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When something unexpected happens I can't do anything, I lack the spontaneity/flexibility of normal people, I cannot adapt to new conditions as quickly as normal people do.
Some examples: A few months ago I talked with a guy about snakes, shop talk between two guys who rarely have the opportunity to flex and then he suddenly told me that one of his snakes once bit him and that he nearly lost his arm. For about a minute my brain had an error and was completely off the rails, I felt bad for him but didn't know what to say/how I should express the condolence. After an awkward silence I told him something like the equivalent of "Shit sucks" in my native language and it felt so off. This happens all the time.
All my social interactions that don't have an occupational dimension feel inorganic and I hate the fact that people are so unpredictable/difficult to analyze. If there were warnings at least. In the moment where something unexpected happens I get completely thrown out of the concept.
"Improve your social skills" is just such a ridiculous thing to say, even if one thing is learnable you have to learn it all over again as soon as an unknown problem appears while the normie has a biological compass ingrained into his brain that shows him the way of normal response and prevents him from sperging out.
An analogy: If you don't understand the subject off an exam, you can try to learn stuff by hard, but as soon as a new problem appears it's over for you because then you won't make it in an acceptable time, while the person who understands it makes it, because he can use his knowledge in new/creative ways. Autism is the curse that prevents someone from ever understanding the subject of social interactions.
Some examples: A few months ago I talked with a guy about snakes, shop talk between two guys who rarely have the opportunity to flex and then he suddenly told me that one of his snakes once bit him and that he nearly lost his arm. For about a minute my brain had an error and was completely off the rails, I felt bad for him but didn't know what to say/how I should express the condolence. After an awkward silence I told him something like the equivalent of "Shit sucks" in my native language and it felt so off. This happens all the time.
All my social interactions that don't have an occupational dimension feel inorganic and I hate the fact that people are so unpredictable/difficult to analyze. If there were warnings at least. In the moment where something unexpected happens I get completely thrown out of the concept.
"Improve your social skills" is just such a ridiculous thing to say, even if one thing is learnable you have to learn it all over again as soon as an unknown problem appears while the normie has a biological compass ingrained into his brain that shows him the way of normal response and prevents him from sperging out.
An analogy: If you don't understand the subject off an exam, you can try to learn stuff by hard, but as soon as a new problem appears it's over for you because then you won't make it in an acceptable time, while the person who understands it makes it, because he can use his knowledge in new/creative ways. Autism is the curse that prevents someone from ever understanding the subject of social interactions.
