Its kind of ironic to say this since I have an evangelion pfp atm, but I avoid living. I avoid going out. I avoid talking to people. I avoid trying out new things. I am constantly paranoid that something bad will happen if I talk to that person, or go to some place where people gather. I try my hardest to just float through life. What other choice do I have? Everything I tried my hand at as a kid ended in failure. Making friends by being kind? Fail. Kindness is for the weak. Normies love those who oppress them. They love power. Making a girlfriend? Rejection. My oneitis told me to "kys <3". I look like a 14 year old. Nobody takes me seriously due to my height, frame and face.
I know life can never give me what I want. It's better to be a shut Incel antisocial weirdo than go out of your way to interact with others, only to get humiliated and rejected.
It seems free will is another privilege which we will never have.
I know life can never give me what I want. It's better to be a shut Incel antisocial weirdo than go out of your way to interact with others, only to get humiliated and rejected.
It seems free will is another privilege which we will never have.
