I apologize for not posting much these past few days. I've been trying to watch new shows or something and I was busy with that.
Anyway, I was watching some random YouTuber playing games, and suddenly, I got a random glimpse of my old dream that I had -- when I was younger. I was lying down on my bed, and beside me was my wife. She had long, black, beautiful hair, and she was sleeping softly right next to me. I looked at her face as she slept, and listened to her soft breaths. I closed my own eyes as I began to smile.
However, I opened them after my wife said my name and turned her head to the side to look at me, one eye open as she smiled. She told me she loved me as she rolled over to embrace me as me and her both drifted off to sleep.
That was a dream of mine, something I used to believe I could obtain one day.
However, now I know that dreaming was all for naught. I sit here every day at my computer, with a burning rage towards all foids. A dream like that could never be destined for me, for I was cursed to have this damned height of mine, and my disgusting face. The only situation a foid would smile while looking at me would either be while I was suffering and dying, or just because she finds my appearance humorous.
Even if I were to somehow, by a miracle done by the Lord himself, turn out to get married and in that exact situation with my wife; her soft sleeping would not bring me peace nor happiness. Instead, my very soul would be filled with rage as I would begin to strangle her as she lie on the bed. After I see the life drain from her eyes, only then would I finally be able to sleep soundly as her body goes cold right next to me.
Of course, the only one I truly wish to strangle in such a manner would be Ado.
One day perhaps, one day...
Anyway, I was watching some random YouTuber playing games, and suddenly, I got a random glimpse of my old dream that I had -- when I was younger. I was lying down on my bed, and beside me was my wife. She had long, black, beautiful hair, and she was sleeping softly right next to me. I looked at her face as she slept, and listened to her soft breaths. I closed my own eyes as I began to smile.
However, I opened them after my wife said my name and turned her head to the side to look at me, one eye open as she smiled. She told me she loved me as she rolled over to embrace me as me and her both drifted off to sleep.
That was a dream of mine, something I used to believe I could obtain one day.
However, now I know that dreaming was all for naught. I sit here every day at my computer, with a burning rage towards all foids. A dream like that could never be destined for me, for I was cursed to have this damned height of mine, and my disgusting face. The only situation a foid would smile while looking at me would either be while I was suffering and dying, or just because she finds my appearance humorous.
Even if I were to somehow, by a miracle done by the Lord himself, turn out to get married and in that exact situation with my wife; her soft sleeping would not bring me peace nor happiness. Instead, my very soul would be filled with rage as I would begin to strangle her as she lie on the bed. After I see the life drain from her eyes, only then would I finally be able to sleep soundly as her body goes cold right next to me.
Of course, the only one I truly wish to strangle in such a manner would be Ado.
One day perhaps, one day...
