SuicideFuel I am disgusted by life itself

[goycel88]

I constantly think about roping since when im 12 but not because i don't want to suffer anymore or something,

I simply hate life, life as a whole, i reject it.
I dont need to feed my soul or body anything, i just want to lay down on the floor until everything ends .

Im not in a hurry to end it, i just have nothing to live for, nothing to look forward to, i wasted all my life and now im stuck in this limbo where every day is the same, i have no friends, no one to talk to, no videos are inteteresting, every conversation is boring, moving isnt worth it, eating makes me nauseous.

Sometimes i have an urge to lock in and get my life together, but id lack a direction, i don't know how i wanna be, what type of life i wanna be, the thing is i don't just "have to chose" because every possible outcome of my life disgusts me, id rather die now than live it, so i dont know how to move forward.

I look in people for someone to give me hope, but i can't find someone who would give a fuck if i died, i am just gonna rot in my bed attached to the hope that someone used to care about me, but im all alone.

So everything with life in it, like food, bright colours , children , light, smiles, all this stuff immediatly generates in me a sense of rejection

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

I hate the fact that life is a rigged game and there is nothing you can do.

 

[PLS HALP ME]

I constantly think about roping since when im 12 but not because i don't want to suffer anymore or something,

I simply hate life, life as a whole, i reject it.
I dont need to feed my soul or body anything, i just want to lay down on the floor until everything ends .

Im not in a hurry to end it, i just have nothing to live for, nothing to look forward to, i wasted all my life and now im stuck in this limbo where every day is the same, i have no friends, no one to talk to, no videos are inteteresting, every conversation is boring, moving isnt worth it, eating makes me nauseous.

Sometimes i have an urge to lock in and get my life together, but id lack a direction, i don't know how i wanna be, what type of life i wanna be, the thing is i don't just "have to chose" because every possible outcome of my life disgusts me, id rather die now than live it, so i dont know how to move forward.

I look in people for someone to give me hope, but i can't find someone who would give a fuck if i died, i am just gonna rot in my bed attached to the hope that someone used to care about me, but im all alone.

So everything with life in it, like food, bright colours , children , light, smiles, all this stuff immediatly generates in me a sense of rejection

Are you Christian?

 

[PLS HALP ME]

I hate the fact that life is a rigged game and there is nothing you can do.

A game we only lost.

 

[goycel88]

Are you Christian?

Yes ,i know this feeling is bad and im trying to get rid of it, im glad i identified it at least ig

 

[PLS HALP ME]

Yes ,i know this feeling is bad and im trying to get rid of it, im glad i identified it at least ig

I'm also going through a difficult time. I'll pray for you. Jesus doesn't give up on us. Jesus will heal this pain you're feeling.

 

[goycel88]

I'm also going through a difficult time. I'll pray for you. Jesus doesn't give up on us. Jesus will heal this pain you're feeling.

I'll pray for you too brother. Life can be beautiful im sure it will be

 

[PLS HALP ME]

I'll pray for you too brother. Life can be beautiful im sure it will be

The white pill can help.All of this will pass, nothing will ever end.

 

[Soystein]

Relateable, I have no friends no life and don't care about it.

Sometimes i have an urge to lock in and get my life together, but id lack a direction, i don't know how i wanna be, what type of life i wanna be, the thing is i don't just "have to chose" because every possible outcome of my life disgusts me, id rather die now than live it, so i dont know how to move forward.

 

[WadeAbuSufyan]

I get similar thoughts. Life just feels so stale. Like there's nothing to look forward to; everything is slop, nobody is genuine and we will all end up as corpo slaves unless we choose to be NEETS. It's hell and there's nothing we can do abt it but suffer.

 

[Spice]

I hate life because the world is evil

 

[goycel88]

Relateable, I have no friends no life and don't care about it.

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You get it, u can feel superior to normies in a way, even if its pathetic its all i have and im emotionally attached to what i do have

 

[goycel88]

I get similar thoughts. Life just feels so stale. Like there's nothing to look forward to; everything is slop, nobody is genuine and we will all end up as corpo slaves unless we choose to be NEETS. It's hell and there's nothing we can do abt it but suffer.

Good people are so rare bro u never meet them irl. Its so hard and not worth it, id rather never leave my house then be stuck in this fuckass society with a job and collegues and hate all of it