Story Does anyone else have any brutal party stories?? (Long story)

[Runt171]

This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until
I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story
This was around a year ago now maybe longer

I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys
it was just us that went

we drove 2 hours to bristol to a free party that was in the countryside somewhere
When we got there it was around midnight

The party had a big speaker system and the usual rave lighting on the rig
The area around it was all fields and there was a couple of windmills above the speakers


We did some ket he had and we also got drunk
I had never done ket before But he offered it to me and I felt like trying it

We were together for probably the first hour
He “lost” me but im pretty sure he just ditched me he never really explained to me fully what happened even though I asked him
I dont even know when it happened it must have been when we were in the crowd infront of the speakers


I Was searching for him for awhile but I couldn't find him
I was high from the ket but not to the point where I didnt know what was going on
I tried speaking to groups of people to see if they had seen him or if I could join any of them but they hadn’t and no one wanted me to join their groups

At some point alot of crackhead type people ended up speaking to me while I was walking around the party searching for him and one of them was paranoid that I was a fed because I was wearing a bulky jacket and He thought I had a wire on we nearly ended up fighting over it because he wouldnt calm down

After that guy fucked off I carried on having a “conversation” with a few of the other crackhead people that kept talking to me but I wouldnt really call it a conversation because they were all fucked up on ket and whatever else to varying levels
I dont know what We talked about I just remember the conversations being strange and not making much sense But I was bored so I just stayed with them

there was this guy near the group I was talking to that was fully ketted out and he was like a stone statue just stood in place in the exact same position since I had started talking to this group he had probably been there for hours
I asked him if he was okay and he obviously didn’t answer because he was gone
it was like he had completely shut down except his eyes that were following me with every movement I made
he was just staring at me every time I moved he would follow me around with his massive eyes

Its brutal to see the things people do to try and escape their lives this guy was sub 5 so he probably took alot of ket to try and distract himself from the same sort of experience I was having but ended up in this state instead
I didnt see him again after that so maybe someone helped him

Every sub 5 I saw at this party looked like they were having a horrible time even the ones in their group of friends
I tried to speak to a couple of the ones I saw but it never led to anything
probably because they were coping and didnt want to believe that we were on the same level in the hierachy

I just gave up trying to talk to anyone at that point

Hours since I had got there After realising I wasnt going to find my friend and no one that wasn’t completely fucked up wanted to speak to me I sat on a hill that overlooked the whole party and realised it was over for me

the way it happened kind of reminds me of the club scene from whatever
I was just watching down on all the normies easily socialising and enjoying themselves while I was like a ghost forced to spectate them

I knew that I would always be a failure in life
all the negative feelings from the night and my life in general just hit me at once and the ket probably made it way worse

I attempted to walk to a nearby road because I wanted to throw myself in front of a car
I walked through the field that surrounded the party
The long grass completely soaked my clothes because It had been raining the day before
I felt like I was walking through a jungle

I never made it to the road and even if I did there was no cars coming anyway since we were far in the countryside
All of this happened in the winter so I ended up laying in the field freezing cold after I had given up trying to walk to the road
I laid there for hours just staring at the grey sky above me hearing the music of the party in the distance
my friend and some random girl with her bf found me and helped me up and I was unresponsive from then on because I was done with my life

At this point it was morning and everyone still at the party was commenting on how fucked up I looked to their friends
I was extremely pale from the cold completely soaked in water with my clothes messed up from the mud and dirt in the field
I would have looked like a zombie
I wouldn’t be surprised if theres a video of me somewhere online

We then had to drive home for another 2 hours and I just ended up falling asleep

Its brutal to think I was so excited for this party before we went and I ended the night nearly offing myself

It took me a few days to recover from what Happened and It hit me very hard that I had tried to kill myself because Id never tried before I knew if I made it to the road and there were really cars I would have followed through and I would be dead
I had to think about whether that would have been the better option for my life
And Honestly it would have been

I messaged him to try and ask what happened but like I said he never gave me a straight answer

Idk if he realised that I was trying to kill myself when He found me in the field and it doesnt seem like he would care anyway

Since then he hasnt tried to meet me at all
He occasionally messages me but I dont really talk to him anymore
He still talks to my other friends so I cant fully cut him off

The main thing that pisses me off Is this guy basically ruined my life but He still didnt value me as a friend or care about me

We were kicked out of school together I wont explain the entire story But He was the only one that would of been kicked out for what we did but I admited my part in it because he has aspergers and I thought he would get bullied and not be able to make new friends in another school
I thought we would be put into the same school but we were split up

He made friends easily at his new school and I was bullied and treated like shit in every other school I was put into

I never fit in again like I did at the school we were kicked out of
My one chance at life was completely ruined because of this cunt

I just wanted to be a good friend and my bluepilled naivity and loyalty ruined my entire life this guy never thanked me for what I did even though He knew why I did it
He knew my entire life was ruined because of this but still never thanked me

The stress of being treated like shit after moving schools probably ruined my puberty too I stopped eating as much food from the stress and my sleep was completely ruined all of this made me into an 5’7 incel framelet


I probably could have lived a better life had I not been kicked out but maybe my life would have went to shit anyway

 

[AutistSupremacist]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

 

[Mistake]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

 

[Runt171]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

Probably for the best honestly Im never going to another one again And I doubt I would get the chance to anyway

 

[juche necromancer]

brutal party story: I never attended one

 

[BasedAdam]

Glad to have you here brocel,

 

[Runt171]

Glad to have you here brocel,

 

[UglyDumbass]

This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until
I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story
This was around a year ago now maybe longer

I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys
it was just us that went

we drove 2 hours to bristol to a free party that was in the countryside somewhere
When we got there it was around midnight

The party had a big speaker system and the usual rave lighting on the rig
The area around it was all fields and there was a couple of windmills above the speakers


We did some ket he had and we also got drunk
I had never done ket before But he offered it to me and I felt like trying it

We were together for probably the first hour
He “lost” me but im pretty sure he just ditched me he never really explained to me fully what happened even though I asked him
I dont even know when it happened it must have been when we were in the crowd infront of the speakers


I Was searching for him for awhile but I couldn't find him
I was high from the ket but not to the point where I didnt know what was going on
I tried speaking to groups of people to see if they had seen him or if I could join any of them but they hadn’t and no one wanted me to join their groups

At some point alot of crackhead type people ended up speaking to me while I was walking around the party searching for him and one of them was paranoid that I was a fed because I was wearing a bulky jacket and He thought I had a wire on we nearly ended up fighting over it because he wouldnt calm down

After that guy fucked off I carried on having a “conversation” with a few of the other crackhead people that kept talking to me but I wouldnt really call it a conversation because they were all fucked up on ket and whatever else to varying levels
I dont know what We talked about I just remember the conversations being strange and not making much sense But I was bored so I just stayed with them

there was this guy near the group I was talking to that was fully ketted out and he was like a stone statue just stood in place in the exact same position since I had started talking to this group he had probably been there for hours
I asked him if he was okay and he obviously didn’t answer because he was gone
it was like he had completely shut down except his eyes that were following me with every movement I made
he was just staring at me every time I moved he would follow me around with his massive eyes

Its brutal to see the things people do to try and escape their lives this guy was sub 5 so he probably took alot of ket to try and distract himself from the same sort of experience I was having but ended up in this state instead
I didnt see him again after that so maybe someone helped him

Every sub 5 I saw at this party looked like they were having a horrible time even the ones in their group of friends
I tried to speak to a couple of the ones I saw but it never led to anything
probably because they were coping and didnt want to believe that we were on the same level in the hierachy

I just gave up trying to talk to anyone at that point

Hours since I had got there After realising I wasnt going to find my friend and no one that wasn’t completely fucked up wanted to speak to me I sat on a hill that overlooked the whole party and realised it was over for me

the way it happened kind of reminds me of the club scene from whatever
I was just watching down on all the normies easily socialising and enjoying themselves while I was like a ghost forced to spectate them

I knew that I would always be a failure in life
all the negative feelings from the night and my life in general just hit me at once and the ket probably made it way worse

View attachment 1180098

I attempted to walk to a nearby road because I wanted to throw myself in front of a car
I walked through the field that surrounded the party
The long grass completely soaked my clothes because It had been raining the day before
I felt like I was walking through a jungle

I never made it to the road and even if I did there was no cars coming anyway since we were far in the countryside
All of this happened in the winter so I ended up laying in the field freezing cold after I had given up trying to walk to the road
I laid there for hours just staring at the grey sky above me hearing the music of the party in the distance
my friend and some random girl with her bf found me and helped me up and I was unresponsive from then on because I was done with my life

At this point it was morning and everyone still at the party was commenting on how fucked up I looked to their friends
I was extremely pale from the cold completely soaked in water with my clothes messed up from the mud and dirt in the field
I would have looked like a zombie
I wouldn’t be surprised if theres a video of me somewhere online

We then had to drive home for another 2 hours and I just ended up falling asleep

Its brutal to think I was so excited for this party before we went and I ended the night nearly offing myself

It took me a few days to recover from what Happened and It hit me very hard that I had tried to kill myself because Id never tried before I knew if I made it to the road and there were really cars I would have followed through and I would be dead
I had to think about whether that would have been the better option for my life
And Honestly it would have been

I messaged him to try and ask what happened but like I said he never gave me a straight answer

Idk if he realised that I was trying to kill myself when He found me in the field and it doesnt seem like he would care anyway

Since then he hasnt tried to meet me at all
He occasionally messages me but I dont really talk to him anymore
He still talks to my other friends so I cant fully cut him off

The main thing that pisses me off Is this guy basically ruined my life but He still didnt value me as a friend or care about me

We were kicked out of school together I wont explain the entire story But He was the only one that would of been kicked out for what we did but I admited my part in it because he has aspergers and I thought he would get bullied and not be able to make new friends in another school
I thought we would be put into the same school but we were split up

He made friends easily at his new school and I was bullied and treated like shit in every other school I was put into

I never fit in again like I did at the school we were kicked out of
My one chance at life was completely ruined because of this cunt

I just wanted to be a good friend and my bluepilled naivity and loyalty ruined my entire life this guy never thanked me for what I did even though He knew why I did it
He knew my entire life was ruined because of this but still never thanked me

The stress of being treated like shit after moving schools probably ruined my puberty too I stopped eating as much food from the stress and my sleep was completely ruined all of this made me into an 5’7 incel framelet


I probably could have lived a better life had I not been kicked out but maybe my life would have went to shit anyway

you’re a normie if you attended parties

 

[Runt171]

you’re a normie if you attended parties

Did you even read the entire story??

Its annoying whenever you mention anything about a party or anything like that on this site people will start calling you a normie without even reading the post

Dbdr has been to partys before and he definitely isn't a normie

 

[SubhumanGamer]

In 5th grade I invited all my friends to a party at my house and nobody came I even handmade all the invites...

 

[TheJester]

I havent been to a party in over a decade. Well 2 parties - but it was boring.

 

[Runt171]

In 5th grade I invited all my friends to a party at my house and nobody came I even handmade all the invites...

Thats fucked up
Why didnt they come if you were friends??

 

[Runt171]

I havent been to a party in over a decade. Well 2 parties - but it was boring.

Im guessing nothing bad happened atleast if it was boring

How did you end up going to the party??

 

[SubhumanGamer]

Thats fucked up
Why didnt they come if you were friends??

I was the weird smelly kid so that is probably why

 

[Runt171]

I was the weird smelly kid so that is probably why

I used to be friends with a similar guy in school

They would all pick on him because He had something wrong with his leg and he couldnt walk properly and apparently he smelt bad too but my nose doesnt work properly so it never bothered me

His life was so brutal from what I remember but he ended up becoming 6’2 and now hes a stoner normie
Just shows that genes are everything since his personality didn't change
His friends used to bully him brutally but they stopped as soon as he became tall

We don’t speak anymore we ended up drifting apart after he became a normie

 

[starystulejarz]

brutal party story: I never attended one

 

[Runt171]

Theres no point going to partys as an incel anyway

 

[TheJester]

Im guessing nothing bad happened atleast if it was boring

How did you end up going to the party??

One was a party a guy from the neighborhood invited me who was a friend of my former ex-best friend. They smoked weed and watched football, there was only 1 girl which was the gf of my 'buddy'. I only remember she was a retard and nearly a landwhale - she was 14 we all were 16, except that pedophile druggy that he always took along with himself who was 24 at the time - I was secretly pissed off that he invited that guy too, like bruh hes a 6'4 tall 24 yo aggressive drug addict - basically was what i thought back then. I belive he was actually like his dealer or something. Hated that guy!

The second party was my, well, final highschool party. It was basically the "lets meet us for the last time party" Lots of people from different classes actually wanted my number because yah know I was the funniest guy in the school. Literally only 2 guys ever spoke over WhatsApp afterwards with me and eventually they removed me from their contacts because I wasnt sure what to talk about.

People ghost really fast these days ill tell you not.

There was basically a 3th party just a few months ago with 8 college guys, 6 boys, 2 girls (both have boyfriends which is a surprise considering that Vicky had some kind of chronic allergy, like she was constantly sneezing it actually just pissed me off seeing her sneezy all around the clock, all year long, like her Boyfriend must go insane from this because I sure would) I was technically invited and they wanted to go out eating pizza and then dancing at a rave, but I needed to study for exams and was to petty to come because I seriously cant stand any of these people. They actually always wanted to do something with me, all 6 guys, very intelligent and motivated, but they are total sub5 guys except like Tom whos a MTN also the only one whos got a girlfriend that lives like 800 miles away lmao, no idea who she is probably he found her over Insta or Tinder or something I never asked.

 

[Runt171]

One was a party a guy from the neighborhood invited me who was a friend of my former ex-best friend. They smoked weed and watched football, there was only 1 girl which was the gf of my 'buddy'. I only remember she was a retard and nearly a landwhale - she was 14 we all were 16, except that pedophile druggy that he always took along with himself who was 24 at the time - I was secretly pissed off that he invited that guy too, like bruh hes a 6'4 tall 24 yo aggressive drug addict - basically was what i thought back then. I belive he was actually like his dealer or something. Hated that guy!

The second party was my, well, final highschool party. It was basically the "lets meet us for the last time party" Lots of people from different classes actually wanted my number because yah know I was the funniest guy in the school. Literally only 2 guys ever spoke over WhatsApp afterwards with me and eventually they removed me from their contacts because I wasnt sure what to talk about.

People ghost really fast these days ill tell you not.

There was basically a 3th party just a few months ago with 8 college guys, 6 boys, 2 girls (both have boyfriends which is a surprise considering that Vicky had some kind of chronic allergy, like she was constantly sneezing it actually just pissed me off seeing her sneezy all around the clock, all year long, like her Boyfriend must go insane from this because I sure would) I was technically invited and they wanted to go out eating pizza and then dancing at a rave, but I needed to study for exams and was to petty to come because I seriously cant stand any of these people. They actually always wanted to do something with me, all 6 guys, very intelligent and motivated, but they are total sub5 guys except like Tom whos a MTN also the only one whos got a girlfriend that lives like 800 miles away lmao, no idea who she is probably he found her over Insta or Tinder or something I never asked.

Literally only 2 guys ever spoke over WhatsApp afterwards with me and eventually they removed me from their contacts because I wasnt sure what to talk about.

People ghost really fast these days ill tell you not.

Yeah if you dont provide people constant entertainment as a sub 5 and you dont have strong bond with them they will just throw you away

(both have boyfriends which is a surprise considering that Vicky had some kind of chronic allergy, like she was constantly sneezing it actually just pissed me off seeing her sneezy all around the clock, all year long, like her Boyfriend must go insane from this because I sure would)

Women will always find someone desperate enough to put up with their flaws men dont get that lucky though
Im guessing she isnt ugly or anything either so If you had your chance with her you would cope enough to put up with her sneezeMaxxxing just like that guy

I was technically invited and they wanted to go out eating pizza and then dancing at a rave, but I needed to study for exams and was to petty to come because I seriously cant stand any of these people. They actually always wanted to do something with me, all 6 guys, very intelligent and motivated, but they are total sub5 guys

It probably would have been shit going to the party anyway If you are sub 5 especially if you dont like these people

Atleast these people seem to actually like you though so you got luckier then most people on this site especially if they are incels it should be alot easier to put up with them instead of normies who mog you

Thats unless they just want you around to jestermaxx or something like that
Judging by your name im guessing it is something like that but hopefully not

 

[UglyDumbass]

Did you even read the entire story??

Its annoying whenever you mention anything about a party or anything like that on this site people will start calling you a normie without even reading the post

Dbdr has been to partys before and he definitely isn't a normie

he is a normie Incels don’t get invited to parties i don’t need to read ur story. Only parties we go too is a parents friends party or families

 

[Runt171]

he is a normie Incels don’t get invited to parties i don’t need to read ur story. Only parties we go too is a parents friends party or families

Whatever man
If your not even going to read the story dont even fucking comment on whether im a normie or not because If you took the time to read what I spent time into typing out you would realise im not

 

[lastchancel]

tl;dr: did drugs at party, couldn't find friend, talked to normies who didn't want to talk to some stranger on drugs. Tried sui because of this for some reason.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I only ever went to a few secondary school parties as a teen. At some point it dawned on me that I was mostly just watching the party rather than participating in it, so I decided to stop going. And that's all she wrote.

 

[WastedEyezz]

A guy in high school invited me to a "party" at this dudes house to watch a pay-per-view UFC fight with four or five other guys. I had to sit there for 3 hours pretending I enjoyed two Brazilian retards kicking each other's nuts. I was extremely nervous and got bullied really hard the whole time while my "friend" sat there and giggled. That was the only time I got invited to a social gathering that wasn't mandated by work or school.

 

[short]

They

In 5th grade I invited all my friends to a party at my house and nobody came I even handmade all the invites...

This world is a fucked. We humans start becoming cruel at a very young age.

 

[nirvanacowboy]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

And that is the most brootal party story of all

 

[notcracklord]

This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until
I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story
This was around a year ago now maybe longer

I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys
it was just us that went

we drove 2 hours to bristol to a free party that was in the countryside somewhere
When we got there it was around midnight

The party had a big speaker system and the usual rave lighting on the rig
The area around it was all fields and there was a couple of windmills above the speakers


We did some ket he had and we also got drunk
I had never done ket before But he offered it to me and I felt like trying it

We were together for probably the first hour
He “lost” me but im pretty sure he just ditched me he never really explained to me fully what happened even though I asked him
I dont even know when it happened it must have been when we were in the crowd infront of the speakers


I Was searching for him for awhile but I couldn't find him
I was high from the ket but not to the point where I didnt know what was going on
I tried speaking to groups of people to see if they had seen him or if I could join any of them but they hadn’t and no one wanted me to join their groups

At some point alot of crackhead type people ended up speaking to me while I was walking around the party searching for him and one of them was paranoid that I was a fed because I was wearing a bulky jacket and He thought I had a wire on we nearly ended up fighting over it because he wouldnt calm down

After that guy fucked off I carried on having a “conversation” with a few of the other crackhead people that kept talking to me but I wouldnt really call it a conversation because they were all fucked up on ket and whatever else to varying levels
I dont know what We talked about I just remember the conversations being strange and not making much sense But I was bored so I just stayed with them

there was this guy near the group I was talking to that was fully ketted out and he was like a stone statue just stood in place in the exact same position since I had started talking to this group he had probably been there for hours
I asked him if he was okay and he obviously didn’t answer because he was gone
it was like he had completely shut down except his eyes that were following me with every movement I made
he was just staring at me every time I moved he would follow me around with his massive eyes

Its brutal to see the things people do to try and escape their lives this guy was sub 5 so he probably took alot of ket to try and distract himself from the same sort of experience I was having but ended up in this state instead
I didnt see him again after that so maybe someone helped him

Every sub 5 I saw at this party looked like they were having a horrible time even the ones in their group of friends
I tried to speak to a couple of the ones I saw but it never led to anything
probably because they were coping and didnt want to believe that we were on the same level in the hierachy

I just gave up trying to talk to anyone at that point

Hours since I had got there After realising I wasnt going to find my friend and no one that wasn’t completely fucked up wanted to speak to me I sat on a hill that overlooked the whole party and realised it was over for me

the way it happened kind of reminds me of the club scene from whatever
I was just watching down on all the normies easily socialising and enjoying themselves while I was like a ghost forced to spectate them

I knew that I would always be a failure in life
all the negative feelings from the night and my life in general just hit me at once and the ket probably made it way worse

View attachment 1180098

I attempted to walk to a nearby road because I wanted to throw myself in front of a car
I walked through the field that surrounded the party
The long grass completely soaked my clothes because It had been raining the day before
I felt like I was walking through a jungle

I never made it to the road and even if I did there was no cars coming anyway since we were far in the countryside
All of this happened in the winter so I ended up laying in the field freezing cold after I had given up trying to walk to the road
I laid there for hours just staring at the grey sky above me hearing the music of the party in the distance
my friend and some random girl with her bf found me and helped me up and I was unresponsive from then on because I was done with my life

At this point it was morning and everyone still at the party was commenting on how fucked up I looked to their friends
I was extremely pale from the cold completely soaked in water with my clothes messed up from the mud and dirt in the field
I would have looked like a zombie
I wouldn’t be surprised if theres a video of me somewhere online

We then had to drive home for another 2 hours and I just ended up falling asleep

Its brutal to think I was so excited for this party before we went and I ended the night nearly offing myself

It took me a few days to recover from what Happened and It hit me very hard that I had tried to kill myself because Id never tried before I knew if I made it to the road and there were really cars I would have followed through and I would be dead
I had to think about whether that would have been the better option for my life
And Honestly it would have been

I messaged him to try and ask what happened but like I said he never gave me a straight answer

Idk if he realised that I was trying to kill myself when He found me in the field and it doesnt seem like he would care anyway

Since then he hasnt tried to meet me at all
He occasionally messages me but I dont really talk to him anymore
He still talks to my other friends so I cant fully cut him off

The main thing that pisses me off Is this guy basically ruined my life but He still didnt value me as a friend or care about me

We were kicked out of school together I wont explain the entire story But He was the only one that would of been kicked out for what we did but I admited my part in it because he has aspergers and I thought he would get bullied and not be able to make new friends in another school
I thought we would be put into the same school but we were split up

He made friends easily at his new school and I was bullied and treated like shit in every other school I was put into

I never fit in again like I did at the school we were kicked out of
My one chance at life was completely ruined because of this cunt

I just wanted to be a good friend and my bluepilled naivity and loyalty ruined my entire life this guy never thanked me for what I did even though He knew why I did it
He knew my entire life was ruined because of this but still never thanked me

The stress of being treated like shit after moving schools probably ruined my puberty too I stopped eating as much food from the stress and my sleep was completely ruined all of this made me into an 5’7 incel framelet


I probably could have lived a better life had I not been kicked out but maybe my life would have went to shit anyway

Nope never been invited I was the one of the only kids who didn’t get invited to a leavers party a girl hosted.

 

[Runt171]

Nope never been invited I was the one of the only kids who didn’t get invited to a leavers party a girl hosted.

I never got invited to any other partys either

I technically wasn't really invited to this party since Anyone who knew about it could go

 

[ifeellost]

This is a long story I had kind of blocked it out of my memory until
I saw someone else post An experience they had at a party and it reminded me of this story
This was around a year ago now maybe longer

I went with My “friend” who goes to alot of raves and partys
it was just us that went

we drove 2 hours to bristol to a free party that was in the countryside somewhere
When we got there it was around midnight

The party had a big speaker system and the usual rave lighting on the rig
The area around it was all fields and there was a couple of windmills above the speakers


We did some ket he had and we also got drunk
I had never done ket before But he offered it to me and I felt like trying it

We were together for probably the first hour
He “lost” me but im pretty sure he just ditched me he never really explained to me fully what happened even though I asked him
I dont even know when it happened it must have been when we were in the crowd infront of the speakers


I Was searching for him for awhile but I couldn't find him
I was high from the ket but not to the point where I didnt know what was going on
I tried speaking to groups of people to see if they had seen him or if I could join any of them but they hadn’t and no one wanted me to join their groups

At some point alot of crackhead type people ended up speaking to me while I was walking around the party searching for him and one of them was paranoid that I was a fed because I was wearing a bulky jacket and He thought I had a wire on we nearly ended up fighting over it because he wouldnt calm down

After that guy fucked off I carried on having a “conversation” with a few of the other crackhead people that kept talking to me but I wouldnt really call it a conversation because they were all fucked up on ket and whatever else to varying levels
I dont know what We talked about I just remember the conversations being strange and not making much sense But I was bored so I just stayed with them

there was this guy near the group I was talking to that was fully ketted out and he was like a stone statue just stood in place in the exact same position since I had started talking to this group he had probably been there for hours
I asked him if he was okay and he obviously didn’t answer because he was gone
it was like he had completely shut down except his eyes that were following me with every movement I made
he was just staring at me every time I moved he would follow me around with his massive eyes

Its brutal to see the things people do to try and escape their lives this guy was sub 5 so he probably took alot of ket to try and distract himself from the same sort of experience I was having but ended up in this state instead
I didnt see him again after that so maybe someone helped him

Every sub 5 I saw at this party looked like they were having a horrible time even the ones in their group of friends
I tried to speak to a couple of the ones I saw but it never led to anything
probably because they were coping and didnt want to believe that we were on the same level in the hierachy

I just gave up trying to talk to anyone at that point

Hours since I had got there After realising I wasnt going to find my friend and no one that wasn’t completely fucked up wanted to speak to me I sat on a hill that overlooked the whole party and realised it was over for me

the way it happened kind of reminds me of the club scene from whatever
I was just watching down on all the normies easily socialising and enjoying themselves while I was like a ghost forced to spectate them

I knew that I would always be a failure in life
all the negative feelings from the night and my life in general just hit me at once and the ket probably made it way worse

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I attempted to walk to a nearby road because I wanted to throw myself in front of a car
I walked through the field that surrounded the party
The long grass completely soaked my clothes because It had been raining the day before
I felt like I was walking through a jungle

I never made it to the road and even if I did there was no cars coming anyway since we were far in the countryside
All of this happened in the winter so I ended up laying in the field freezing cold after I had given up trying to walk to the road
I laid there for hours just staring at the grey sky above me hearing the music of the party in the distance
my friend and some random girl with her bf found me and helped me up and I was unresponsive from then on because I was done with my life

At this point it was morning and everyone still at the party was commenting on how fucked up I looked to their friends
I was extremely pale from the cold completely soaked in water with my clothes messed up from the mud and dirt in the field
I would have looked like a zombie
I wouldn’t be surprised if theres a video of me somewhere online

We then had to drive home for another 2 hours and I just ended up falling asleep

Its brutal to think I was so excited for this party before we went and I ended the night nearly offing myself

It took me a few days to recover from what Happened and It hit me very hard that I had tried to kill myself because Id never tried before I knew if I made it to the road and there were really cars I would have followed through and I would be dead
I had to think about whether that would have been the better option for my life
And Honestly it would have been

I messaged him to try and ask what happened but like I said he never gave me a straight answer

Idk if he realised that I was trying to kill myself when He found me in the field and it doesnt seem like he would care anyway

Since then he hasnt tried to meet me at all
He occasionally messages me but I dont really talk to him anymore
He still talks to my other friends so I cant fully cut him off

The main thing that pisses me off Is this guy basically ruined my life but He still didnt value me as a friend or care about me

We were kicked out of school together I wont explain the entire story But He was the only one that would of been kicked out for what we did but I admited my part in it because he has aspergers and I thought he would get bullied and not be able to make new friends in another school
I thought we would be put into the same school but we were split up

He made friends easily at his new school and I was bullied and treated like shit in every other school I was put into

I never fit in again like I did at the school we were kicked out of
My one chance at life was completely ruined because of this cunt

I just wanted to be a good friend and my bluepilled naivity and loyalty ruined my entire life this guy never thanked me for what I did even though He knew why I did it
He knew my entire life was ruined because of this but still never thanked me

The stress of being treated like shit after moving schools probably ruined my puberty too I stopped eating as much food from the stress and my sleep was completely ruined all of this made me into an 5’7 incel framelet


I probably could have lived a better life had I not been kicked out but maybe my life would have went to shit anyway

brutal i am sorry

 

[wastedcodeine]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

 

[Runt171]

tl;dr: did drugs at party, couldn't find friend, talked to normies who didn't want to talk to some stranger on drugs. Tried sui because of this for some reason.

If you dont realise I wanted to commit suicide because of my life in general and not just because of the party then your a dumbass


Your acting like everyone there wasn’t on drugs
The type of people that go to these partys arent against talking to strangers thats half the reason they go there

 

[Runt171]

brutal i am sorry

I appreciate it

 

[Runt171]

A guy in high school invited me to a "party" at this dudes house to watch a pay-per-view UFC fight with four or five other guys. I had to sit there for 3 hours pretending I enjoyed two Brazilian retards kicking each other's nuts. I was extremely nervous and got bullied really hard the whole time while my "friend" sat there and giggled. That was the only time I got invited to a social gathering that wasn't mandated by work or school.

Brutal
Especially that last part
How old are you??

 

[PersonalityChad]

I don't go to parties so no.

In 5th grade I invited all my friends to a party at my house and nobody came I even handmade all the invites...

Brutal. I'm sorry brocel

 

[Runt171]

I only ever went to a few secondary school parties as a teen. At some point it dawned on me that I was mostly just watching the party rather than participating in it, so I decided to stop going. And that's all she wrote.

That’s probably for the best as an incel
Theres nothing for you at parties apart from taking drugs and If you dont enjoy that theres no point going

 

[Dealer of Kangas]

I don't attend nor get invited to parties

 

[Runt171]

That’s surprising with your name @Dealer

 

[Deep.Nest]

never been to a party, even while in college

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Theres nothing for you at parties apart from taking drugs and If you dont enjoy that theres no point going

If there were drugs there, I sure never noticed. I was still young tho.

 

[Runt171]

If there were drugs there, I sure never noticed. I was still young tho.

I guess it depends what type of party it is they might just be getting drunk
There probably was drugs there though

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I guess it depends what type of party it is they might just be getting drunk

they weren't barn burners

 

[Runt171]

they weren't barn burners

Idk what that means im ngl

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Idk what that means im ngl

a barn burner is an exciting event

 

[Runt171]

a barn burner is an exciting event

Does it even count as a party if they arent getting drunk or anything??

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Does it even count as a party if they arent getting drunk or anything??

there were kids as young as twelve there. I must've been about that age myself when I attended those parties

 

[Runt171]

there were kids as young as twelve there. I must've been about that age myself when I attended those parties

I thought you meant you were a teenager at that point

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I thought you meant you were a teenager at that point

In the Netherlands most kids starting secondary school are about 12 or 13 if I'm not mistaken. I may be off by a year or so. If you're American, Dutch secondary school encompasses both middle school and high school.

 

[Runt171]

In the Netherlands most kids starting secondary school are about 12 or 13 if I'm not mistaken. I may be off by a year or so. If you're American, Dutch secondary school encompasses both middle school and high school.

Im from the Uk
I know this is off topic but If your from the netherlands how tall are you??

If you have a decent height you could probably seamaxxxxxx

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I know this is off topic but If your from the netherlands how tall are you??

5'7" so no dice

 

[Runt171]

5'7" so no dice

Fuckkkk
You have my sympathies
Im around the same height in the uk So I cant imagine what Its like in the netherlands
theres a decent amount of tall people here and Im not even in london I just live in some random shithole

Being short while Living in a taller country Like the netherlands Is a death sentence
RIP