mentally lost cel 1
A Ghost in Istanbul
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For years I wanted to be in an actual fight and win it ,I possibly lost a fight years ago imo maybe it might be different if no one ended it,for 10 years I want to win a fight to prove myself that I’m not a pathetic autistic weird loser
but I keep getting mogged or losing the fights (1 proper fight in 10 years and it ended in 15 seconds ,everyone pulled us back)
I actually am scared to fight if I’m not super super angry , if I’m angry nothing could stop me probably,I think I’m always trying to prove to myself that I’m strong and capable as other people but I always ran away or doesn’t want to fight at all
man I wish everyone was scared from me and maybe I’m not as strong and capable as others
but I keep getting mogged or losing the fights (1 proper fight in 10 years and it ended in 15 seconds ,everyone pulled us back)
I actually am scared to fight if I’m not super super angry , if I’m angry nothing could stop me probably,I think I’m always trying to prove to myself that I’m strong and capable as other people but I always ran away or doesn’t want to fight at all
man I wish everyone was scared from me and maybe I’m not as strong and capable as others