I actually cried last night

[Blancmange]

I cried myself to sleep last night, I'm embarrassed to admit it, but the loneliness got so intense, I'm usually not a 'crier'.

You'd think that you'd finally get used to being alone constantly - your whole life, but you never really get used to it. Years and years of never hearing a kind word and never being touched by another human does awful things to a person, it's so draining. Sometimes I even freak out when I wake up as the reality of this existence dawns on me.

..at least I'm not suicidal, I came awfully close in July/August, even did a Robin Williams style 'hanging experiment' to see how fast it works as a preliminary test, I deduced that it would be a long lingering death as the rope seemed to ride up & get supported by my jawbone, possibly due to having a slim neck and boney jaw, it took a full 2 minutes before even the slightest hint of foggyness/dizzyness occurred.
I hope that I don't go back to being suicidal again, it scares me a lot.

Oh well..

 

[Hunter]

I havent cried in years, I dont understand how people cry

 

[ihaveno1]

 

[SmugMohito]

I havent cried in years, I dont understand how people cry

 

[Insomniac]

Sorry to hear that bro.

I get more angry than sad now tbh. I still cry from time to time but I’m mostly pissed off.

 

[PaulSmenis]

I've mostly either killed off or learned to control that part of identity.

For some incels it comes with time. For others...hardening may not be reasonably viable.

Regardless, people do tend to mellow out as they age. So, if you live long enough, at least the psychological aspect can lighten a bit in many cases.

 

[angrytreeclimber]

Eating a bullet would be the best option. Fuck a rope.

 

[Akira]

Same. But to be fair, I had just seen a really emotional dog video.

 

[acnescarcel]

I'm never crying again and haven't in years

 

[megasw]

I got teary eyed at the end of red dead 2 but I don't really cry that much tbh when I get sad it seems to turn into anger for me

 

[incels.REEEE]

I cried myself to sleep last night, I'm embarrassed to admit it, but the loneliness got so intense, I'm usually not a 'crier'.

You'd think that you'd finally get used to being alone constantly - your whole life, but you never really get used to it. Years and years of never hearing a kind word and never being touched by another human does awful things to a person, it's so draining. Sometimes I even freak out when I wake up as the reality of this existence dawns on me.

..at least I'm not suicidal, I came awfully close in July/August, even did a Robin Williams style 'hanging experiment' to see how fast it works as a preliminary test, I deduced that it would be a long lingering death as the rope seemed to ride up & get supported by my jawbone, possibly due to having a slim neck and boney jaw, it took a full 2 minutes before even the slightest hint of foggyness/dizzyness occurred.
I hope that I don't go back to being suicidal again, it scares me a lot.

Oh well..

The last time I cried was during this past Summer. I hadn't cried in at least a year since. I had been alone for months and smoked a lot of weed. One night, I was lonely and ended up getting stoned. I went onto Netflix after and found a movie that had been the essence of both my childhood and Elliot's: Land Before Time. I hadn't even thought about that movie for years. Being stoned and having the childhood memories of innocence and bliss flood back was enough to make me sob. What really got to me though was the song and how unselfish the characters were. I may be hardened, broken and lonely but in the end we're all just innocent children inside.

 

[DisposableMale01]

one can only cope for so long, brothER...

 

[nice_try]

To all the guys saying "I didn't cry in years, I don't know how people cry", let me tell you:
I was one of you, but if life hits you hard ... real hard ... it'll come and it'll be intense.

 

[Blancmange]

I have found some solace today with a good friend called alcohol

I've been drinking coke with blobs of icecream mixed in and a few shots of spirits poured in. It's pretty good

 

[Deleted member 1780]

I hope you feel bettER.

 

[Michael15651]

I got teary eyed at the end of red dead 2 but I don't really cry that much tbh when I get sad it seems to turn into anger for me

RD2 story was good, online absolutley sucks. It's like a backwards orgy thrown in with a few dwarfs and santa clause and then calling it art

 

[megasw]

RD2 story was good, online absolutley sucks. It's like a backwards orgy thrown in with a few dwarfs and santa clause and then calling it art

I gotta wait till Friday for online, is it that bad?