I tested once again depriving my brain from internet use. i become a crippled men with so much stuff going in me Brain. I turn Nuts.
Said to myself:
"ill try to not login as a challenge, or reach out to youtube bp content" and see how it plays in my Head. It was a Battle Royale. You see.. The thing that gets me the most is that, none of This "you can quit anytime" bares fruit, Because you naturally seek food for your Soul, and the easiest most reliable Path to achieve is a state of deprivation, which i live it Against my will 24/7 in this room "a concoted inner world" of mine which i have Refined Greatly along the years, yet the more i Refine it the emptier i feel. Because i see, all i am really doing is caressing what the void gives me and it turns to Dust as much as i think "hey this is the real castle" not the one from "yesterday" it Falls back again as i look from the Hill. i just imagined it.
Said to myself:
"ill try to not login as a challenge, or reach out to youtube bp content" and see how it plays in my Head. It was a Battle Royale. You see.. The thing that gets me the most is that, none of This "you can quit anytime" bares fruit, Because you naturally seek food for your Soul, and the easiest most reliable Path to achieve is a state of deprivation, which i live it Against my will 24/7 in this room "a concoted inner world" of mine which i have Refined Greatly along the years, yet the more i Refine it the emptier i feel. Because i see, all i am really doing is caressing what the void gives me and it turns to Dust as much as i think "hey this is the real castle" not the one from "yesterday" it Falls back again as i look from the Hill. i just imagined it.
