly on edge around you like they're easily agitated.

Even if I did look low trust these people knew I wasn't a bad person and still did this to me
They have no fucking excuse

 

[Runt171]

i am sorry you had to experience all of that brocel

I appreciate it
I just wish I had never stayed friends with them there was no point at all

 

[RandomGuy]

After not having frens I thought family would still be around so I would never be alone. I was wrong thinking that. Family are much like fake frens.
The false promises, abandonment and being used like an errand boy all the same. My trust issues stem not from paranoia, but other people.

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

Even if I did look low trust these people knew I wasn't a bad person and still did this to me
They have no fucking excuse

The blame still falls squarely on their side in both scenarios as they're the party at fault here. Your looks are something you're born with and have no control over if you happen to look low trust.

 

[Runt171]

After not having frens I thought family would still be around so I would never be alone. I was wrong thinking that. Family are much like fake frens.
The false promises, abandonment and being used like an errand boy all the same. My trust issues stem not from paranoia, but other people.

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[SupremeFroggy]

Ive had so many times I was betrayed by friends in my life

"Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me."
May I also suggest Proverbs 24:32 & 26:11?

 

[Runt171]

The blame still falls squarely on their side in both scenarios. Your looks are something you're born with and have no control over if you happen to look low trust.

I think I am medium trust looking though but maybe im wrong

I think they mainly did this to me because of my small frame And they could already tell that I was weak minded and insecure from being abused as a kid
These people are like predator animals the second they sense weakness they are ripping you apart

 

[Runt171]

"Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me."
May I also suggest Proverbs 24:32 & 26:11?

I didnt know any better back then

 

[blackpillednigga]

i am sorry you had to experience all of that brocel

 

[Friezacel]

If you never open up you can never get hurt again : ) welcome to the club, sorry you got emotionally fucked up from those chodes

Cope, you can always get hurt

 

[Friezacel]

Brutal, have you been diagnosed with any non NT mental illnesses like Aspergers ?

Also i can relate with being unable to trust anyone after years of betrayal. Abused dog syndrome stays for life

 

[Runt171]

Brutal, have you been diagnosed with any non NT mental illnesses like Aspergers ?

Also i can relate with being unable to trust anyone after years of betrayal. Abused dog syndrome stays for life

Ive been diagnosed with adhd ptsd and anxiety But Ive been told I probably have mild autism
I cba going through the time to get it diagnosed though because Idgaf either way it makes no difference to my life whether I have it or not its still over for me
I think I might also be low iq you can probably tell by the way I type and speak

Its brutal seeing how easily other people live they have no trauma and life is kind to them
They cant even imagine the way we've lived
They never had to deal with abuse bullying or not fitting in
everything came easy to them
They never had to struggle with anxiety or any mental problems
They can easily socialise make friends and get a job never facing any real hardship in life

it’s impossible to ever fully enjoy life after experiencing it the way we have
we just have to find some way to cope our days away I guess

 

[SupremeFroggy]

Its brutal seeing how easily other people live they have no trauma and life is kind to them
They cant even imagine the way we've lived
They never had to deal with abuse bullying or not fitting in
everything came easy to them
They never had to struggle with anxiety or any mental problems
They can easily socialise make friends and get a job never facing any real hardship in life

And still they keep whining for non-issues.

 

[Runt171]

And still they keep whining for non-issues.

Yeah it pisses me off to see

I would literally kill them to get their lives but most normies are still ungrateful

 

[anotherbitesthedust]

Ive had so many times I was betrayed by friends in my life

I still have a couple friends now but they were the ones who stayed with me through all this shit and I still cant fully enjoy spending time with them because
being betrayed so many times made me extremely paranoid about being abandoned or secretly bullied behind my back and shit like that
Even when my friends will do the slightest thing like saying they are going to work Im paranoid about them lying to me and betraying me somehow or meeting other friends behind my back

I have very bad trust issues now that I never had before I was 15
I remember being so trusting towards the “friends” I had and their betrayal ruined my brain
The constant stress from the ups and downs of being paranoid and untrusting are brutal
I will go from being happy these people are my friends to thinking that they hate me

I think even after all the abuse in my childhood this is the thing that made me break and really start to hate people


Ill give a few storys

When I was still in school
me and my “friend” did some dumb shit that I wont go into and He was going to be kicked out of school by himself as I was never caught

I thought that he wouldnt be able to cope in another school on his own because he had aspergers and I thought he would end up being bullied
so I owned up to my part in what we did

At the time I didnt realise that we would be split up so we ended up going to two different schools
He was very quickly put into a new school
He ended up making friends easily But I had to spend a year in a pru school filled with thugmaxxers Who bullied me constantly
After that I was transfered to a few other schools and I was treated like shit in every one I went to and never felt comfortable again like I did in the school I was kicked out of

He knew why I did this and that I was trying to be a good friend but he never thanked me for It or valued me as a real friend despite knowing that this completely ruined my life
After we were kicked out of school I stayed friends with him for years Because he was still friends with other people in my group

Does anyone else have any brutal party stories?? (Long story)

:blackpill:This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story :blackpill: This was around a year ago now maybe longer I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys it...

incels.is

This is another story that involves him if you are interested
This story is when I genuinely realised it was over for me and lost hope in my life

Things like This in my life is what proved to me that personality doesn’t mean shit
I had showed loyalty to my friend and went out of my way to show kindness to try and help him and yet he didnt even give me basic respect for any of this


Arent these good personality traits??
yet They didnt help me at all in life

I have always been loyal to anyone I view as a friend and most of the time It has never helped me
You'd think that these days where most people are selfish and out for themselves that people would value genuinely loyal people but just because I am subhuman they dont care

Another time I can remember I was meant to be meeting this same guy his cousin and my other friend

My other friend called me and said to meet at his house and I told him I would have to walk because My mum was at work and couldn't drive me there

I then had to walk from my house to his
He knew that I had bad anxiety and that this would be horrible for me

After an hour or so I finally got to his house and knocked on the door

No answer

I knock a couple more times and then realise no one is in
Im thinking maybe they went to the shop to buy some food or something so I call them to see whats going on

Im walking around his garden because normally I was welcomed by his family in their house so I didnt think it would be a problem and I didnt want to sit out in the street because people were walking by constantly

He picks up the video call
I see all of their faces underneath some trees looking down at the camera
I can picture this so vividly as this moment was the start of the downfall of my life

“Where are you what are you doing “ I said

“Are you at my house” he said

“Yeah”

“Get the fuck out of my house and fuck off”
He starts laughing with the other guys cousin but my other “friend” doenst laugh
Maybe he felt bad idk

I felt a pit drop in my stomach and I felt sick
I hate this feeling so much Ive exprienced it so many times the feeling you get when You know you are not valued and you know that you are just subhuman trash

I felt angry sad and confused I didnt know why they had done this to me I had done nothing wrong

I had walked all that way and suffered for nothing and now I had to do it all again just to go home

I wasn't expecting this because up to this point nothing like this had never happened to me and we had been good friends as far as I knew for a year
The brutal thing is I stayed “friends” with these people for years after this because I was scared of being alone

Later on another cunt joined the group and he brutally bullied me pretty much every time we met
Sometimes he would treat me normally so every time before we met I would just hope that He wouldnt bully me that day and that I could just be treated like a normal human like everyone else but most of the time I wouldnt be

There was no way I could defend myself or make him stop because this guy was way stronger then me
I tried to defend myself against him one time but He just overpowered me to show me could beat my ass if he wanted to

This went on for a year and a half and It was pretty much the only socialising I could get so I would always meet them

Everyday I would be picked on and I was the only one in the group this happened to

I remember one time He dared me to burn a cigarette on my hand and I did it to try and prove myself to him because I thought he would stop bullying me if I did

He forced the lit cigarette into my palm and I just remember staring at him in the eyes while It happened and it barely even hurt
It felt good to see how disappointed he was that I wasnt in pain
Im not sure how this didnt hurt because normally my pain tolerance is terrible but its like my pain went away just to spite him
Im guessing he didnt push it in that hard though because It never scarred my hand or anything but it still felt good just to spite him

Theres so many other stories that I can’t remember Well from this time but Pretty much everyday there was another brutal experience

After this Ive never been able to trust anyone fully again
There is always apart of me that thinks they are just using me for whatever reason or bullying me behind my back and That will never go away

My brain has been completely ruined by people from the abuse I suffered as a kid to the way all the fucking people in my life have treated me

Society will say that all you need to do to get a good social life is have a good personality obviously this isnt true and even if it was
how is that even fucking possible after experiencing things like this
Normal people never have to suffer through the experiences that we do they could never understand

The friends I have now are the only ones that didn't treat me like shit and treated me normally but I still cant fully trust them because Of how fucked my brain is now

Its strange to think about how pathetic of a person I used to be compared to now
Im not saying that Im a strong confident guy now but I would never put up with any of this shit now
but back then I was just a lonely dumb subhuman kid

I wish the worst on all the people that treated me like shit and all the people that have abused members of this site
This will never happen realistically though because this world rewards Evil people

I saw that mf that bullied me recently and He is living a good life while Ive been questioning killing myself everyday For months now

terrible experiences, sorry about that bro, but you weren’t treated badly because you are a “subhuman” (hate that term) it was those brain dead low empathy normies that made your life a living hell so fuck them

 

[Runt171]

terrible experiences, sorry about that bro, but you weren’t treated badly because you are a “subhuman” (hate that term) it was those brain dead low empathy normies that made your life a living hell so fuck them

I appreciate it
but I get worse treatment from most people then they give to other people so It is because of my looks
Its no coincidence I'm the one thats always singled out for this shit

Even recently my friends gf keeps being bitchy to only me and not the other friend I have when she has no other reason to treat me like this other then my looks

Its not even down to personality because me and my other friend have similar personalities but he's 6 foot

One time we picked her up from outside her work and I was in the front seat and she argued with me for 5 minutes trying to make me move but I wouldnt
when she had to go and sit in the backseat she started kicking my chair and being bitchy like a little kid and Calling me little or some shit I dont remember exactly what she said since this was a while ago
So I tried throwing water In her face but I missed since It was dark and I couldnt see

The other day we all met again and picked her up from work again my friend called her to let her know we were there she said “runt better not be in the front seat when I get there”

And I started laughing because My other friend was sat in the front seat and I wanted to see what she would do
Because I knew she wouldn’t say anything to him

She came out looked at him and then instantly walked and sat in the back with me and said “ I dont mind anyone else sitting in the front aslong as it isnt runt”

Ive literally never done anything to this bitch she only treats me like this because she sees me as an easy target because of my height and frame and I get the same type of treatment from alot of people

It annoys me so Much I have to put up with this fucking treatment from people theres nothing I can do about it

No matter how much I defend myself they wont stop acting like this